new-train-split.csv

Participant_ID,Text,PHQ8_Score,PCL-C,PTSD,PHQ8_Binary
369,ellie starts sure yeah 'm great thank asking um know laughter oh awesome uh 'm guatemala parents migrated united states like three years old yeah mhm yeah 's pretty cool know uh n't actually n't back hometown since forever uh know family mom dad cousins aunts uncle practically life probably mean would nice visit know curiousity n't know gone guess oh okay um love people everyone 's nice love diversity know 's different types people know imaginations everything great know everyone 's different know one 's like least aspects um love scenery love know mountains 're beautiful know great hikes know taking know dog family know 's nice 's pretty active yeah uh smog laughter uh n't like smog 's know go um know could tell air know know everything 's clearer sky bluer laughter um like know traffic laughter nobody likes traffic think yeah yeah um yeah 's know pretty much l_a pretty nice know 's like um well studying basic know um 'm sure exactly wan na 's kind know jumping hoops stuff really set yet 's 'm still trying find interests suppose um dream job hm 's good one um love working children would say probably child psychologist 'cause know 's great know learn 's going young minds know could help children develop better way know make children know help know help know grow positive way supposed instead like going wrong track yeah know help children uh depends depends situation 'm sometimes know could like super outgoing like know sometimes like could quiet whatnot paying attention know 'm like class whatever n't really like 's everyone talking 'd prefer stay away know 'cause need something else concentrate something else know 's like moment time everything suppose yeah um like kick feet couch like read good book know get mind going another know galaxy universe situation know 's pretty fun know know reading relaxed know feeling good yeah 's fun love reading um 'm okay 'm like best know temper controlling person know try best guess 's could keep better eventually 'm like best mean sometimes outbursts know um know guess 's everyone 'm sure haha know uh huh 's good question um hm n't remember laughter uh let 's see uh honestly ca n't recall maybe uh goodness n't know laughter 've 've uh sometimes 'm passive 'll like let things go 'cause mean 's point making big deal things know um huh n't know 'm ca n't honestly ca n't tell laughter moment sure yeah probably come back um huh well guess younger know uh could 've better older sister n't makes feel guilty sure know could 've better sister better role model laughter know 'm trying best 'm trying make things better 's working laughter yeah woo um guess huh hm n't know mean 'm person events happened life erase something 's something present self know would change n't know 'm pretty okay person mean know n't think would change event know 'm 'm okay know ups downs good bad happened yeah uh ca n't see shoes um n't travel lot um kind like explorer guess love explore like even smallest things like go hiking go trail know find way top know somehow way make know um traveling uh would love n't know know always circumstances life n't know always something know 'm getting married children know 's kind like know would nice guess know would nice know love camping 's kind like know 's taking days trips camping know fishing laughter yeah um hm summer know husband went camping really nice know like one like beautiful middle woods beautiful lake know really nice yeah yeah yeah yeah really fun like would love know right would great know going 's love adventure things nature life know overall yeah uh 's 's easy lately n't able sleep like night right away n't know know 'm laying 'm like trying go sleep 'm like ugh eventually laughter know probably like need position different side bed like sometimes 'm 'm headboard 'm like ah got ta go side position like go sleep know got ta find position pos right position yeah um 'm tired laughter get tired throughout throughout day know kind try shake know kind like feel like 's new day know try make day great possible know try like make sleeping night day laughter know yeah yeah yeah 's know 's okay try make best guess go sleep throughout day sucks yeah uh laughter uh feeling good yeah 've feeling really good um know lot things life know 'm really good year far 'm happy know everything 's know going good know yeah except got cold horrible 's nature laughter immune system work harder laughter yeah um super happy uh doctor told pregnant know really really happy like ah know laughter really really good know excited reading 's going body 's going baby oh 's overwhelming 's scary time laughter 've never really like uh know yeah 've yeah happy uh um n't know um guess uh know like know could know 's know ca n't really know say specific thing guess mean depends person meets tell ca n't really tell like oh 'm 'm know try best try portray something good people tell know compliment yeah um laughter nothing think laughter um like said 'm 'm happy person right know flaws whatever know might whatever flaw people see it'ts okay know 'm okay whatever 'm gon na 'm ca n't change likings people laughter one body one life yeah yeah 's uh childhood sisters family know 's know learn learn past kind feel like hey know maybe better role model know children children could better role models world could improve um smile happy know whatever hard things happen know 're gon na get eventually know thing ca n't um n't know ca n't know go back death know could know heartbreak 's whatever know long 'm alive 'm still got ta keep going yeah laughter um n't know um 's pretty huh proud guess 'm trying best best could 's pretty powerful know 'm know try know better person day try like know improve every day much know would probably something could super proud know much hard laughter 'm gon na lie um really hard know 'cause ca n't say know 's easy bad 's hard good know know 's 's always challenges everything goes know life know 's 's 's sometimes know hard know sometimes comes easy know get lot practice everything 's like great day n't even try laughter know yeah um know loving friendly um outgoing know adventurous guess n't know guess 's say laughter know 's like know 's least try know least try give best foot forward always much possible know even sometimes even 'm rough day 'm like uh know know n't wan na take anyone anything know yeah um laughter ideal weekend usually like going park like sitting like tree tree actually tree 's shade kind like put blanket dog like read book know sometimes n't dog like 's little squirrels running around like feed 's pretty neat know sitting enjoying air noise n noise guess 'cause 's silence know wind cars know 's 's really neat yeah awesome thank 're welcome laughter bye,0.0,no,25,0
423,yes 'm well los angeles greater los angeles area people diversity various entertainment activities um fickle weather traffic litter traveled domestically internationally seeing places people live culture last trip went san diego uh childhood adult um family vacations um baja rosarito beach yeah reason memory comes mind um weekend easter usually go easter east easter spring break rosarito baja um bachelor 's b bachelor 's communication studies 's open field n't deal um communication interactively performing arts telecommunications business entrepreneurship 'm 'm actually unemployed um think business 's dream dream job company um would like open something like telecommunications area business something online online services um like make things hands next venture would would create natural soy candles something area um mixture mixture shy outgoing observe people crowds 's usually make determination remain reserved remain open listen like meditation tape take walk go get massage fair oh man laughter uh probably yesterday morning um usually argument making clear repeating twice usually gets person trouble mm redeemed service mechanic fixed transmission warranty wrote department consumer affairs guy offered portion settlement agreement decided take small claims court get bigger amount wish would 've taken offer gave midst dealing third party department consumer affairs took small claims court end losing whole settlement offered small portion wish would 've taken higher road taken lower road n't tend feel guilty many things hardest decision uh n't know financially emotionally mm emotionally letting go past relationship 's hardest thing wo n't say hardest thing difficult thing yes relationship seven years um person already moved uh want life hopes something goes wrong current relationship 'll always something fall back uh yeah hard um event something could erase memory um n't know laughter 's lot events automatically erase memory whatever comes mind right um probably death relative um alone misinformed n't know sick n't know um days numbered could 've opportunity spend time make better better connection last days um 's fair midland mm immediate 'm close distant close mother um yes uh 's encouraged continue education always fall back hobbies hopes goals dreams always encourages always stay aloof looking better opportunity encourages afraid explore ventures easy laughter easy laughter 've feeling well um yes little stressed 'm trying manage leave stressful environment um past three years ago um issues learning environment um feeling f feeling emotionally attacked yeah uh issue professor n't know different personality almost ran crosswalk school felt felt um like dishonest environment felt like wanted get know switch class get another class choice stay deal meanness whole semester um think finding p_t_s_d trying link depression financially 'm capable n't found counselor willing committed working helping issues find lot counselors listen laugh tell opposite 's 'm telling mhm mm last time felt really happy really n't know 's good question um want relaxed relaxed know n't know laughter n't best friends best qualities 'm uh hard working 'm reliable 'm excellent friend um 'm energetic 'm go getter things wish could change probably less sensitive n't take things personally um learn help helping others n't regrets life um could 've things differently ten years ago probably would 've focused studied less house hanging friends mm got college education 'm self sufficient pay bills laughter 'm alive goodbye,0.0,no,27,0
318,yes 'm alright los angeles california yep um lights big city 's always something going traffic 's uh business administration business management uh 'm something else 'm networking moment sigh hmm uh open big clothing line supply whole world clothing laughter yeah definitely uh 'cause 'm 's laughter often times yeah lied guess people think 're dumber laughter uh try get away everything go space well 'm great controlling temper sigh um probably like two days ago laughter probably sports n't real argument sharp inhaling lot travel enough able see get change pace see somebody new see new faces new environment mm let see last trip vegas know vegas goes pretty fun lotta lotta drinking lot partying going laughter um pretty open-minded 'm kind pretty much everybody 'm pretty even-keel guy 's alright could better ma'am nope uh lately 's pretty tough guess 've staying late uh 's fault laughter n't know guess 'm night owl sudden 'm turning owl sluggish tired day n't sleep well day 'm laying around much mm laughter oh stay focused listen adults laughter yeah mean 's self-explanatory could 've listened parents adults tried steer right way know 're stubborn kid uh ages 's like talking life want n't listen see laughter telling correct um hilarious laughter pretty close uh parents mother father mm recently um new year 's eve party time life fun uh new year 's eve went party friend 's house baldwin hills area pretty nice house 's three story house like three hundred fifty people pretty fun also fun many people could n't really move downfall besides brought new year great tons friends 's 's supposed done um 'm generally good mood every day mean waking puts good mood guess could say um n't know good good meal laughter makes clicking sounds mouth ooh one memorable experiences probably uh younger boy scouts used go camping time one year went yellowstone yosemite one places work mountain biking merit badge course city 'm like mountain biking ride mountain bike got real mountains got real mountain bikes gained new respect mountain bikers pretty fun pretty intense going downhill forty five miles hour dirt bicycle pretty intense 'll 'll never forget mm n't know 's tough one answer proud n't know honestly bye,3.0,no,19,0
447,yeah 's perfectly fine 'm feeling great uh 's early morning n't school 'm excited laughter uh born raised los angeles california mhm uh fact surf snowboard like two drastically different things one day uh coming neighborhoods 've lived uh tisk 'd say population uh lower socio economic backgrounds 's like cesspool almost young african americans sucks uh really 've new york connecticut mexico texas pretty young hmm laughter uh mostly 'm traveling plane sight air amazing 's remarkable uh first time went new york eleven years old made sure got window seat plane feeling taking exhilarating uh left um tisk night l_a next day new york kind confusing getting used time change first thing remember uh getting slice new york pizza delicious laughter yep laughter scrubbed_entry graduating bachelor 's degree communications go military officer actually 's like n't know 's like got ta plan 's thing 's fallen place seems like 's going fall place hmm honest job n't exist laughter 's however get paid nothing laughter yeah uh probably definitely shy kid 've grown experience college 'm way outspoken uh write music work mostly 'm feeling stressed set push ups lift weights 'm pretty good um saw therapist kid year uh n't know taught able control emotions n't think best way 'm angry decide like bottle emotions instead letting appropriate outlets uh really 's uh interpersonal thing 's n't n't know probably yesterday something regards sports playoffs things like nature um sigh hm sigh many um guess senior year high school waited last minute apply u_c schools unsuccessful n't get turn applications 'm pretty sure would 've admitted sucks hey intriguing question sigh um 've actually clue death grandmother sure um grandmother died eleven years old raised time born mother unable take care raised sister brother cousin well five children matriarch family sigh closest thing 've mother tough um 's gon na seven years may next thirtieth uh 've grown quite bit tears uh 'm foster kid emancipated foster program uh two years ago um immediate family 'm pretty close see much uh foster family 're awesome 've known since five 's pretty cool fairly easy fall asleep pretty quick 's problem except back 's hurting know 's problem mm tisk little moody morning guess drive aggressively laughter uh little stressed problems take care n't stress either something ca n't 's way things work uh sure um hm hm uh uh parking ticket parking tickets 're moving violations 're tickets unaware miss court without hospital jail could n't excused making making court date three failure appears court sucked tickets thousands dollars money n't know 's 's pretty tough deal 're trying make something life 're many barriers obstacles like n't forsee n't know gets stressful times yeah thinking periods time days sit 'm lost thoughts n't really communicate anyone 's nothing anybody really bottle like everything long becomes natural thing believe hm really happy oh difficult question uh mm n't know 'm pretty content everything right n't know extreme happiness every day day seems like uh dunking across street clippers center 's basketball court uh 've working finally got laugher yeah mm four close friends 've known uh eight years uh n't know studious hardworking determined mm n't know laughter yeah laughter mm probably metabolism n't really control uh n't know 'm pretty content hmm sigh think uh sixth grade year uh uh grade school uh n't best students teacher diligent like failed whole year learned lot uh developed passion school afterwards like situation overcome feeling bad uh teacher made feel really bad actually n't like sterness n't think would 've getting discipline college stuff 's pretty influential uh remember time desert uh uh joshua tree best friend dad actually got stuck mountains like went gully jeep would n't get rock pretty yeah um tisk kinda weird thought superman tried move rock thousands pounds n't work yeah eventually got thought gon na stuck desert fun time got drive desert n't license fun yeah day general mm like u_c thing like n't apply schools time regret yeah hm n't know ten years old ten years ago laughter uh 'd probably say uh sigh clue 's 's interesting question uh first immediate college coll uh immediate family mother brothers sister go college yes 's 's pretty yeah problem,1.0,no,25,0
383,yeah 'm totally fine confidential know words wo words everybody 's get wild laughter 'm pretty good hanging nice weather um recent change feeling looking laughter digitial 'm saying uh n't know 's yeah 's funny um tisk always thought uh conveying emotions feelings uh like better understood human interaction opposed non human entity yeah think see mean laughter 'm um born raised los angeles venice area mar vista specifically um 's 'm um well 's lot n't like like public transportation coming uh idea certain know medical drugs like marijuana prevalent know topic thought upon feel los angeles ' deep culture um stay pursue art 's lot 's lot gain different communities understand laughter yeah um well human mentality um hectic chaotic know lot due vehicle car freeway idea 're grind know yeah 's 's 's 's hectic um atmosphere human atmosphere conducive supporting loving community help kind thing yeah well ca n't see shoes laughter um love travel love hiking love surfing swimming biking riding taking rides uh laughter love travel yeah um travels 's like well enjoy lot things travel 's like 's 's like enjoy uh trapped city uh made ties restraints enjoy traveling get see world really instead uh faux image know man man made image love traveling get get see world thanks laughter would laughter okay laughter um well um kind recently last year went los banos central california area although n't far l_a completely different energy um phones wifi 's t_v um sanity relative sanity sense um people n't diluted getting input digital media outer influence people raw real hiking chilling working hot spring resort got breath hike farm lot carpentry yeah um hard n't n't even think difficulty 're things truly love enjoy n't um guess uh kind described city wanted uh get kind kind get really experience real real deal yeah um well currently 'm studying um currently 'm studying physical therapy 'm become licensed massage therapist yeah kind cool going scrubbed_entry um music composition writing scores films animations dance productions theater productions stuff like yeah cool fun trippy trippy um cool leave tuition hikes know going like fifty thousand year like four year b_f_a uh deal trying trap uh chains federal loans yeah hey 's good word sucks laughter um dream job hm dream job would anything exhale alleviate uh metropolitan like cities nightmare 've put dream alleviate nightmare dream incite dream back within modern human world know physical therapy artistic expression 've got great ideas laughter yeah um guess outgoing like like experiencing things outgoing yeah laughter thought really funny um relax uh kind breath chill maybe make smoothie tea go bike riding write yeah hmm pretty good guess n't yelled long time um well n't arguing n't n't really argue much like state opinion understood like person 'm conversing say opinion understood last time happened uh guess yesterday chilling downtown friend new york talking writing basically arguing talking opinions sometimes things ready written yeah yesterday hm guilty 's tough n't feeling long time guilt 's something feel guilty laughter okay mm n't really wish could erase anything memory 'cause would like would feel something lacking current present life something got erased know butterfly effect kind like yeah hmm um maybe time scrubbed_entry um going school taking year kind hanging around um apartment together another friend n't turn know nothing turns 's thought 's kind beautiful thing one turned little uh little different actually quite different thought would thought funny yeah ended uh leaving lease ended actually ended yeah us separating 's something wish uh maybe handled little thoughtfully hardest decision huh hm maybe maybe hardest hard decision make leaving school dropping uh continuation achieving b_f_a yeah could 've hardest um 's uh n't mean course money money motto money 's big issue tution hikes going around whole nation fan fan support fan support um yeah 's probably one biggest reasons n't support crazy tution hikes going around um another reason decided leave make hard decision decide leave also um art institute know um 's 's funny idea already basically musician taught musician make music know dancers theatre students know getting taught dance dancer dancer dance know 's um yeah 's quite artistic thought art would art shh art comes somewhere uh somewhere sweet deep purple uh know yeah hm um 's kind easy mean depends know remember make chamomile tea remember breathe go mantras remember pre like dream therapy work get real nice um get deluded thought takes long time remember breathe yeah um yeah basically said breathing know 'm hanging friends coming home late get lucky chance uh medicated know nice nice indica um really know indica put pretty nice pretty drowsy lot things breathing know mm know medical herbs uh like chamomile cannabis uh going relieving bad bad juju laughter mm mm guess ca n't think something 've feeling kind like kind like kind cruising grey line 's nice grey 's really nice hue um people would n't like really like 's uh 's stable yeah 's 's comfortable yeah n't certified um medical professional n't laughter um yeah mean think like whole know like said p_t_s_d depression know know mental instabilities think everybody depressed think everybody overjoyed think everybody 's angry think everybody 's shy everybody 's social time know 's different days different know variants different floats different boats know different waves different swells um yeah think 'm depressed think 'm really happy think 'm really angry think 'm really friendly know different variants different floats really happy um mean feel really happy lot uh feel really sad lot really happy uh guess maybe morning biking enjoying sun enjoying breeze biking yeah laughter um well lot best friends describe pretty differently underlying idea maybe 'm uh maybe nutshell kind aquarius guess well 'm twenty one twenty years ago laughter would 've told keep baby uh stay young n't lose sight know n't stop listening keep letting things happen n't make happen beautiful baby 's would 've told yeah beautiful baby mm um well guess recently shown uh um ability work others 'm mainly speaking artistic standpoint 've uh collaborating lot artists working lot different um mediums mixed media projects 'm really comfortable peoples melting ideas together yeah mm 's weird question like um like 's trying make single know one moment today reflect upon think like 's past glory 'm capable fulfilling today think proudest moment life right chiling hanging yeah thank mm 's interesting um immediate family uh mother father younger sister older brother older brother south asia kind backpacking around uh younger sis 's really chill kind music hang 're really cool mom mama 'm really chill love death uh gets dad uh n't get love art makes crazy painting kind get uh uh yeah needs communication worked upon hm cool yeah thanks wondering thoughts goodbye guess push guy oh could still talk laughter could push button kind fun laughter laught laugh one time laughter things laugh,7.0,no,28,0
310,yes 's okay laughter fine laughter live hollywood uh seattle laughter uh 's kind vague question um laughter needed change scenery uh like traveling train 's favorite thing uh n't fly ca n't stand airplanes prefer trains yeah laughter uh uh flying airplane clears throat mm probably december nineteen eighty six eighty seven laughter laughter uh 's nothing uh much tell really usually go l_a seattle vancouver 's probably main thing took train laughter uh often every five years oh yeah sure absolutely yeah uh depends 'm annoyed could anything depends laughter depends whether 's uh something someone know eh 's someone mean 'm n't n't uh n't get physical towards mean 've clears throat depends 've done piss mean 'm certainly uh shouting whatever reason depends uh terms lashing people physically n't order let aggressions need 'll 'm know punching wall punching something nearby mean 'm trying know long n't physically hurt know get steam let let steam well 's normal uh sigh face face uh sigh mm ca n't remember 's long time eh mean eh argue people online stupid shit yeah 's 's normal shit far like face face know 's long time clears throat currently overall one mean someone 'm contact someone maybe past clears throat laughter okay uh mom uh uh boyfriend teenager like father figure fourteen pretty positive influence laughter uh open record shop yeah uh 'm unemployed office worker right laughter specific laughter sigh going first date girlfriend back uh two thousand seven first met uh clears throat made arrangements meet daughter daughter 's friends queen mary long beach uh know cement evening cement day evening together uh hanging eating dinner ate hotel yeah got know way yeah yeah uh well beginning relationship 's knew know girlfriend time laughter currently yeah yeah uh n't sucks balls hate roommates sucks laughter laughter god laughter mm ways 's okay 'cause n't see much 'cause 'm really around times need need space know uh 's difficult way get uh get along n't really see much 's design cough sigh uh sigh like alone sometimes read mainly like alone maybe maybe nothing depends clears throat 'm sorry repeat necessarily clears throat 'm heavy sleeper clears throat n't know would call 'm necessarily would call know cheery n't know 'm necessarily yeah yeah time sigh uh mm 's hard say n't know uh 'm sure clears throat mm n't know 'm really one one ask know think laughter ask someone else know difficult time answering question laughter proud uh n't n't fall drugs like lot people know yeah hmm clears throat listening music vinyl around dogs mm uh spent new year 's eve friend real close friend laughter really laughter laughter laughter laughter 'm glad n't think 're uh especially los angeles drive nuts ca n't stand clears throat uh assume mean post-high school um uh briefly took basic uh take uh general studies remember actually n't finish quit uh uh go play band skipped lot school n't really laughter know nothing uh junior college coll community college n't go university stop going n't interested laughter interests elsewhere quit going know terms oh sure everyone regret something know 'm 'm gon na get specific yeah sure laughter things regret sure clears throat mm twenty years ago ninety three oh mm well ten years ago uh two thousand three hmm 's hard say 's hard say gon na go come back one maybe oh n't best friend days laughter think depends definition friend uh n't uh clears throat n't hang many people know ha best so-called best friend know like laughter twenty year twenty odd years ago know n't really 'm much loner days n't really would consider best really close friend know eh n't laughter okay see ya laughter,4.0,no,35,0
305,'m alright uh originally 'm california uh born glendale 'm happy uh unemployed moment uh actively seeking uh uh 'm supposed uh uh prospects hopefully 'll learn something today yeah well one 's girlfriend consider roommate lover type thing pardon um 're pretty close uh met last year uh 've troubling times uh 're starting see light end tunnel uh troubling times uh would let see uh well uh gotten d_u_i last year uh lost job 'm truck driver trade uh kinda threw way uh fourteen hundred dollar week job uh going nothing kinda like plus losing license kinda really threw uh could n't um n't really uh found anything interested uh started cooking trying see route go far uh kind career uh 'm choose choosing go culinary field know uh meanwhile still work 's hard find work uh without going school uh think today uh applied ralphs hopefully 'll get job job actually um 'm starting see light like said end tunnel little little dream job would probably forestry service wilderness yeah like alone pardon well know lot animals 'm exotic animal trainer trade uh like n't like people much uh outdoors uh 've always enjoyed outdoors 's like truck driver 've traveled world n't necessarily like warehouse office 'm outdoors type guy uh one trips would uh spent year half japan uh uh lower island uh uh built bridge uh largest bridge world uh uh went work uh white oh uh white tiger act uh working japanese circus interesting lot people island n't really seen lot americans 'cause also one islands uh bombed lot negativity pretty good idea know outlook uh life uh especially times know enjoyed know traveling meeting new people um eating know different um diverse foods uh good experience whole experience pretty good know traveling around circuses uh know 's great uh probably um one things like l_a 's lot like l_a um like hollywood like movie industry um uh huge uh um different different people know different uh different ethnics uh people know uh enjoy talking uh know lot foreigners know like see came 's like traffic 's atrocious know traffic laughter uh ignorance uh disrespected uh disrespectful whatever know people disrespectful toward people um 's dishonesty pardon uh happens daily basis seems like know ride bus lot uh know 'm riding bike uh people tend almost run 'm totally paying attention traffic uh know find sometimes know wait see 're gon na instead right way uh something like yeah big time 'm annoyed um probably sit uh sit vent know uh speak mind even though lot times 's 'm know like know assholes whatever um well know carry rocks back pocket know happens much amazes people sometimes know almost get run know probably almost get run probably daily basis n't paying attention 'd shit creek uh 's hard dealing people especially trying react 'cause 's consequences reactions um girlfriend uh honest uh um 'm pretty honest 'm open honest anything everything uh uh lying uh telling told landlord something done something aspect come find week later total lie know n't like pardon um 'm trying 'm missing word uh n't know whether could believe anything says uh felt hurt know uh know relationship little bit well 's probably one biggest uh pet peeves honest um n't like said n't hold back 'm pretty honest anything everything say know 're lying something well 're always cover uh lies lies already told n't see know kinda took lot uh trusting know whatever 'm know truthful know 's kinda hurt relationship ca n't nothing uh fun like going beach uh love shooting darts n't done love love paint uh got watercolor painting 'm pretty gifted um uh wan na try mediums uh let 's see love fishing uh n't gone though uh like driving truck know uh 's know job know really really enjoyed n't like driving cities uh usually 'm middle night see stars like star gazing 'll see um pick uh astronomy uh stars um 'm pretty easy going guy shooting pool um sunshine like uh memorable experiences um good bad uh memorable experiences uh probably uh playing lions tigers uh uh wrestling baby elephant mud puddle uh uh enjoying know uh n't much family uh least states n't mom 's central america uh 'm close uh three brothers one sister 'm probably really really close none siblings speak one brother uh quite bit um youngest brother know 'd rather know converse con converse 's know try keep professional basis sister n't talk brother underneath n't spoken years 'm close mom uh niece nephews 's done anything avoid um avoid uh yeah n't talk n't call n't ask know talk mom quite bit brother quite bit n't bring subjects brought usually say know 's really n't wan na deal um 's hard lately 's probably hard last uh going year um know uh depends thought process time like said 've looking work quite bit um wondering know n't get called racing thoughts get depressed know 'cause worry things know really control n't lately sleeping bit much uh least 'm used sleeping four five hours night 's changed eight nine hours 'm still tired uh lately probably last months um tired laughter um know n't sleep well sometimes dwell back things bothering know 'm guy know love work um 'm 's little bit much time spend head know um either 'm busy 'm know whatever job kinda know get enjoy uh 's something new uh think know either work think home think know n't worry know um money um know bills getting paid concentrate things either know things like mm know maybe spending little bit time girlfriend know something like cope um try think uh 's 's whether coping um 's uh 'm guy know may take moment um say 'm coping something know 's control 's nothing really thing control 'm 's actively looking work uh actively going uh interviews uh talking others work kinda know get back um back basics know n't let lot stuff bother bother try let continue bother gotten trouble mood swing mean um yeah money mean know past got past history uh kinda tends uh uh bother uh hiring process n't know 'm gon na get hired got ta deal uh different different type employers uh say uh felony friendly uh uh stuff like try know 've taken classes uh uh interview uh answer questions know come quite bit uh kinda reflect back uh got ta keep putting head 's wan na anymore know 've done uh 've done uh 've done time uh say uh took time know last time took lot time try uh work issues bothering um know toward positive stuff got g_e_d different things lot classes um uh thought going school n't go school uh anything would kinda um change old ways uh try move productive activities pardon still n't hear people deceitful repeat one time alright uh 've diagnosed uh bipolarism um 's tough n't know um n't medicate mean medication past sniff um 's try live life uh try live life life 's terms know um know medical establishments always wan na label something n't like experiment pills know 've probably every imaginable pill um know strong strong enough try cope things uh um 's life skills know n't n't wan na using drug know certain drugs work like three four months six months go well 'm gon na try 'm gon na try 's ongoing process probably last two years actually three years kinda said know 's um whether 's different whether would uhon meds um n't think know 's still stuff still get problems still uh get anxiety medication 'll deal know sometimes 's good know get irritated people lot n't like people um n't like crowds n't know like obnoxious people huge empty quiet um get person know 's personality think people see say uh n't mess guy know um still know like ride public transportation quite bit um know get lot loud obnoxious people sometimes got ta get bus 's deal people know 's consequences n't deal way let go 'd rather take time getting bus waiting next bus hopefully 's bad problem got uh well n't know knew problem um uh found thing know people um lot ups downs know lot younger days people would tell know told diagnosed know bipolar um lot remarks like oh 's 's wrong know 's wrong wish would 've would 've found years ago uh uh like n't think meds really work uh think uh time kinda like know getting older kind uh know makes work know dealing life pardon uh talked therapist probably weekly basis uh recently uh helps lot know uh get anger uh thoughts um lot people may understand uh therapist think bigger thing get uh whatever 's bothing whether uh people know uh uh issues know whatever case may think talking 're good listeners kinda like know give advice know know give whatever would give others uh 's always helpful hear somebody else somebody know know go school know 's good yeah well n't go anymore uh um kinda miss know like said uh uh miss lot actually uh 's one things know deal know uh according know ever get chance go therapy probably um well monetary reasons uh know uh n't health insurance 's lot things know 'd like ca n't know um know money situation 's great right friends describe um would probably describe uh uh energetic uh outgoing person uh get know people um laughs know laugh laugh lot um uh would probably tell 'm also serious uh uh hidden person n't reveal lot know uh someone positive influence life someone 's um someone 's positive influence life uh probably boss one bosses uh first started uh exotic animals real know uh uh german um n't teach n't know saw taught lot working exotic animals um showed lot confidence also built confidence uh sort let know know 's nothing really ca n't accomplish put mind know yeah 're welcome bye laughter,7.0,no,28,0
374,yes pretty good alexandria virginia mhm uh moved l_a uh end two thousand one yeah 's crazy laughter um couple times year usually like holidays hmm sigh sigh 's different um think 's lot mellow um 's way like suburbia 's nice um 's something comforting 's always like get little restless 'm look forward coming back 's little action sniffle went um grad school u_s_c um n't bad mean program intense like first year consuming really n't much spare time think adjustment like laughter life made kind um easier guess also like community people went school automatically knew people know made friends stuff n't bad film hmm sigh uh epiphany one day um undergrad kinda floundering little bit n't really know wanted um one day kinda like know really excited really passionate um realized movies movies thing love passionate decided go film school um little bit yes 's n't 'm 'm like little bit transitional period right yeah like last several years 've uh producing like freelance producer sniffle sigh question moment laughter um think uh n't necessarily like job title 's dream job knowit 's sort um want 'cause basically like 've living freelance lifestyle know like exhausting n't wan na anymore 'm looking something 's stable um know full time nice benefits um definitely wan na stay entertainment industry um like know love producing 's like 's constant challenges sort never know gon na get thrown 's know 's always interesting exciting um 'm sort trying figure right would good place reasonably challenged know sort like room grow advance sniffle yeah laughter ca n't see shoes um like travel um n't know n't really lot lately know past done fair amount um love adventure know new experiences new places new people um think 's good sort get little insular world see 's know see beautiful remarkable places things experience different ways living different languages different cultures sniffle um let 's see went costa rica couple years ago um like best friend growing went like ten days 's probably might like favorite trip time laughter like really awesome laughter costa rica like amazing beautiful um spent like went three different places um lot exploring like sightseeing ton hiking amazing like last place ended little beach town point like felt like know done like amazing physical exertion like ziplines hikes time got beach like 've earned right like kick back relax know kind hit know like fed sort desire adventure activity um also 'm also big fan vacations like veg relax like lie beach book sort hit everything sniffle laughter relax um sigh mean depending like 's know 'm like work something 'm stressed know kinda take minute like breathe really deeply try calm way um 'm home might like know throw movie like t_v show really like gives sense like sort escape relief sniffle um pretty good n't mean eh takes lot get angry n't happen often sniffle um last time argued someone laughter mom money laughter deep breath um felt really frustrated felt like like judging unfairly upsetting yeah laughter um 's good uh know live across country n't get see often like usually talk mom phone probably like week parents really supportive sigh um know like go back home visit like enjoy en enjoy hanging good time um 'd say pretty pretty good relationship deep breath something feel guilty um sigh makes sounds mouth guess 'm like sort job hunting phase feel guilty sometimes 'm like enough know like times like days maybe like 've sent resumes done stuff like feel guilty sometimes like productive enough sniffle deep breath um sigh usually 's pretty easy last last couple weeks like uncharacteristically like good 'm really sure n't figured um 've uh like nights either takes really long time go sleep wake middle night reason um 've also lot like really weird intense dreams like wake sometimes wake sometimes laughter 'm talking weird laughter um yeah 's n't know able identify mean guess maybe 'm like stressed usual 'cause like job situation like flux n't know like event sniffle cranky laughter value good sleep laughter 'm 'm used 's yeah 's good feeling sniffle um really yes deep breath um sigh like sigh think like october november although actually 's second time 's happened life first time like many many years ago sniffle um felt like really low like low get sniffle um sigh hard time functioning basic level like getting taking shower like going grocery store know answering emails like took much energy um yeah n't really functioning normally yeah yes yes um laughter sometimes others yeah overall would say deep breath think therapy good helps focus sort patterns um also like ah like observing like responding certain situations guess 's deep breath gives heightened like kind self-awareness um opposed like um kind reacting situations 'm like mm like noticing going um helps um n't know 's helpful laughter n't really real n't really know explain laughter deep breath sigh hmm sigh um n't know um laughter 's laughter probably good ca n't think laughter ca n't think anything sharp inhale um eh maybe uh christmas home family yeah um well like kind like starting come depression um like know live alone dog long period feeling laughter great sort kinda wishing family around um um felt like safe comfortable sort like know warm familial embrace laughter laughter um sigh laughter think would describe funny smart um good listener nonjudgmental um n't know laughter enough laughter deep breath hmm sigh okay um happened last like job mean n't technically freelancer working company like year half close two years uh small company boss bo really good relationship boss um sort clears throat sort nowhere uh mm told like downsizing basically um essentially like arrangement paid like monthly retainer services top would get paid fees per project like sat conversation like know major client like know bread butter company 're 're really cutting back like probably notice things getting really slow like yeah 's like 'm gon na onna 'm gon na onna stop paying retainer total surprise like okay went talk would still right first refusal projects came door know made seem like know even though would n't getting retainer anymore would throw enough work still like would n't know would n't like dramatic decrease amount money making cough excuse um like know nothing quality work love working 're fantastic yada yada make long story short ended happening firing um way basically like phasing company letting go point stopped calling stopped emailing later like couple months road um go back office couple projects still ongoing like client took really long time get back notes saw um guy worked us bunch kind like needed another producer like slammed would bring sort additional stuff job yeah like really rea laughter really shitty way like fired without told fired um like uh reason would like could would erase mind ca n't really think another situation made feel like angry frustrated like way 's like still even though like know several months ago feels unresolved still makes kinda like angry think yeah long explanation 's wish laughter deep breath um sigh let 's see um loyal person deep breath um smart 'm organized deep breath um like caring kind um 'm conscientious work hard sniffle laughter uh man think uh confident less passive um really like focus want things know make happy go get opposed sitting back waiting opportunities present sniffle hmm sigh um probably relationships formed people um like really know deep friendships 're welcome bye,2.0,no,19,0
391,yes kind n't boyfriend n't florida yep uh try find work um year mm boring um easy um 's harder n't enough much money get place live roommates um weather um good guh scenery um traffic 's expensive place much want um seeing different places different cultures building food stuff um let 's see okay um grew florida guess 's probably um drove south went alabama um people nicer louisiana people really nice mississippi texas new mexico mexico xico arizona california got see country little bit guess traveling country went loiusiana people really nice small town called jennings people always happy know fun funny um went high school basic stuff um n't know dream job n't know um interior designer stars yep well enough money get furniture get keep free furniture outgoing um watch t_v funny shows sh t_v shows um sometimes big bang theory sometimes like funny movie t_v pretty good um used live two weeks ago move um moved told n't n't marijuana marijuana plants one thing n't wan na around move 'cause stuff living room yeah yeah laughter um n't know good question um probably laughter probably probably n't know probably ex boyfriend broke yeah 's 's past 'm jerk anyway hardest decision sigh leaving home well 'cause better life california miss home yep sniff um roommates n't t_v loud pretty good sniff tired 'm lazier day sniff uh frustrated um 'm poor n't wan na sniff um 'm sad sniff oh wow um 's good 's like god two years um n't money problems fine um yeah oh uh um cats home california 're playing outside ideal weekend would nice um beach eating nice restaurant sniff um n't spend much money need future yeah save money um bank account um nice person laughter laughter sniff um um 'm person n't know uh um persevere uh 'd rather uh man years ago like mentor um taught things never complain sniff thankful everything um eyes people say pretty eyes um like dress sniff fun like try surfing go shopping maybe go art galleries bye laughter,9.0,yes,45,0
455,yes well uh ohio mhm uh finished school came start life uh often really often uh parents passed away 's reason reason going home prior uh 's really comparison know warm sunny four seasons 's different environment took minute get adjusted different culture uh adjusted know sunshine keeps uh love weather love fact ocean mountains um many things choose diversity find uh tend things n't like uh know 'm finding like means 's really nothing n't like yes uh love able explore different cultures able meet different people different set experiences time able find commonality uh types people 's rich experience um one uh guess 'm thinking egypt wonderful experiences uh go people warm loving experience knowledge get pursue exploring temples pyramids etcetera things like many really think uh seeing baby mosque really pure really stayed similar actually um 's probably one things remember one first trips uh let 's see interaction people food know incredible love food wow 've studied lots different things 've studied law 've studied um entertainment 've studied communications 've studied whatever want quite renaissance woman laughter laughter ah 's always way really explore things enjoy keeps fresh keeps happy keeps alive um allows able fully developed human able mhm um n't dream job per se um desire able free whatever choose daily basis uh probably outgoing mhm laughter well start day relaxed start day meditation uh several uh several spiritual practices perform move uh around get exercise uh keep everything humming everything moving uh move forward uh excellent laughter n't really one anymore argued um remember last time actually argument um n't know 's imagine last time argued something probably might related money situation wish handled differently know try take experience come try regrets hold guilt way anything uh went 're positive learning experiences uh get explore n't really see needing different need learn um really accept mhm hardest decision 've ever make um n't really quote quote hard decision know grew way uh mother extremely wonderful way always taught know life would never make decisions always taught say would always say 's life um decisions n't really come difficult make 're pretty easy make 've making since childhood n't really difficult decision 've ever made mm event could erase memory n't really one think would terrible would need erase everything learning experience 's nothing really regret erase uh easy soon hit pillow 'm uh great uh little uh physical exertion normal uh still great laughter mm overall attribute accredit spiritual practices perform daily basis keep pretty even tempered mm uh 's pretty much every day laughter feel really happy every day 'm thankful 'm grateful life uh 'm thankful everything comes uh smart uh loving uh intelligent funny uh outgoing 's probably probably friends would say uh 's really nothing think need laughter different uh like 'm okay everything way really laughter advice would given ten twenty years ago know um understand everything happened ten twenty years ago important terms developing person able go flow go experiences life order able learn move effortlessly situation comes recently really enjoyed uh uh cooked wonderful meal um 'cause love cooking something really enjoyed mhm wow willingness get know travel exploration practices practical application everything 've learned people cultures places importantly know god within bye,1.0,no,18,0
317,yes uh 'm okay little sleepy right 'm new york um wanted change environment wanted start somewhere um two years ago um took uh bit bit adjustment 'd say moderately uh difficult um getting used lifestyle different um different pace different environment new people clears throat um like um nightlife 's kind cosmopolitan city um um 's little crowded sometimes traffic gets little hectic um never laughter clears throat uh family uh parents passed away family longer keep touch 'm pretty alone yeah uh sometimes yes um locally travel since 've um change pace new environment um relaxation escape reality um n't traveled awhile 've moving around uh long time ago studied studied paris fun time um probably um um schools um meeting new people schools laughter um 'd yes 'd say yes time uh n't know 've n't know 'm like 'm always always reserved um pretty uh pretty good pretty controlled um people things n't make sense um n't know people seem deliberately trying annoy ca n't specific right 'm sorry um usually try work somehow uh take walks take ta yoga um living living 'm 'm currently work used work county sharp inhale cough um cough see um um probably prob probably uh something creative allows travel time laughter uh yes um maybe ten years ago um feeling overwhelmed anxious things happened um went therapy yes yes uh 've confident little ease less anxious yes um kind uh guess sorta sorta depressed generally uh uh feeling tired sluggish um less less motivated less interested things uh yes tell cough um guess easy-going um likes fun sometimes uh 'm smart innovative like try new things open-minded person tolerant um uh music uh seeing movies kind uh adventure somewhere um 'd say yesterday saw movie felt better uh james bond movie skyfall uh regret yes yeah sharp inhale um um careful trust life maybe um n't uh n't seem like right possibly yes um 'd say maybe ten te ten years ago um carefree time less stress less burden um good group friends um felt um uh capable confident things 'd say uh ca n't think anyone actually right um friends money issues spending much um school long time ago um speak phone n't really see anymore laughter um 'd say finishing grad school finishing um training um sea sea seamanship maritime school visual studies cinema studies yes thank goodbye,8.0,yes,51,0
448,yes pretty good oh born uh brooklyn new york came seven 've ever since uh n't consider anything californian laughter uh 'm welder um n't know something making um building things repairing things intrigued uh uh actually pretty good stuck 's profession sigh gee really never 've uh sigh kind always uh hoped would job could support family uh satisfied well uh recently lost uncle uh raised since seven years old uh wife n't family um passed away last uh july uh 'm starting get um knew day would come last living relative 've depressed uh uh 'm better depends atmosphere um 'm around people n't feel comfortable 'm kinda reserved uh 'm comfortable uh feel like fit well 'm outgoing laughter laughter right enjoy old movies uh old uh well 's called film noir uh love old black white movies get netflix amazon try pick movie 's uh back people different uh n't know 's different era enjoy sigh well wife says uh probably good think uh 've got admit sometimes lose temper according things n't losing temper um 'm working uh basically problem ever since young child oh yes laughter uh 've uh trouble law much younger 'm 'm passed point uh sigh know 're young think know everything uh know 're never gon na get old future n't matter uh matter everthing 're young uh follows rest life n't regret things 've done could go back definitely would make different choices uh wife w n't argue sigh disagree 's 's strong willed 's match laughter uh go back forth know n't get violent n't uh uh say meanful things hurt 're determined strong willed woman sniff kinda go back forth lately one sigh bow one lower threshold argument uh long run 's 's nobody else important um sigh tisk younger wish uh n't follow people followed mean know running circle certain people ego bigger common sense um 's got trouble sniff child uh kind enjoyed center attention um getting girls laugh people mm think know cool whatever would n't think 'm kinda overweight balding twenties completely different person sniff would 've brothers sisters may thought acted way child know ran people thought cool got trouble hardest decision ever make giving authorization um uncle pass away life support kidneys failed sigh um doctors said nothing could sigh go suffering let slip away see get upset uncle raised like son never let sniff 's gone lack better word push button never thought would sniff said 'm getting um things getting better slowly wife uh always sniff laughter always surprise 's wife 's best friend sniff laughter knows better know um coughs enjoy uh uh simple things 's ca n't things wanted sniff mesh um sniff enjoy 's company uh like things uh know occasionally go something together clears throat enjoy 's company like say knows better anybody um surprises sometimes mhm know sigh lately well ca n't say lately sniff n't coughs excuse n't rigorous activity something really uh stresses strains body let 's say couple days 'm relaxed know much automatically get four half five hours mean know wife say know guy 're getting sleep mean n't feel tired n't feel exhausted n't feel like need go back sleep 'll stay day 'm fine people would say 's enough sleep know 'm n't affect sniff well wish things could different uh 'm dissatisfied sniff um uh 'm happy life uh uh like anybody else 's things wish different think 's anybody everybody else 's uh know life um sniff 'm 'm 'm 'm 'm content yeah feel little less motivated sniff um recently well ca n't say recently back january um wife uh friends noticing um becoming forgetful could n't remember things n't see um know everybody brought attention started anyway went doctor um gave tests apparently m_c_i mild cognitive impairment uh 've last month nobody mentioned mean maybe 'm getting better neurologist saw sss come back year gon na retest um hopefully 's beginning stages alzheimer 's 'm still little young 'm fifty fif fifty two um diagnosed uh mild cognitive impairment uh could 've due also told uh death uncle could 've pretty depressed able retain things well 'm going back year 'll see uh 'm better 'm sorry 'm understanding 'm sorry h yes two thousand one um um uh word 'm looking sniff um state mind going get trouble benefit anything n't seek help um diagnosed uh depression anxiety disorder uh worrying thinking much things uh thinking worst uh take medication uh well w well know 's really therapy 's clears throat know every uh months know got ta see doctor fine everything good know refill prescription laughter 's know 's know kinda like next person next person 's 'm kaiser 's 's 'll talk give impression um know okay let 's move along know 'll th 'll hear explanation know n't time may want 'm fine really needed help would would something medication works sigh last time felt real happy well would depend event 'm always happy 'm something wife 're enjoying know 'm trying sound like 's whole world n't anything else world um enjoy 're things together sniff 'm happy time 're um sniff 'm outside circle n't know sounds right 'm seeking happiness explain 'm content 'm um 'm disappointed 'm uh wanting anything 'm know whatever comes way fine well um sniff n't know could n't give answer laughter um sniff well best friend wife uh sniff would um describe uh n't think speak um um let littlest insignificant things bother get angry big things 's like let go 's bewildered coughs um uh vocal fry years years ago um uh classic uh pontiac lemans gotten minor fender bender thought gon na end world 'cause baby sigh know hey n't worry 'll get fixed w thought laughter gon na hang something know know baby uh goes know get excited nothing know something like wrecking car love 've put many hours work money know gets crashed 's like n't care 's way explain well need lose weight see laughter 'm definitely uh eating binge uh uh neurologist said 's probably due event uncle um 'm heavy heav heaviest 've ever life 'm finding little bit harder um ca n't say harder 'm 'm finding power say stick go exercise know know movement going maybe walk know wife little bit younger used love going walks clears throat lived scrubbed_entry uh boy know look wonder 's inside know 's uh n't guess 's 're little bit older laughter little bit heavier 's harder walk weight laughter wish could change uh know 's healthy size sigh sigh uh lately n't regret anything lately um sniff everything 's fine like say biggest biggest impact life event uncle uh never ever hundred years ever thought would face situation sniff 'll never forget say time heals wounds laughter n't listen people uh 'm trying bring uncle happened used constantly tell uh would see things paths going constantly thought knew better think lot youngsters think anyway um young lady talking think 're invincible laughter figured ah 'm never gon na 'm never gon na problems um wish could 've changed things um coughs history past follows everybody limited lot opportunities lot things 'm able uh n't miss could go back uh ten twenty years definitely would n't make decisions made welding certificates um 'm uh certified american welding society 've uh sniff uh 's probably biggest achievement 've made know accomplishment um clears throat uh people know say 'm uh well n't working cars lately said natural knack uh restoration working vehicles n't see 've told twice 've kind 've kind started slip away n't ca n't say 's lack interest n't feel motivation wish pocket money 'd somebody else 's feel laughter okay well thank bye bye,18.0,yes,62,1
366,yeah 'm great uh los angeles california uh sigh like diversity feel l_a country 's much much explore uh 's nothing like traffic laughter uh would say traffic real estate prices kinda crazy compared rest country know 's fine traveled um traveled bit um would like travel though 've traveled 've countries um 've wo n't say europe 's continent um 've uh london deep breath um born family 's nigeria 've nigeria times 've denmark um amsterdam 've uh else gone uh germany um think 's think 's yeah think 's yeah exploring uh exploring exp exploring new places um seeing new things meeting new people different culture 's definitely um um gives appreciation life diversity also um going countries may developed u_s definitely definitely gives greater appreciation know country yeah okay well sigh uh let 's see london accident actually first heard going london really n't care 'cause n't know much thing remember mem remember watching mary poppins laughter um um went absolutely fell love um deep breath still sti hustle bustle l_a time go slow pace um n't driving went tube um like underground subway station absolutely fell love um exploring um different parts city went know big ben westminster abbey uh actually went premiere um movie um slumdog millionaire also premiere um seven seven pounds movie smith um smith know friends like kinda like screaming like like groupies laughter know laughter laughter know antics um yeah lot fun lot fun yeah uh business management option human resources management means idea laughter um good question 've always 've always wanted go business um 've always wanted study finance n't think would learn much finance college per se think 've learned real world whatnot option human resource 'm always fascinated know relationships people always like reading articles stuff went laughter well still still kinda use 've learned work property management um still people anything people 'm fascinated yeah laughter good one um dream job wow would say life coach would uh yeah would say would dream job love helping people become successes help love part someone else 's success even regardless small um whether words encouragement helping somebody figure situation like um help hel like helping people better life think uh know free 'd free like day yeah yeah outgoing definitely outgoing 'm usually um life well 's 's weird 'cause 'm usually considered like life party 'm one 's cracking jokes making everybody laugh time quiet yeah laughter right sigh relax usually listen music usually listen music relax pray relax listen really calm music yeah good good used uh would n't say bad temper known um go quote quote laughter know throwing chairs anything like 'm patient person patience patien gone really really really really push buttons long time 's done go mm mm sigh last time argued someone wow n't argued somebody long time um sigh boy mm uh argued would say think dad argued um sigh xxx um disagreeing things gon na supposed go back nigeria n't listening kind like group discussion siblings subjective n't open people 's suggestions suggestions concerns um started argument uh uh would n't say angry per se felt kinda like losing control like um 'm type like control emotions thoughts feel patience gone start going 's kinda like uh know wo n't call blur 'm witty quick say instantly say something know necessarily hurtful um direct point make sure get point across yeah um three brothers one one younger two older 'm close family mom one best friends um sigh brothers great um love 'em death uh father eh 's moreso picture yeah deep breath hmm sigh n't n't really 'm guilty type laughter n't feel guilty 'm one shy away 've done definitely 'm one shy away responsibility n't think ever feel guilty anything yeah n't think feel usually n't feel guilty yeah deep breath pretty pretty easy um pretty easy yeah 'm pretty good falling asleep except 'm excited 'm reading laughter 'm trying 'm 'm focused learning something like 'll read read read even 's past bed time 'm trying work waking much earlier 's kind struggle st little bit struggle 'm getting good um 've feeling 've feeling fine know 'm generally happy disposition uh know deep depressing moods nothing like whenever feel feel like 'm going n't allow go place nah sorry sigh mm sigh thoughts would say well 's would n't say necessarily changes 'd say moreso behaviors learning let go past decisions maybe kinda played course life um sometimes kinda look back say would 've would life games play 's hmm laughter regret uh mm mm n't anything regret sigh ten twenty years ago would say n't afraid um authentic um importantly hmm erase memory uh boy 's good one sigh hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm uh wow erase memory uh would say told told dad act like father maybe n't yeah um actually one times laughter another time went usually um uh basically decided go private um go away college um went decided stay local look little brother um sigh senior year overloading everything maybe like uh four a_p classes working working three jobs time also track field needless say laughter kinda like burning kinda like burning um n't well a_p calculus decided go j_c first transfer also save money college told know teacher called saying falling asleep class um mind school 'd work eight hour shift 'cause retail manager time um 'd come home shift homework mm calculus let alone um uh um would get upset told spoke counselor already told n't need class go j_c n't something continue 'm gon na ca n't drop point time 'm gon na know know take fail whatever n't n't like 'cause teacher laughter think maybe 's maybe came 's teacher well um started blaming like jobs wanting call boss much told know since 're father act like aggressive laughter way said um one thing oh actually remember regret one thing um wish continued um college throughout like burnt um spreading thin actually actually track graduate college wan na say nineteen 'cause started taking college classes high school starting sophomore year high school stuff stuff dad working kinda like stopped going school worked went back finish wish would 've continued maybe 's one small thing 's something small though yeah hmm 'm um 'm compassionate understanding person um like learning new things um 'm happy person people come advice 'm objective 'll tell good bad ugly um yeah best qualities yeah 'm fun like fun 'll fun situation make light situation like 'm kinda type ty type person break tension room 's sort sort uh tisk um personality trait yeah wish taller laughter um uh besides height hmm wish ah maybe n't know 's uh wo n't say touch emotions think would say understanding people 's people feel shoes think would one thing 'm type person people say love care 'm like okay great thank appreciate n't realize much think 's realizing much care love 's one thing would like get grasp laughter best friend deep breath uh describes someone 's funny crazy um objective um loyal um ambitious hardworking um mean laughter make jokes says 're mean um sigh laughter like joke around time um right 're actually planning um uh friend mine friend um baby shower 'm giving ideas 's another friend invited issues past someone n't talk hang used really close n't really talk person n't mind also talked havi celebrating birthday also kinda like baby shower another friend whose birthday baby shower really rea n't anything 'm like well 're celebrating person 's birthday might well definitely know honor person 's birthday well since 're closer know person xxx birthday 's passed said know wh n't celebrate everybody 's birthday laughter forget baby shower birthdays laughter 's 's said 're mean laughter laughing yeah yeah uh sigh proud life deep breath uh sigh would say family mentally emotionally strong person family 's gone lot challenges lotta times 've one make sure everything goes okay everything make sure su everything everythi make sure everything goes accordingly um 'd say anything making sure family yeah oh okay thank bye good one,0.0,no,20,0
449,okay yes 'm good thank laughter originally los angeles parents central america yes weather um like get water want uh hills hike element wan na get get traffic laughter busyness everybody 's always hurry um um 's laughter family central america husband try go warm places like mexico somewhere caribbean freedom daily routine guilty something said would 'm home 'm far away home n't anything worry laughter um recently went honduras 's family 's sort like 's 's dual fold get see family also kinda get away home imposing visit stay hotel way still kinda freedom feel like 'm obligated 's fun way experiences vacation um memorable experience probably hawaii lahaina love food 'm foodie pig roasted underground eating way 've never able taste way time else 's like memory 's deep memory 'cause matter pork 'll never taste like pork lahaina laughter business years ago ended marketing field 've enjoyed business background help marketing field dream job hmm well guess would food love cook reason hesitate love cook home friends family turn turn job feel would joyous would n't much fun know could job still fun joy cooking every day would dream job 'm outgoing laughter laughter 's cool laughter uh depends 'm 'm wherever 'm actually first thing kinda get hold way 'm always control matter 'm standing always say peace p p e c e kinda take deep breath assess situation figure control ca n't control proceed sort kinda deep breath sigh breathe get hold first 'm actually good 'm actually mild-tempered begin um n't really let anything agitate feel getting hot react sort like said little self check know eh might 've cussed might 've went second little self check say know come mm 's worth person 's worth situation worth stay actually husband going back forth relationship father trying get point across kinda overlooking feelings n't want overlook feelings act n't feeling way feeling kept stressing point different ways found debate 's pulled back said look babe feel 'm asking make feel differently 'm asking acknowledge feelings got conclusion felt triumphant point argument mind clarify felt impose know 's macho kinda manly guy n't want overshadow feelings logic said long felt better felt undestood felt heard hmm sigh let 's see son comes mind 's twenty two years old estranged relationship right 's okay 'm okay 's used little bit needy think assumed would always look xxx go looking call opposed waiting call think may weird answer wish early life mother would 've kind adjusted would n't comfortable waiting one come check n't live place waiting one come look know try make sure 's okay think probably way laughter ethereal meant would 've would 've done differently would 've mothered differently along way released earlier age meaning would 've treated adult also expected kinda know would 've killed expectation contour makes sense woo laughter 's easy sacrifice beyond physical things make sure put kid 's needs ahead guess second part answer easy realize long 're okay 're okay son daughter know love unconditionally parenting become easier 've lived truth 'm expecting anything also expecting disrespect long clear line communication whatever else going falls category respect seeing maybe make decisions wish would n't make uh could simple outfit laughter know choice much career change um sit back watch listen open kinda know wan na talk also also trying manage also age remember n't wan na managed even made mistake n't wan na judged difficult part watching go process sort kinda waiting around luckily 's nothing major kids whatever personal downfall kinda told told um spirit 's fulfilling knowing know created know planned kids 's 's real 's honor able 's honor 're healthy um 's fun watching sort kind grow 's like 're mini 's 're also different 's fun able allow uh celebrate 'm enjoying wow completely parents immigrated central america sixties um born year got mentality different wanted come get american lifestyle eh bad thing 's parenting style um making sure home making sure uh shelter course food clothes schooling really lot time spent relationship mother daughter daughter father daughter kinda figure came parent divorcing first husband um 'cause gon na one toppled whole situation um good father good husband twenty years knew gon na one say working anymore since domino effect ha virtual happened laughter ended selling house know dividing assets living separately kids kind little um made decisions n't wan na go much court hassle tina turner said give name keep everything else hard decision way affected kids 's cared terms losing everything physical material stuff could care less hard knew gon na affect kids thing concerned uh husband know see eye eye certain things xxx regarding marriage n't feel validated woman wife 's areas n't validate kinda saw partner helping fund extracurriculars whether travel whatever case may 'm 'm talk part bottom line whatever outside know sanctity home tired know working benefiting everything fulfilled woman wife n't prepared change xxx despite counseling went thought well working take care first low self-esteem know n't perfect lot things going learn love order uh order love children order get love get return laughter know 's actually pretty easy end day know good bad ugly indifferent whatever mistakes made day whatever great thing went day goal life peace mind put head night ask know anything 'm ashamed today cross anybody know 'm sanctimonious acting 'm pollyanna believe karma 'm god-fearing woman wan na make sure everything supposed today 's something rectify know make point promise go back rectify least learn make mistake another day really good light um know rough patches family individually like said son daughter 's teenager 's kinda coming 's different relationship 's opposite 'm 'm actually easygoing bohemian style 's social know 'm kinda find balance overall 's wo n't complain 'm happy simplistic lifestyle kinda foster every day enjoy little mini accomplishments whether anyone sees laughter n't thank god really happy let 's see uh 's home think wow mumbling different things running head um think daughter teenage daughter came understanding underst eh understanding mother daughter relationship 'm trying best friend yet n't mean ca n't talk think came day kinda gave big hug behind without really saying anything really felt accepting accepted fact accept tame moment kinda knew gave happiness nothing else could ever give laughter thank um laughter 'm easygoing 'm fun 'm know um eh chameleon comes mind kinda acclimate whatever situation 'm 'm honest 'm real know bold um 'm adult 'm adult woman know would decribe descr best friend would describe someone rely extremely reliable say say know n't n't deal b laughter hmm could change uh probably cosmetic things maybe would uh 's even true let think things would change um sounds weird would say much nothing really um think would little bit aware others think 'm 'm super sensitive others think would aware make sure 'm selfish 'm tuning anyone wan na get yoga wan na something else think would um observant aware around make sure 'm offending anybody n't regrets think time know 's 's natural go back say situation mindset would eh reality know everything happened point shaped ca n't know well take benefit turn around call regret know learned um probably sounds textbook 's true 's really live believe everything good bad ugly indifferent happened reason truly believe job take 'm supposed take take future 'm take know hard knocks joys hmm real 's 's one thing took twenty years kinda get um kinda honest embrace know get know uh learn infrastructure comfortable uh innate things part n't try revamp n't try revamp try become something 'm uh would 've still chosen marketing career still would 've still climbed corporate ladders would 've done internal place um lost terms family life would 've true way would n't kind resentments family uh role wife role mother think ultimately 's main fulfillment comes matter end life 's life uh body uh leased vehicle 'm um 'm gon na 'm gon na epitaph laughter somewhere cementary scrubbed_entry 'm always true mean 've always true time eighteen realized wanted married family kids think ultimately 's true fulfillment comes laughter cool thank bye,2.0,no,22,0
316,yes 'm fine new york uh business um hospitality 'm jobs um sneeze excuse um third lemmi see twenty six years ago mm year sun beach palm trees laughter mm sometimes uh people flashiness uh people self-centered flashiness 're sophisticated eh well educated easy teaching degree art degree sigh designing movie industry extremely never really pursued laughter mm like people like around people like friends social activity uh people n't true hmm happens time laughter usually try disregard try get upset argued sister obama whole fiscal cliff whatever thing called totally anything thought fix economy mm like swimming like museums like plays like concerts like dance traveling uh yes uh different environment learning different cultures meeting people well actually new york uh couple weeks ago n't back exhilirating learned love new york mhm yes uh couple years back feeling energized energi energized wa huh sorry yes yes uh sleep lot 's 'm motivated go fun yes um n't happy jobs least ten years eh went seeing father sick passing away recently seeing mother mother sick four years finally passed away hard mm well mm degree much like n't know sigh know know 's helped little bit 's definitely helped much want also ca n't get job xxx correct push farther get house try enjoy life know better yes sigh uh nephew called scrubbed_entry scrubbed_entry uh 'm pretty good person caring person xxx enjoyed well went movies recently n't gone awhile really enjoyed films one life pi anna anna karenina thoroughly enjoyed mm good caring friend somebody likes things mm 'd say mom mm 's getting easier um kind person even though kind cold hard world set still determined good caring person traveling uh going farther education yes laughter yes sigh sorry n't understand question sorry okay mm 've gone gotten farther education gotten master 's p_h_d think job search would lot easier clears throat yes sigh yes uh 've clears throat kind considerate helpful person mhm hmm like around arts 'm like like around creative people thank bye,6.0,no,33,0
303,okay 'bout california yeah oh well 's big broad 's lot lot um um job opportunities states um pretty much 's big 's lot traffic um maybe violence rate bad news even though know wan na know 's going environment still watch know look see 's going daily basis sociology um two year degree liberal arts major sociology 'm actually m_t_a bus operator well since metro steady growing um dream job move company 'm actually start classes supervisory next week um 'cause look promote within company 's good thing 's lot opportunities metro take classes 'll pay tuition things nature thanks well 's actually hard right 's easy take advantage right 'cause look promote within know since 'm already working 's good thing 's good go ahead take classes need 're interested go ahead move ladder soon possible mean 'm sorry okay read take long walk hot bath meditate close eyes sometimes 'm pretty much good see bus operator run circumstances situations got ta remain calm still remain professional time well look like goes mean comes experience know um something continuous basis usually somewhere line become good know look like 've driving years dealing public 's handle circumstances know treat people like wan na treated 'm pretty good maybe younger know get older get wiser learn different things 'm still learning today would say family know kids know even though know lot deaths around 's go 's part life experience know born got ta leave one day kids keep know sane know love family thank laughter um setting good examples know 're first teacher know wan na set positive good example kids think 's good thing starts home well um first teacher kids 're 're one see daily basis wake whatever 's taught home lookin ' learning every day know whether 's home school know people kids tendency things see know mean try keep positive teach 'em good morals values get along people regardless race know different things nature um four half year old son seven year old daughter also twenty three year old yeah 'm 'bout well daughter 's pregnant boy three um little girls three grandkids um one way boy time yeah thank hardest thing well right 'm single parent makes hard alone know expensive times know depends person 's situation know whether help job know things nature help situation better 's hard know try know keep job keep food house know maintain support kids best way kids period 's memorable 'm one family degree 's kinda like yeah 's kinda even though 'm baby ten kids know 've always kept back mind even though everybody well pretty much whole family decent job 'm one degree kinda like gave pat back like know know 's thing remember graduating know family support thank happy accomplished something know even though may much better high school diploma um working bachelor 's degree ended bad car accident never went back got distracted know working time like moreso needed income um schooling time young parent know 'cause daughter seventeen like needed money support never went back feel like 's never late feel like 'll take classes 'm metro help move ladder 's 'm starting class next week thank hm well advice would 've gave probably would n't young mother young age probably would 've stayed school know let accident distract would 've remained school probably would n't kids early know um rather probably would 've stayed school probably part time job something feel like um education excellent thing person knowledge learning different things keeping mind open learning new ideas every day think 's plus know anybody 's shoes better selves know education maybe um maybe promote within company whatever case may help better career 'm quite sure um learn mistakes know time n't continue make ones feel like 's okay make mistake long something change know um like even though 'm going school late still 'm going know wan na better career wise yes oldest daughter argument life 's living right things 's going um told needed make changes better situation uh got argument know kids sometimes n't wan na hear know hear stuff 're saying even though 's true know well n't wan na hear know may going something n't wan na hear got argument happened know told 'm 'm sorry close close 's situation daughter 's needs make changes better life 'll telling 's um 's kinda like stubborn way know raised listen mom know mom 's gon na tell nothing wrong 've telling years know different things 's 's kinda like talking wall opposite 's regretting know 'cause 's like mom told know mom 'm opposite guess got ta bump head couple times get 's kinda like done told done left alone 's make change 's frustrating 's like 'm talking wall 's hearing 'm like seem like 's taking forever change 's left individual whenever 're ready know mean person get tired something 'll make change may want happen ball court know much oh wow days um since two little ones um kinda like trained go bed eight clock know got ta go school think 's important good night 's rest kinda like clears throat kinda like gets ready next day know gon na feel rested type person 'll day know 'cause everybody days whether 're good bad 's part life feel like good night 's good good night 's rest hopefully 'll good day know pretty much know need rest 'm driving bus dealing people know job stressful feel like 'm rested 'll help like irritated tired um lazy know feel like wan na lay probably go sleep laughter get rest need laughter never thought know 'cause like said know everybody moments never thought hm n't really best friend person deal used work um would probably tell 'm um outgoing go getter dependable responsible 'm um people person get along others know 'm kinda like um leave good good mark whether know know like like know um 'd probably say oh seems like nice young lady whatever know something like thank well try stay happy 'd rather happy sad kids keep going know mean especially go pick school hey mom know kinda make day run know happy excited know mean thank 're welcome good day goodbye,0.0,no,17,0
372,yes um pretty good kind laughter yeah laughter los angeles yes thing like l_a weather 's easy meet people well feels like people n't much 're like movie crash people sit cars time um feels like much child development well son wanted know good mom wanted know stages uh would going eh able relate better mhm kind 'm trying get started fall 'd like write well um 've written children 's books 've research looking getting books published 's like two 've written far 're pretty good 've gotten good feedback critique groups laughter 's little boy 's surrounded people jerks tries become jerk laughter puts like really scrubbed_entry goes lot moods dealing people life mhm um 've issues nervous breakdowns actually right son staying dad laughter um 'm single mom hardest thing think world laughter single mom laughter cope deep breath um sigh well right um n't many good goo coping skills mechanisms problem 's spontaneous like stuff comes outta kids ' mouths sometimes stuff brings smile face um well son younger sitting around house comes starts hair says mom want put lipstick high heels ponytails go get married find boyfriend laughter yeah 's pretty spontaneous things like happen kid 's telling need single anymore laughter hardest thing sigh wanting screw feel lot stress pressure every little thing gon na make make difference matter kind person kid turns 's lot stress laughter yeah yeah laughter definitely um hmm think 'm different mom 'm little bit tolerant spontaneous interaction welcome know welcome getting know child right try mold somebody want see become best child best adult without molding direction necessarily different person laughter say 's someone 's positive influence um sigh mm n't really anybody like okay well 've tried meditate sometimes n't really stick often enough um 've tried like go walks n't always n't always stick laughter yeah 's sigh 'd say 'm little average meaning get angry people think hmm last night laughter telephone arguing husband um sister lives us lives us small room small apartment say 's got four people living one room um 's kind stressful 's really crowded husband stressed know 'm saying told told sister moved gon na mess house 's gon na asking things n't really wan na 's sister laughter house messy 's crowded every day 're asking rides husband 's avoiding coming home people home n't wan na anymore 'm saying 's gon na find way deal asked opinion laughter laughter hmm laughter oh 've got tons 'em right 's mind um losing custody son um right like 've arguing stepmom stepsister long time son treat want treated like n't boundaries believe boundaries important establishing 's adult 's child let child boss 'em around stuff anyways 're gon na testifying custody trial saying yeah 're gon na saying 'm good mom believe boundaries different ideas child raising 's stepmom 's dad 's fifth wife 's really n't 's really far removed raised wan na raise child similar raised 're independence boundaries knew rules expected us stepmom xxx rules expectation wants run wild everything wants 's fine 're grandparent problem live sometimes 'm house following rules trying go break rules sigh anyway laughter yeah um moment sigh really frustrated n't listen feel disrespected feel like invisible feel angry 're taking away right parent 's something worked really hard went school studied child development 've read magazines 've read books 'm really laughter know 'm talking feel confident parenting skills parenting abilities people n't done thing worked hard good parent try tell 'm bad parent 's really uh hard believe feel disrespected um unacknowledged angry frustrated things laughter um take take benadryl help sleep 'm laughter doctor gave laughter uh gave benadryl told could take help sleep last night crying went sleep sometimes thoughts start running head night 're bed tried push got took benadryl could go sleep easily laughter yeah 'm always thinking son wish unfair everything 's happening sniffle like n't deserve son taken 'm really good mom know sobbing 'm hard good mom feel confident 'm good mom n't really money take care son like dad son 's dad money right 'm trying okay know financially could n't mean 'm good mom laughter hmm 'm pretty depressed 'm anti-depressants um take wellbutrin couple weeks think 're working n't know 'm mean got today got dressed laughter made 'm today bad um sigh hmm husband complains lot says 'm person married said fun positive optimistic things 's another thing phone telling last night sniffle 'm things anymore laughter true mean got married year ago son taken shortly shock um 've trying get back 's hard think problem found found oh um yeah like crying lot something like cry time sobbing laughing n't take much cry 'm crying thinking crying like um family would invite family events would go cry son n't sniffle um n't know 's crying think like said husband letting know 'm person 's disappointed feel bad even crying laughing 'm person knew crying laughing feel bad another thing 'm feeling bad know crying yes try feel like therapy 's useful um yeah 's nice talk problems go cry every week least set time every week go cry laughter um 's mean 's release able cry sometimes feel better afterwards um yeah helps make decisions know help proactive life um well 'm looking jobs things like gives ideas n't work n't work thought know said something n't go back school went applied go back school know 'm much life sitting around day n't helping depression either 'm trying find work applied college fall got accepted dominguez hills may going back school fall right 'm still looking work helps kinda stuff giving ideas life n't laughter 's still know could life life yeah everything 's always bittersweet um n't know last time really happy n't know laughter ideal weekend oh n't lot money 'cause 'm working right really weekends spent reading maybe ca n't really ca n't pay much attention 'm reading laughter short attention span read couple chapters deep breath um lately say 's 've reading something 've read xxx okay like go u_s_c nights things like book signings poetry art 's called visions voices like go events usually enjoy um two weeks ago um deborah harkness book signing discovery witches like said 'm trying writer try go especially book signings see 's like author 's talking crowd signing books laughter son laughter n't friends best qualities um sigh 'm smart 'm good-looking um 'm really um like hard worker 'm dedicated like self-improvement um 's think right laughter okay okay goodbye press buzzer,13.0,yes,72,1
425,yes 'm okay 'm feeling little tired uh worried um well 'm looking place live um n't job right things sigh things little shaky 'm staying son venice uh 's pretty good uh us need space 's 'm looking another place live originally new york 've california since early seventies yeah uh moved l_a living portland oregon getting tired weather son seemed like good place um n't hard uh met people right away um really like uh easy connect people weather laughter number one like people love near ocean um like energy like um like artistic culture mhm uh well everybody loves traffic mean loves weather hates traffic kinda feel fee feel way um sometimes gets little wearing 's busy fact 's expensive makes difficult uh much 'd like funds fu income funds would travel um sigh well mostly 've um xxx traveled let 's see longest uh trip country mexico traveled drove friend uh oaxaca whole trip took mm think took us four weeks going back uh bay area um yeah fun trip well uh 'd working together census made trip times invited come along um trip would say oaxaca day dead uh celebrating day dead family little village staying everybody village makes altar house uh uh loved ones passed away um also decorate clean decorate graves lots flowers neat family celebrating uh well studied studi liberal liberal arts program n't stay st stayed stayed school uh college couple years um interested liberal arts humanities huh dream job would uh personal assisting somebody creative field getting uh travel go events uh 's hard break um 'm starting uh minimally somebody 'm volunteer work 'm 'm working building skills 'm fairly 'm kind friendly introvert um 'm know trouble meeting people uh n't hold back um know xxx 'm shy sh like shy parties 'll go talk people um overall kind introverted um prefer one-on-one big groups um like watch uh well laughter like watch uh improvement shows like uh h_g_t_v like watch um like remodel shows see transformations watch movies read oh play solitaire uh kindle fire um n't usually realize 'm mad later laughter laughter n't really come um tend kind life um situations arise uh sometimes know sometimes road um get little annoyed uh n't get annoyed much like people cut anything like um people deliberately rude know honk reason um know get angry maybe 've done something inadvertent know cut mistake know like get really angry makes angry return hmm sigh um yeah like said n't really get arguments um ha friend day um got annoyed felt like correcting n't really argument know said something heard correction well correction got angry um um well felt criticized felt felt vulnerable eh n't pretty uncomfortable hmm um well situation n't n't correct um sigh think 's something 'm starting look need right general 's 'm trying catch let people make mistakes without laughter without telling mm hmm boy n't know um gee 's tough ca n't n't know 've much trouble making decisions um hmm well uh u uh hard decide uh put cat sleep sick oh wa give cat um moving difficult 'cause um sigh well case first cat one sick um decided vet said thought humane decision um cat give n't n't really decide um moving place could n't take found somebody could take hmm sigh mm see um gee 's tough sigh n't really eh erasing memory part um 's nothing really wish could erase memory um trying think something 've done wish n't done um oh okay remember something wa laughter time class junior college film class uh one um went little film project um 're supposed bring back class next week uh one film different things happening life right never went back school never brought film back work done um still feel bad eh 's pretty easy um sometimes wake early morning hours trouble going back sleep 's often 've feeling kind tired low level depressed like feeling lot options yes uh well two times um back like nineteen seventy two nineteen ninetee yeah nine nineteen seventy two three um another time um oh would 've sixteen years ago um feeling like n't um know feeling feeling things n't gon na change n't get help n't know maybe got medication would help um short term 'm going therapy right uh moving around lot finances n't really feeling need um 'm starting think might option feel like therapy useful yes well went therapy um helpful somebody listened could also offer impartial suggestions helping improve way feeling deep breath um sigh well beach last weekend uh beautiful day sitting sun uh relaxing notebook writing felt happy content uh 'm kind compassionate 'm good listener 'm intelligent uh good ideas um sigh well wish uh sometimes wish wa harder worker um 'm really willing take low wage jobs even though need work n't feel like 'm willing anything um um wish could act said good ideas um good ideas 'm good uh onset 'm really good follow-through lot ideas get started n't take distance 's probably thing 'd like change uh ten twenty years ago 'd give advice go back school get degree finish education um willing um work regular job um start putting money away uh retirement um proud uh children 'm proud friendships 'm proud um eh people eh people eh admire um value opinion goodbye,6.0,no,27,0
430,yeah sure 'm fine thank los angeles well ca n't beat weather um think familiarity home uh makes feel comfortable smog uh rudeness although n't compare new york 's um laughter people unbearable 're rude um much 'd like lately traveled past uh lately think seeing different places 's um learning new things uh finding things fascinating peak interest um let 's see think laughter spoke new york earlier think first time went new york quite amazed know 's uh still st still america think um l_a n't think anything city could bigger uh say uh ostentatious new york uh quite experience uh n't think place uh n't di n't think place dirtier downtown l_a laughter think times time think laughter times square 's got us beat many mention n't even know start suppose depends situation um like walk like uh like play dogs uh reading uh anything guess suppose could sit still let let mind go blank know reading requires concentration uh know uh things uh n't um exert much uh helps relax sigh past 've problems 'm getting better laughter let 's say laughter ah probably argued roommate psh couple days ago uh happens 're friends uh 's loving argument laughter uh met roommate six seven years ago uh kind um kinda moved around social circles got along 's cool mean guess know like argue uh differences sometimes 's one person 'd rather 'd rather live 's 's cool hmm much time uh laughter 's numerous mention um would n't know answer think breaking girlfriend truly cared knowing knowing n't going work um difficult weighed pros cons thought n't going work um matter much love care brought relationship something missing think invested enough time invested enough time knew many laughter n't many regrets things erase memory oh 's lot uh numerous mention n't know answer girl broke girlfriend laughter uh best friend mine uh separated several years always chemistry always friendship turned something something know turned relationship uh hurt uh currently speak wish uh regret wish would 've handled better scoff um 's 's funny see get older 'm close still care 'em still love think love mother father alive mm n't interact whole lot 'm close older sister older sister um 's strong nonsense uh 's short yet firecracker 've always liked uh uh always felt makes feel makes feel comfortable 'm like uh another son laughter way uh suppose depends stress level um lot mind difficult sleeping uh times really need get sleep requires listen radio listen lis uh watching t_v reading eventually 'll get tired fall asleep crabby uh suppose like anybody else um tired listless know normal things suppose happen somebody n't sleep well feel good mm really um would n't say yes diagnosed probably five years ago think uh always knew problem always knew think always knew got treatment issue emotionally hmm lot things hard explain tired feeling way sought help think uh lethargy uh uh desire anything uh motivation n't um think normal depression type things uh um social socia became socially awkward little bit different 'cause uh growing know quite talkative laughter 'm sorry say gotcha um think well um sigh think number one thing 'm amazed temper think 've uh 's allowed step back certain situations take seriously get tense angry react think 's 's calmed part 's becoming 's becoming routine uh initially difficult five years old laughter oh wh 're kid 's nothing really um 's nothing sad 're kid best friend um jerk n't yeah uh dry dry sense humor uh know best friend would probably uh think banter back forth know usually insult know 's love um wish could taller wish could inclined play basketball become go n_b_a millionaire know 's unrealistic answering honestly hmm anything regret n't asked asked mean many n't know start mm 's good one wow um wow n't know know 's good one 'd ha 'd think n't would n't wan na answer uh 's good one usually 're asked um 'd know feel ten twenty years looking back n't know advice 'd give something really enjoyed um hmm love um several things like um uh know uh enjoy playing basketball love watching love watching sports matter brings real joy past years um become hobby mine uh rescuing dogs fostering dogs finding homes uh 's laughter guess 's become quite hobby mine uh sometimes find lost dogs 'm able find owner sometimes 'm 'll tell 's nothing noth find owner found owner last week small dog found eh greater feeling 'cause man told laughter man told um hi daughter crying left able give give back cool think somebody um n't finish high school going college graduating 's something uh take pride though n't show speak often laughter yeah look look like friend rachel 's funny laughter,3.0,yes,48,0
441,yes 'm alright south l_a um weather women opportunities 's racism police brutality injustice 's mm much exploring type person um psychology mhm um one classes excelled decided change business psychology yeah yes record label um 's moderately hard know take one day time guess know stay focused little bit um tend shy um situations 'm comfortable 'm new 'm outgoing places 'm comfortable yeah laughter um turn lights low listen soft music mhm 'm getting better years um think 'm pretty decent compared used yes ma'am um due lack guess could say controlling emotions uh gotten incarcerated sent prison yeah mm 'm sure uh n't really recollection hardest decision 've made life um probably days ago girl talking arguing lack communication attentiveness yeah uh frustrated um know uh put certain amount effort expect know effort person 're relationship time expectations sometimes kinda set failure know guess 'm learning 's lot situations would 've handled differently um probably recent uh gotten physical phy physical altercation inmate incarcerated made 's sent prison lot time um handled differently probably would 've never went prison probably would 've home lot sooner originally happen yeah mm several events wish could erase memory um probably uh first girlfriend um something really uh extreme n't necessary eyes cost co could 've cost life think 's recurring thought wish could completely erase memory along good memories well um fights uh guess could say shoot outs um getting jumped getting robbed know things think inhibit guess explore certain areas life 'm comfortable feww things 'd nice could erase completely yeah sigh hurting people n't need hurt emotionally especially um women life past um probably putting mother certain things n't go along close friends family well um used rocky growing got older matured certain experiences 've kind brought closer family 's 's pretty decent 's 's pretty decent mm would say mother um yeah mother um well uh share experiences negative positive um admire struggles 's um uh experienced difficult economic hardships growing n't stop um raising son young age finishing school getting master 's overall good person also battled mental health issues well um probably best family could 've raised 's kinda like inspiration people well would say mother mm 's easy yeah 's easy could n't tell 've always sleeping issues um usually take uh like counter sleep medication nyquil makes drowsy next morning 's like 's negative effect really yeah medication medi n't know shit n't know stopped taking 'cause n't like feeling drowsy good um yeah mean recently got released prison long ago uh 'm older lot responsibilities feel like life 's supposed feel like could 've made lot better decisions life know sometimes feeling sorry things 've whole nine yards yeah 's good yeah true yes sniffle two half three years ago deep breath sigh um tired n't know guess school kind made seek help started understand brain works um know decided seek help maybe better life yeah could say yes yes yes actually mm better decision making um better tools reflect choices um control uh certain situations better yeah um sniffle well instead always reacting emotion matter kind emotion step back assess situation know see 's 's best way react towards situation made mature emotionally mature positive outcome laughter um lying next beautiful woman cared feeling mutual probably happy oh goodness spontaneous um outgoing sometimes little crazy um fun 's nothing um like said earlier know hurting women life past friends family 's oh shit uh school really important um carry people surround choose free time things would tell good music um good game basketball um sex um like going like going parties um social gatherings everyone 's friendly 's drama 's like dancing beautiful women couple drinks 's um guess necessarily giving um n't know keep going giving really yeah mhm bye bye,18.0,yes,72,1
454,yes great houston texas young every years 's little bit slower parents brought child weather um 's disconnect times um people kind know people warm friendly people n't 's kind interesting yes mm different people cultures experiences um pick place um greece west indies uh west indies laid back relaxed um kind easy flowing great weather great water nice greece um lots culture lots um past interesting um birth children um six-year-old set twins boys boys mm always challenging sometimes um think know kids different different needs know mm loving lots unconditional love um think travel along lines um give children lots choices lots let input happens psychology um gon na go another path gon na work youth system um children laughter um dream job n't know dream job actual job lots um 's xxx lots things 'd like um uh philanthropist point view 'd like would dream job um mostly serving children undeserved un undeserved unde undeserved areas um giving um giving outlets different things improve life difficult difficult monies n't always uh 's always easy go underserved areas um new ideas 's difficult n't flexibility spend time outgoing shy one kinda personalities outspoken um hang backyard lie hammock read pretty good um sister saturday oh um n't know silly parking cars certain place frustrated hmm um probably could 've handled situation little bit differently could 've little bit giving givi could 've little bit giving guess stubborn um hardest decision hmm hardest decision think hardest decision 've make recent would um turning life support system uncle mm thank mm nothing else could done uh accident car accident little memory 's still car accident um hit broadside another vehicle going forty miles per hour flipped truck cut jaws life xxx difficult time 's good 're happy close yeah mother parents older sibling parents older sibling always standing gap available conversation 'll talk things pretty easy irritable laughter pretty good pretty great um really think 'm getting age know woman perimenopausal stuff 's part sleep deprivation thing think morning feel happy loving compassionate um strong-willed determined um little bit patience sometimes would n't say trouble um really badly um fight best friend eight months ago saddened love n't like fight probably could 've little understanding could spoken mind situation um yeah regret um situation general um always open open-minded um went disneyland children weekend good thing um music kids family friends um kids 're welcome buh bye,1.0,no,21,0
385,yes good los angeles uh weather entertainment traffic many people business uh fun thing yes nothing much talk hm maybe talking um pretty good environment pretty good middle sleep n't know n't remember nothing really um n't know ca n't remember um bad people know bad people back things uh car accidents mm n't n't know n't really know uh nobody somewhat okay waking thinking n't know n't know hm n't n't remember n't know talking first time 've done idea sleep much nothing n't experience um n't know sure um nice person sure nothing much n't know n't know n't know play sports basketball mm last month goodbye,8.0,yes,51,0
304,'m good um los angeles california um cool weather beaches people schools um child development yes teacher special education 's hard 'cause love work children yes dishonesty maybe um like guy like especially comes relationships lie something 's minimal mom wan na say mom um close talk every day close even though n't live try see much uh 's okay laughter 's 's good 's yes um 're 're friendly 's 're quiet 'cause 'm used environment 's fine like much costs cheap 's good 're friendly 's fine wish little bit could 've better yeah yes laughter um different option live somebody else 'm still friends female comes find connect roommates live kinda regret moving roommates versus supposed move beginning 'm stuck year 's whatever 's fine know yeah laughter 's nothing really gets really mad think top head um um maybe comes schools treat children especially children color maybe really gets mad mm yes things within guess um internally motivated things guess yeah yeah wow hardly ever argue somebody laughter yeah oh sister guess sister month ago uh felt betrayed belittled 's little sister n't disrespecting type way 'm adult yeah feeling situation um getting grown folks ' business conversation mother guess overheard said felt like actions choosing somebody else family n't even case n't know whole situation automatically assumed put stuff facebook disrespecting calling name yeah laughter comes like stuff facebook n't 's one thing n't like either hate indirect comments like need talk come directly n't put facebook tell people 's pet peeve mine really n't like yeah mean 're fine 's good yeah believe people easily gullible gullible guess 've hearing lately believe anybody anything somebody says without really thinking without prove guess could say let made lot mistakes n't wan na say regretted 'm glad went younger getting older going situations um yeah believe people easily give people much chances yeah went cruise happy experience went cruise mexico family um sixteen six years ago yeah laughter yeah mean yeah guess laughter really want though um trying new things seeing new views world um trying different type foods um seeing government run things guess um yeah plan go bahamas next year plan lot traveling next year actually yeah 's pretty good eh somewhat 'm tired laughter kind fall asleep class whatnot yeah 's fault though um probably today yeah well fell asleep late laughter 's fault um feel pretty happy right mhm friendly funny talkative um high school 're pretty close try talk often possible maybe week 'll try see least every months mm 're everywhere laughter um yeah comment 're smarter learning stuff learned back day learning 're progressing comes technology 're outside 're always computer phones n't play outside n't care nature little things life yeah comes mentality argue smarter 'cause schools getting better ai n't gon na lie happened okay um last weekend guess right um um boyfriend makes really happy hanging last weekend never really get see much yeah 'cause works school different schedules 's bad laughter um 's boyfriend 've knowing six months met mutual friend um l_a guess okay 're welcome bye,6.0,no,20,0
360,yes 'm good inglewood scenery places eat um love l_a traffic public transit 's yes getting getting new places seeing new sights studied nursing office administration well care people nurising field office administration 've always wanted 've always computers wanted learn software things fix 'em things like n currently cu currently 'm want work future f wan na work future working um retail store 'm eh 'm job searching dream job actually um metro public transit help improve public transportation system l_a yeah watch t_v mostly listen music like smooth jazz like relaxing music breathe listen music try whatever calm um things really make mad like 'm disrespected sort per se um thing like bad things happen 's really irritates 's 'm 'm good far think 's times feel like ca n't try hard control argued fiance couple weeks financial issues eh fairly easy time like noises around gets little harder like neighbor partying loud noises house 's hard usually 's easy 'm like really tired morning like n't attitude anything 'm like tired morning like need sleep wake 've feeling okay 'm sometimes sleep little 'm sleep 'm used 've okay 'd describe fun loving carefree caring individual caring person n really mean 've bad experiences part n't regret anything strive really hard take care business 's felt really happy christmas got engaged laughter enjoy going nevada celebrate birthday enjoy spending time family friends fairly close um things brought us apart 're trying get close grandmother 's really 's really let see light 's really let see good 's really let see 'm positive individual accomplish anything put mind 'm proud accomplishments 'm proud matter people said thought able accomplish things life without without things negative things people thought would wou thought going best qualities 'm efficient 'm good 'm good listener good thinker good speaker overcome lot situations 'm feel like 'm good person goodbye,4.0,no,26,0
375,yes good 's nice day south bay ask question oh okay 's 'm basically like south bay much 've wanting move anyways get change-up everybody thinks l_a like everything 's best 's many people much traffic clears throat ca n't see shoes sniffle driving seeing new stuff last year went sacramento stayed like month living v_w bus wife kinda cool camping wanted fun something different art little bit probably 're laughter 'm really interested coming new ideas stuff clears throat outgoing laughter n't much relax relaxing lately like beach good argued brother last night actually talking respect person mad wanted fight 's good sometimes 're 're caught 're pay attention people 's feelings like brother 's 's tense situation tried brush br brush wasting money 'cause 'm married yeah something like probably taking candy store taking money mom like real young 'cause well like junior high school think took like twenty purse bought candy friends felt guilty though like day probably yeah probably beginning stupid activities life past couple years wife 'm married 've known two years met art walk actually went u_s_c past couple days kinda hard usually go sleep good think 'm kinda snappy sn think 'm snappy positive optimistic yeah 've thinking positive positively lately wan na put lot stuff action 've trying train mind knowing stuff gon na come speaking universe easy try everybody 's got spirit told feel positive happy yesterday yester happy yesterday 'cause know made couple good decisions wanting positive stay away negative people alive knowing god n't know n't know ca n't think something laughter mm n't think one sex exercising waking positive good meal morning think driving sacramento time n't smoke cigarettes watch spend money gon na sell ideas uh laughter thoughts ca n't think right,5.0,no,34,0
437,mm yes mm 'm pretty good uh born los angeles mhm um like diversity city attractions things see um food restaurants things like traffic freeways crime mm uh yes mhm um seeing new places going back seeing places enjoying relaxing getting away l_a uh well let 's see last trip made central coast uh cambria pismo beach area um solvang santa ynez uh huh yeah probably uh got study abroad madrid spain student u_c_l_a uh huh terms travel uh yeah um participated uh education abroad program u_c_l_a go live another country learn language live year university univers study university uh memorable year something someth experience would never laughter forget thanks probably shy uh sometimes could outgoing um 'm shy terms know takes takes time time get know people mean 'm real party person n't like go parties meet people things like 'm among friends things like pretty outgoing people know laughter laughter laughter um drink wine um yeah drink wine maybe listen uh nice music pretty good 'm pretty good controlling emotions oh gosh um would n't say real argument like discussion maybe finances maybe money um oh little irritated laughter um really really strong emotional uh wow gosh laughter ca n't think anything moment uh let 's uh skip one um mm maybe uh eating eating junk food admit hardest decision ever make uh maybe uh buying home h buying home remodeling home spending money uh um felt time move life uh uh buy place could self-sufficient independent xxx yes happy thank uh event could erase uh um yeah student stud student teaching year trying get teaching credential discovered never enjoyed wan na erase whole year nineteen eighty three uh brought back horrible laughter brings back laughter horrible memories uh went student teaching uh discovered teaching k twelve w studied stud major spanish linguistics good foreign languages thought um enjoyed taking good time taking foreign language uh getting good grades thought maybe go foreign languages uh teaching teachi adult ed teacher teaching english second language thirty years recently uh decided uh retire um pretty good relationship family mother sisters father passed away two thousand eight um uh relationship father n't good family members yeah uh xxx whole um pretty good relation rest family um pretty easy n't problems um n't sleep well 'm may moving around bed know um messing sheets n't happen often oh pretty good think 've feeling pretty good major health problems anything uh last time really happy uh probably uh spring break came around uh vacation time time uh laughter go trip uh yeah um week trip central coast uh cambria pismo beach santa ynez nice getaway relaxing uh laughter hotel lawn garden drinking wine uh enjoying different sights eating good food laughter buying wine replenish dwindling supply home laughter thanks uh think would describe um eh kind sweet um motivated uh nice person oh 'd say sometimes would n't mind little outgoing guess tend reserved would n't mind outgoing towards strangers things mm uh really badly uh let 's see probably betrayed confidence friends mine uh taped taped singing christmas carols played people found really laid guilt trip yeah uh got resolved end laughter became beca laughter bad misunderstanding part worked okay yeah um probably done laughter playing people uh advice would give ten twenty years ago um uh n't give uh keep uh laughter keep pursuing want uh never never give xxx see disappointment nothing noth n't work um 'm 'm good listener um 'm 'm motivated person 'm hardworking 'm conscientious 'm caring um 'm generally pretty happy type person something recently really enjoyed uh going uh going festival books u_s_c weekend uh yeah uh festival books 's festival uh book mm book authors auth authors demonstrations dem food demostrations seminars kinds books available look uh 's uh lots food um lot uh authors signing books things uh 's great event laughter laughter get nice weather nice mhm yeah really enjoyed especially food thanks proud um proud uh probably uh successful work uh life marriage um yeah basically happy oh 're welcome bye,0.0,no,19,0
368,sniffle yeah 'm okay um 'm okay 'm okay um guess scrubbed_entry 'm basically l_a kinda guy cool um know weather 's usually pretty sunny temperate know like climate really lot uh like girls know um like uh let 's see n't like traffic know um like hispanic population quite bit know um lot friends guess know n't wan na anywhere else mean like said traffic know four five know 's always kinda know crummy cost living 's really know terrible l_a 's always expensive um know really n't like sigh really n't like know like seems like um l_a 's one places like 're know either like know ton money fame fortune like know 're know ghettos know 've couple places um uh know brief know mostly school um went arizona new york montana lot anthropology like know archaeology field trips things like um nothing 'm right uh like getting away um laughter city know yosemite last year know summer vacation kinda nice know yosemite really um really neat see uh basically getting away city guess know getting away job getting away um stress uh actually studied political science also studied economics um 'm big kind political know junkie know begin naturally kinda fell line kinda field study lost job know 's kind bummer know um lost 's uh geez 's already maybe year half maybe two years um know economy uh got bad budget cuts got bad know um wish working uh laughter well um wanted lawyer one time wanted lawyer um 's took political science took double major economics uh sad thing sad thing regret eh know get law school take entrance exam called lsats studied like really hardcore know year took xxx test like idiot um n't feel right day kind day know like know big game superbowl know um n't n't feel like well canceled test um know kinda regret know laughter tell um 'm really shy 'm definitely shy um outgoing mean one people peo 'm flamboyent know um 'll talk people n't mind talking people n't mind um meeting mee meeting people 's fine 's like 'm know dying dying meet anybody laughter know laughter guess um days uh know play guitar know taught play guitar um uh yeah thank thank know 've actually also like exercise um uh 'm diet right diet 's terrible time eating habits terrible exercise part great love exercise exerci love run 's one best things stress like run like work um wish eating habits line uh little bit better know sniffle um sigh temper could know definitely improved uh lot know um know lotta times feel 'm one introvert types persons comes like know n't mind extrovert like meeting people like good time whatever uh 'm mad really n't wan na know talking people n't like yell n't like scream n't like hit n't like fight kinda close lot n't wan na left alone sometimes tend drag longer know uh wife n't like much maybe know n't n't wan na talk laughter n't wan na deal kinda close shut know shut little bit geez um know n't happen often maybe wife know probably something silly knows knows um thing mean n't lotta guilt n't anything like make ever feel like know bad person know um things like know um call minor sins know get white lies whatever know like nothing like atrocious makes feel like guilty um let 's see guess sometimes know um know 'm married guy know sometimes times know like know smile girl like know get girl 's attention know n't know never go never anything never get phone number like know sometimes like like talk people guess know well 's good question guess guess know see always handle 's n't ever wish ever ever change never wan na like handle things differently always kinda 'm pretty comfortable way handle things know think um could lot worse like know shouting screaming hitting 's um know think best thing know kinda like get lot breathing room lotta space um n't wish change handle differently n't basically know else know um know last thing wan na start talking know feelings know 's last thing wan na like n't wish handle things like differently way well um know 'm pretty happy family right um know 'm married baby along way kinda nice um cats thank thank cats dog weenie dog um mom love mom dearly um uh diabetes know n't control know n't control like like uh affects health always worried like stressing could much like prevent n't um know good relationship mom love dear dearly actually good relationship everybody think think ton ton family friends um get along pretty well actually know yeah um sigh times well mean 's pretty easy go sleep actually feel like know sleep like baby um problem think feel like um know sometimes like fall asleep 're going sleep kinda like jolt know like almost kinda like fall eh 's like falling sensation something like n't happen eh often happens um time ti part um sleep like rock sleep really good sniffle well right generally 've feeling um worried anxious um know uh tense reason 'cause said mom um right well least today well found mom something n't tell whole story 'm kinda waiting 'til find 's wrong um know 'm worried 's hospital ho 's doctors right n't tell anything good um know um trying find job worried know baby along way worried feel like sharp inhale know overwhelmed lotta like know things like um lot lot plate like lot n't anything handle like know like guess well um keep distracted keep busy feel like busybody know um kinda seems se know seems like 's good thing feel like 'm adding things plate um know like one things like exercise work every day know takes hour takes hour like know change ch change start running like go whole thing stretching cooling takes takes time like shower kinda stuff takes ta takes time daily cope way also cope know playing guitar distraction know mean keeping know keeping busy way seems like 's know um working towards know goals know need like know finding f finding job um know 's one things like find like 's good jobs 've looking looking like sometimes 's wan na n't seem like laughter like wan na like uh like terrible jobs xxx 's know 's 's probably harder 'm thinking sometimes feel like um know one things like uh feel like um hard 's mean ways cope know got ta kinda kind accepted lot know kinda internalized like uh know 's something 's like 'm streets anything like laughter uh know worry 've never diagnosed p_t_s_d used work grumble man sigh uh ten years ago laughter n't know uh let 's see last time really happy maybe mean nothing feel like nothing makes happy know um learned new song guitar feel fe feel like even happy know feel like um know work sometimes kinda makes happy know running like know fast working n't make excited anything like makes feel good know times 'm know feeling good 'm feeling know 'm never feeling great 'm never feeling happy 'm never feeling like sensationalized like know uh know incredible know um eh know 's 's mild times 's good times know bad times good times never n never ne never extremes know never really good times never really know atrocious bad times know well wish diet would work little bit better know 's kinda hard know 'cause 'm kinda guy likes likes know um know rice like uh mexican food like sharp inhale know um snack uh n't know um feel like could could change wish could change eating habits way like know 'cause work much feel like much running much activity like um know got know diet check um know would um go long way um wish also change know um uh guess desire like know get ahead like right feel um like economy 's bad like things um rough know 's like pointless even like know look kinda jobs like seems like wish little bit inspiration lot motivation like um laughter sigh things sniffle one thing regret um know lsat thing know um know uh uh canceling test begin 'cause 'm sure could 've got school like know thinking like really wan na pay bunch like know law school tuition cost like know um piled work things like eh n't know sigh n't seem like like uh mean idea justice um republicanism know things really know adhere um fall love n't wan na get away seems like 's like 's ton work money like um smalls percentage success know might really kinda field might know might mi n't seem like like um 's worth overcoming obstacles need overcome ugh sigh idea would laughter would wou twenty years ago would tell maybe um know think 've done everything really well except lsat thing know know regret one hand hand know 'm sure regret 'cause like eh bills kinda stuff told know think uh know 've waited get married waited kid 've 've know pretty cautious decisions deci know n't take drugs n't drink n't fight n't like things like know think real people know um really like know ruin life know like 'm pretty happy content know cautious know uh sigh n't know oh best friend think kinda like li likes wishes would things works night know 's one things think people best friend wife might rest family feel n't put lot time attention mean think 'm pretty great give 'em time day attention um n't know 'm really time know n't know 'm really know 'm always thinking something else 'm always thinking something different n't n't know really give 'em eh real know shoulder cry know ask something know 'll 'll usually know almost feel like 's like chore like know like know really need 'll know eh 're asking favor almost feel know half know lotta lackluster lotta half-heartedness feel f 's hate 'em anything really like 'em 's feel like almost n't wan na say owe mere fact 'm friend makes somehow um know uh like eh makes like know rely know times like n't wan na let 'em friends 's time feel like 's 's 's 's 's like chore instead willingness like oh god like wan na help 's never ne 's never like 's something ha kinda know got ta know got ta things friends know end 're friends know end like 'em probably would know things know um well couple things like uh 've good go feel good know um know ran l_a marathon kinda feels good know 've graduated college kinda feels good know mean thing n't feel like like proud know things alone like graduating college know n't really made successful know mean um running marathon n't made thin trim 're like half merits know like 're 're great know lotta people maybe half done lotta people excelled um know 're kinda like stepping stones like um 've seal real new life l lifelong benefit fact say 've done yeah yeah problem problem thank time know um hope enjoy know uh computer laughter oh goodbye 'm gon na press button,7.0,no,35,0
397,sure 'm good caught cold morning sniff l_a snort born raised born raised 's home snort food people culture traffic uh 's lot us sigh many us probably oh snort past n't traveled lately uh destination n't enjoy traveling anymore young longer snort 's destination point mm okay snort uh ninety two went spain grandma father 's mother born spain went back trace roots snort spent week madrid week barcelona week majorca sniff great time enjoyed ooh everyday thing people friendly uh finding things grandmother family interesting snort uh studied uh poly sci uh sociology uh sigh well time seemed like easiest thing uh sigh well dream job sports research uh native american tribes snort uh yeah enjoyed 's uh 's uh often clears throat mainly uh sports bureaus exist n't exist started still still enjoy uh sigh snort 'll wh 'll suits given situation uh listen music uh like oldies jazz mm soft music uh 've learned well n't n't always way 've learned well snort arguing assume mean words uh youngest daughter uh year half ago uh well stemmed incident n't like way husband said something bothered told got extremely defensive rather deal became became angry snort mad uh three girls thirty eight thirty seven thirty one uh three granddaughters eleven fourteen eighteen n't argument long time adore six 'em uh well n't really consider parent snort since mine grown baby thirty one never lose mean 'm parenting point life 'm enjoying grandchildren parent yeah 's difficult challenge snort uh getting getting level understanding understand n't understand putting stuff front hugs well dad physical uh days know uh nobody called child services got hit uh uh mother loving dad well know 'd raise hand thought would would uh disappoint snort never adored mother sigh dad uh hard guy loved uh never felt abused mean one thing remember said 're capable kicking ass leave house snort 's 's kinda basis relationship mother kids grandkids well 'm 'm one 'm one three sigh three sons clear throat really n't experience females uh mother terms know related grandma first daughter born like wow snort fell madly love changed life yeah well 's way happened uh sigh mother got sick n't wa n't way 've n't feel good goo oh yeah always fix end snort real bad situation n't excuse fact n't way shold 've least mind uh sigh uh second marriage probably uh wanted uh children already children first wife uh told initially wan na children know three uh good indicated want children sniff got married best friend got pregnant relationship changed basically would n't relent ended getting divorved uh n't know would 've children chil would 've would 've children n't flexible process flexible n't know sometimes sometimes 'm uh 'd pulling uh pulling father uh uh life support kept going back something said uh younger would come back haunt know let lay lay suffer took convince two brothers 's something could erase memory uh locked 'd like erase memory snort 's 's everyday hell 's little humanity uh even things 're proud 've never slept 've never slept lot 'm one people wake hard time going back sleep 's 's difficult diffi 's uh snort unless 'm really tired know sneeze 'm pretty much still n't change friend f uh things good kids grandkids except little incident granddaughter granddaugh uh youngest daughter friend recently uh runned crosswalk uh 's 's life support n't feeling good 's 's affected n't like jaywalking anything literally walking crosswalk guy never even hit break 's uh life support point mm really consistent thing 'm inconsistent uh 've moments felt depressed okay talking talking n't hear question uh uh yesterday conversation fourteen year-old granddaughter 'm happy moments happiness every day 'cause either speak text uh daughters granddaughters every day even 're upset one another oh lot regrets uh 've went law school 's 's kinda something thought yeah began think lifetime accepted n't things thought wanted snort uh sigh uh played uh wanting uh uh kicker football football team tryouts things like n't pan n't pan sort lost zest wanting lawyer things n't think 'd make much difference probably would n't listen snort um uh hums uh could uh n't like could uh difficult n't like 'd much like change past yeah snort well theory could make feel bad let 'm real big letting let letting people uh although first wife left children snort know fault n't sure believed knew ass uh probably believed totality part snort sigh uh 'm uh 'm judgemental uh uh would listen anybody uh whether agree disagree uh uh 've taught uh control anger uh uh 've called friend tell love uh mean 's 's something uh casually snort uh oh okay well played eighteen holes golf old dear friend got caught uh sigh four hours golf course two hours dinner met new wife uh good time lot lot memories came back mm snort uh well like like kids ki uh grandkids like know like hell n't know kids like think rely much uh rely much technology 's mainly 'cause n't grandkids uh sampling think 're good think 're pretty good snort uh sigh raising girls basically help mother think 's uh proud okay nice chatting bye,5.0,no,29,0
446,yes 'm wonderful california mhm yes weather one 'em uh food um way uh everything centrally located mhm traffic smog um 's gotten really really overcrowded um would n't say lot try um travel um least twice every two years um exploring different things able um different experiences um things nature know learning new things um different cultures uh like um learn different cultures travel um get sense um know feedback different cultures different areas like um well came miami uh last year went miami week half really nice weather great first time going um um weather wonderful people really nice um really great experience went um particular event um um something every year um everyone comes uh kinda party hang meet new people really fun um well trip would say um swimming beautiful beautiful beautiful um miami beach waters wonderful yeah um child development mhm well um 've always interested children um since younger um babysat lot lot um experience kids young age grew older um realized something liked um uh 's um looked child development courses thought something um like would enjoy en enjoy um started taking classes um rest history yes 's um fifteen years august yeah dream job would say um become principal well 's something um 've thought um 've actually began steps try get going um 'm gon na back school 'm gon na taking courses um make happen dream mine yeah thank um 's gon na pretty difficult um uh several years schooling ahead um know 's definitely gon na challenge 's something 'm dream job mine 's something 'm willing 'm willing um little bit think little bit shy times um outgoing well um think little bit would say laughter uh meditate 'm 'm big big meditator love meditating love um reading nice quiet peaceful time oh wow 'm good good controlling temper um um series meditation um involves deep breathing um really centering feel heart beat um really feel everything body really really allows de-stress control anxiety anger things nature yeah helps lot oh wow recently um actually unfortunately last week husband um um way responds sometimes uh little aggressive um 're trying work n't respond well aggression totally tune um 's actually happened yeah felt frustrated um actually felt angered um frustrated felt saddened n't like arguing little bit emotions one time uh sigh situation wish would 've handled differently honestly n't situation like years 've pretty much kind um know kind mastered responses um certain um stimuli 've kinda got hardest decision 've ever make well sixteen years old became teenage um mother pregnant sixteen um um lot pressure family um give child adoption um abort chose life one hardest decisions hardest decisions make sixteen year old teenage um teenager whether wanted continue kid teenager whether wanted embark raising life um child think hardest decision make um well mean um son almost nineteen 's nineteen years later um actually um glad one best things ever choosing abort choosing choo pro-life pro-choice pro-life um eh regretted decision um 's child love blessing 's blessing feel special mom yeah um 's 's easy uh definitely um 's difficulties um anything um end day really rewarding um get see life brought world 've raised become productive citizen go society start making way 's really rewarding really oh wow many ways um first way wa uh first way actually listen son um accept feedback even n't like um allow express self fortunately unfortunately little um lot um conversation parent child um like told know um son give options allow express self allow give feedback um negative positive feel 's really important child develop voice young age um parents supportive kind um make sure nurture um 's kind um way develop know 's really really important 'm different um lot ways rite thank um sigh well depends um sometimes really depends depends time go sleep depends time woke 's lot factors um ca n't give one answer um would say varies sometimes go sleep um fall asleep right away times go sleep might take awhile actually fall asleep varies 've feeling great lately really um ca n't um say like said last week n't affect um know argument husband 've feeling really good n't know honestly feel happy every day know every day wake 'm happy chance take advantage carpe diem seize day um feel blessed every morning wake 's blessing know realize people wake people homeless people going many situations really disheartening 's feel really really blessed every day thank um um nurturing patient loving friendly um kind reserved um well wish um already completed college master 's degree sometimes wish little bit knowledgeable certain subjects um change change anything would change two things also would um little bit outgoing less introvert know regrets regrets um live learn um nothing perfect um everything 've gone made person today would n't change anything 'm happy person today oh sigh man stay school stay school get education put first foremost relationship even career um really really uh would would 've told um stay focused get great education 'm proud um 've come um teenage mother um statistic actually changing 've uh job fifteen years 'm really proud 've married thirteen years 'm really proud happily married um best friend soulmate nothing 's perfect um 's best friend love 'm also proud son um mother son 've raised 'm proud job 've done 'm um really um applaud 're welcome wonderful thank buh bye,0.0,no,20,0
319,sure mm okay los angeles um well laughter 's good question um like familiarity everything know everything city mm 's say right spread hard get places anything else dream job n't think dream job um n't one mm 'm uh sort unemployed right sigh cough mm 's true sniffle started studied urban planning well um think um school shooting thing uh n_r_a seeming wan na budge gun control issue thing 's mm um try remove situation 's annoying sniffle 've gotten better years um time try um know walk away know control emotions terms know walking away mm watch t_v hmm would say children born well four children um birth speical um sniffle know unique experience time well 's lot easier 're adults um know challenging um would say seeing children grow successful exceeding expectations worry time worry 'em know 'm around much certainly worry 'em saw children oh week ago 'm usually pretty happy see 'em know interest yeah sigh mm girlfriend insignificant around l_a maybe 's cough excuse n't travel n't funds anymore health yes mm 'd say year um recognizing things wrong knew something wrong 'cause n't well know always tired excited things anymore kinda lethargic know laying around feeling mm yes month yeah well 's know 's know see psychologist um talk things um n't really wan na elaborate detail know 's seem think 's helpful well think um 's hard question let 's move please irritable cranky yeah sigh ooh 's good question 's awhile 'd say year half maybe hmm well 's lot going life know lost parent dad last parent lot stuff going 'll leave hmm well still like sports know um watching good game something usually puts good mood particularly team wins know like u_s_c um nephew 's um freshman football player u_s_c uh 've trojan football fan forty years yeah hmm well know think listen well um know 'm pretty much honest straightforward 's good question n't know would ask definitely mother 's deceased 's deceased ten years definitely positive influence entire life many regrets many name number um know 's know benefit hindsight yeah lot regrets hmm listen older people life people cared people interest guide right direction like said kids 'm proud 'em sure pleasure bye,13.0,yes,53,1
428,laughter yeah 'm good 'm um los angeles clears throat probably downtown view 's like 's parents 's grew nothing 's live love l_a laughter maybe 's ghetto 's laughter clears throat thinking going sound engineer mechanic hmm 'm sure clears throat 'cause cau 'cause dad um used mm 'm even sure honest n't really thought ca n't look shoes uh n't travel like n't know maybe money money issue something money yeah 'll go world laughter probably um outgoing depends guess n't know laughter shy outgoing clears throat well outgoing could outgoing party know like 're already ca n't shy guess 're going party good probably um girlfriend 'cause missed work 'cause felt lazy like whatever know n't wan na go want laughter n't go nah really 's already long bills rent paid laughter n't worry guilty probably nothing guess 've gone work laughter mm clears throat damn could erase probably bad friends 've met know like friends trick know said trick friends deceive guess okay like um friend told good job car wash place told 's gon na get hired give direct deposit ended actually going account taking money account laughter clears throat probably moving mom 's house yeah n't really around eh like big decision like wanted space know life wan na want come home want leave want yeah laughter yeah laughter uh 're close 're know hardly argue 're always around always see mom dad brother laughter positive life well 're always know whether financial problems 're help whether 're sad know know 'd like hey 's wrong know let 's go eat somewhere cheer 're xxx 're family 're always motivate keep going sigh uh easy actually yeah pretty easy 'm sorry um n't noticed maybe probably know n't think sleep affect n't know maybe tired n't think annoyed mad anything like good everything 's great um maybe wan na start know like start new business something clears throat well like dad um n't around got back um actually opened shop 's getting lot customers see business growing 'm probably gon na learn learn lear um learn mechanic like like saying earlier school clears throat n't even know nope coughs coughs 'm sorry um yesterday laughter last night 'cause got new game laughter coughs 'm funny laughter uh uh coughs um n't think nothing everything 's fine know thank god everything 's good right n't think 's nothing change like maybe better job well first n't even job guess change get job nah 's hard someone put like clears throat xxx could say probably 'm responsible well home resting call friends usually come barbecue whatever comes mind know house 'cause nice backyard 'cause moved new house far xxx yeah weekend right people come family come pretty pretty much barbecue hang clears throat sister 's birthday party saturday fun lot dancing know people uh saw family n't seen enjoyed clears throat probably like able help mom throughout going really hard time mom um almost nine years 'cause hard trouble paying bills rent 'm proud able help even though could give little least 're still good know 're still alive everyone 's still blessed um around family music music always puts good mood kinda music even 's even 's depressing music 's still gon na go 's still gon na get happy yeah laughter mhm problem anytime bye mm supposed press button laughter say yeah laughter,0.0,no,17,0
362,yes good california like eh arts entertainments like uh lot freedom work lot different fields um like fact weather great um like fact roots family n't like hard get places anymore 's hard 's much traffic takes long time get 're going um 's expensive 's lot expensive used anymore studied journalism english music special effects makeup managing doggy day care facility dream job company um probably working animals 'm 'm artist draw paint tattoos work lot animals like outdoor activities biking hiking um people n't fair people angry um people dishonest usually give like ten second timeout think speak react 'm good controlling temper probably spouse um something financial matters 'm close children father scrubbed_entry 's never easy 's hardest job world 's best um wanting prevent children making mistakes 've realize learn live life um 's one hardest things letting make mistakes uh unconditional love boys everything parent made better person 's made better everything better employee um 've think children made um much better person every day probably lot 've full life would really hard say narrow 've many 'm good friend 'm true friend 'm honest 'm real 'm dependable n't play games 'm 'm n 'm drama yes um february two thousand eleven attacked stalker almost killed november two thousand nine broke apartment laid wait attacked came door tried kill think therapy helped tremendously n't think 'd able hold job responsible productive member society society without therapy 'm able handle things better n't get um emotionally upset um lot rational try stay rational emotional rational logical so-so 've sick 've uh run little stressed yes use resources res draw resources 've learned reach people try isolate try um use tools given therapy um n't use medication anymore 's mainly proactive treatment uh something 's 's never easy 's always bad tired lethargic um 's hard keep thoughts order 's hard basics day mm ca n't remember oh went beach oldest son best friend rode three real three-wheel bikes lot fun 's hard say right n't decided 'm proud children would say 's probably 're really good boys many regrets right finish school um stay focused let get distracted um focus long-term goals short-term goals father 'm honest 'm calm n't get angry easily takes lot provoke 'm uh reliable say 'm gon na something 'm uh 'm 'm basically see get n't n't pull punches people um anything animals love animals always smile around animals kind big small um like older people elderly people like help around like children um,20.0,yes,71,1
459,hello yeah 'm alright little tired uh live culver city um originally grew venice um beach fast drivers um city 've lived utah n't really like anything else city um n't know many people live anymore uh traffic 's big 's home laughter uh 've country times uh seeing new n clears throat seeing new places fourteen went costa rica visit father two weeks last time 've costa rica um seeing father first time years definitely shocker um joy happy excited kinda scared n't decision mom 's 'd planned trip yeah uh wanted art major n't understand math classes among classes thought wasting time decided really n't wan na moved back l_a n't really dream job uh would like self-employed though right 'm thinking going school become personal trainer 'm really sure uh around new people 'm reserved people know 'm lot outgoing talkative laughter um relax go walks walk dog lot um call girlfriend wan na calm also uh meditation self-hypnosis try depends wha 'm feeling upset calm 'm trying 'm really upset 's lot harder calm bring meditation self-hypnosis yeah um 'm alright sometimes lose yell lose temper put holes walls yet sigh last night mom got argument buying ticket last night greyhound go utah 'm going work weeks make little bit money needed buy ticket week advance n't want last night situation last night wish blown gotten raged enraged situation 'cause escalated little sister 'm close um 's fifteen years old 's turn sixteen days uh would anything world mom um fight push 's buttons believe views father believes succeed anything sad 's okay um wish could forget high school years sophomore year uh n't like high school sophomore year uh getting sober going uh drug rehab um sixteen got um sigh started different drugs got hand guess mom trying get help n't want help kept uh escaping different places running away wanting places finally agreed go utah try get sober scrubbed_entry um 's best friend entire life ever since remember grew together used use drugs 's sober year almost impossible um either sleep night get hours n't n't sleep well 'm taking pills stopped smoking marijuana n't sleep n't past weeks yeah 's fun lay bed finally fall asleep early morning watch t_v late night netflix 'm 'm tired 'm groggy 'm lot likely anger lot likely come 've alright weekend better girlfriend stayed place entire weekend 've happy um deep breath sigh n't 'm irritable yes probably believe twelve first time diagnosed 've diagnosed multiple times though um recent time less year ago uh mom sought help saw unhappy became worried uh stopped june first graduated uh drug rehab program utah last year 'm learned coping skills 'm able calm 'm angry easier know stay away trigger points getting away staying away angry becoming depressed person 's willing change wanting two days ago girlfriend moment overwhelmed happiness guess laughter trustworthy um funny shit n't um outgoing smart athletic would um yeah wish n't short fused wish n't depressed wish n't feel like needed something help sleep wish completely dependable um younger father would uh hit dog front 'cause mad started hitting dog n't probably biggest thing xxx little remember sad yeah everyone something regret deep breath sigh naive hmm uh went hypnosis appointment hypnosis days ago really relaxing really calming feel like could help um one mom 's colleagues referred psychiatrist 's really good a_d_h_d patients like laughter um 'm athletic um 'm nice like put people time n't know 's negative quality positive n't know ideal weekend would either go parties 'll 'll hang girlfriend fullerton 'll los angeles beach um n't really felt like 've accomplished anything adequately proud well sports high school 's really k bye,16.0,yes,48,1
313,sure uh okay guess bad good denver colorado uh pursue job opportunities uh two years ago uh twice year uh really like sunshine um opportunities different kinds people lots stuff sort thing uh hate traffic wish seasons distinct everything costs lot money pretty easy hmm 'd say uh people rude um enough money uh else mm lot things frustrating guess cough guess depends 'm annoyed like 's another person something life general uh somebody like person annoys 'll probably let know 're annoying stop 're talking okay uh good 'd like uh days ago getting paid something time uh pretty pissed taken advantage like go gym uh hang friends read write sort thing mm times uh sometimes like keep n't feel like showing lot outward emotion degree liberal arts majored political science work uh sales hmm uh several businesses lots money coming different streams guess 's job uh used live mexico city pretty memorable um let 's see pretty different anything 've ever experienced lot fun exposed lot new things new people uh pretty young carefree good times um recently life traveled quite bit um let 's see went london lot fun pretty cool city little expensive definitely cool anything life um let 's see uh boy 's good question um moving l_a pretty memorable took lot hard work uh move memorable would say sniffle clears throat hmm uh maybe like six months ago uh things going really well n't much stress life uh yeah 'm 'm easier easily irritated uh yell tired uh kind feeling productive uh yeah awhile ago uh hmm mm n't know exactly 's years still feel diagnosed assume 'm still depressed um well 'm big believer talking people problems thought would uh good idea 's found oh yeah definitely um mean depends mean therapy like people probably ca n't afford good therapy even talking friends would consider therapy somebody listen helps get stuff chest clears throat thanks um well n't necessarily seen therapist per se uh talk somebody listens get stuff like like head whatever 's uh helps destress think hmm pretty girls laughter laughter um 'm good leader 'm really smart uh able um survive city like completely outside help yeah lots stuff um dumb mistakes made younger looking back know probably would made um would tell seek listen people older much possible hmm scrubbed_entry 's always good sort pep talk uh dose reality n't sugarcoat anything talking always helps give perspective um talented n't know good stuff 'm good lot stuff people seem notice guess nice good disposition funny see later,7.0,no,44,0
444,yes 'm fine 'm well today feel good today uh born indiana mhm grew bloomington moved l_a job working c_d_c 've back twice past twenty years um family anymore uh went back high school reunions 's much greener 's green uh small um uh um wooded areas 's played woods kid 'd swim quarries um rode bicycle everywhere 's little um uh cement traffic um wa seemed like cement first love friends love able many different things um go beach lot um still go mountains go camping time um love love always opportunities laughter um traveled quite bit peace corps um tisk south america paraguay three years traveled south america brazil peru uh peru chile bolivia um also spent year london traveled europe used go canada often uh 'd love get asia one days uh meeting new people food love trying new food um getting different perspective world different people 's um outlook world america tends become isolated um hiked inca trail um uh peru five day hike starting cusco um hiked um think four five days um woke one last morning sun gate machu picchu amazing experience 'cause would 'd 'd seen 'd seen national geographic know life um experience phenomenal philosophy degree philosophy minored art clears throat well started business got disenchanted quickly decided study wanted study college opportunity 's wanted everyone advised ca n't get job philosopher um idea getting philosophy degree going law school professor ethics um kind fell apart 's actually ended joining peace corps laughter worked 'm sorry yeah mhm 'm 'm sorry alarm 's going phone 'll die second okay 'm sorry 's still going sorry turned phone forgot turn alarm go okay 'm sorry question dream job um sigh gosh um writing um 've done um uh scripts uh screeenplays friend mine um n't really wan na hollywood thing um tisk writing teaching traveling could overseas outgoing turn alarm laughter keeps going laughter oh ca n't move okay ca n't get purse okay 'm sorry yes turned phone n't turn alarm like laughter 's like forgot 's alarm go yoga class 'm terribly sorry laughter okay laughter laughter sorry interruption um actual fish tank um house thing children get upset um sit front fish tank 's relaxing um also try meditate um try sit quiet um gather thoughts um like read um sometimes walk 'll take dog walk sigh wish could say good usually um tend outbursts every um things getting chaotic house um 'm feeling underappreciated burst anger yeah husband n't appreciate um 've never done work social situation home family 've done instead um recognizing 'm upset husband tends get mad mad escalates uh sometimes end walking door going room hmm 'm sorry um usually outburst isolate little bit come back relaxed deal situation calm manner um sometimes 's hard 've gotten point know stop get go take deep breaths um really try figure 'm feeling 'm angry um tense able verbalize um well happens times start getting 've tense day um things n't gone right um tend outbursts kitchen 'm making dinner kids home 're asking questions homework 're turning t_v husband 's uh uh bothering things n't need think right one time said okay everyone kitchen leave alone get let finish dinner nobody would pressure building building actually took one pots banged stove laughter really hard like get people pay attention saying actually made dent stove laughter um still um um walked sooner taken deep breaths um probably pregnant first child um n't married um tisk good friend um oh thirty two time uh know n't young think younger probably would decided abortion point life 'm like okay 'm 'm going um um got pregnant man actually married still married um 'd dating like three months living good friend mine peace corps um n't know guy well um n't know could raise child together n't know wanted get married raise child somebody else um friend suggested raise child together um even suggested moving costa rica raise child together um uh lot um huge decisions gon na determine rest life um made decision based common sense practicality um n't regret decision think made good decision marry husband raise child laughter um 're older uh eldest seventeen um tisk da vinci science uh school 's much engineering getting pilot 's license uh 'm proud um daughter fifteen loves acting uh um boyfriend um uh see week church basically um text constantly um 's typical fifteen year old twelve year old extremely active laughter constant motion always making noises love dearly um rock climbing 's rock climbing gym near house membership goes rock climbs almost daily basis find extremely difficult n't n't mother difficult dad died young um mother kind disconnected happened um n't warm loving relationship mother growing basically raised um kind young age um mean house really interaction really n't parenting skills know people raised um know sometimes 's difficult um see friends know innate parenting skills warm know 're making cookies everything 's organic knit everything know house always perfect um 's like 'm person try 'm think good mother 'm um typical mother think 'm um 'm creative lot times lot things um 's warm fuzzy cozy kind thing actually go camping 's 'm homey go camping home think 'm tense 'm home 'm trying like meditation things sort 'm trying become calmer patient think patience um need work 'm insomniac life remember child laying bed watching stars go across bedroom window um n't slept well long time um realize exercise something brain intellectually day physically tired intellectually tired sleep well um 's sometimes 's hard um lot times stay stay awake reading 'll read 'til midnight um 'll try go sleep um usually wo n't get back even 'll wake three things sort 'll try go back sleep yesterday n't feel good um think lot depend weather cloudy grey yesterday um 'cause planned planned working garden 'm 'm building buil 'm making butterfly garden front yard um planting could n't n't kind feel like um sort puddled wasted lot time yesterday today feel really good feel positive feel energy um n't know got new mattress actually n't really helped sleep um really good needed one really long time kind excited delivered deli delivered set sounds like sort mundane um know like 'm finally something positive 'cause 's 's something put put put like finally uh concrete 's like okay 've done task check list um also took kids camping um spring break uh fabulous time sat around telling stories um around camp fire making s'mores things like kind times make happy laughter n't know um think believes 'm uh uh intellectual smarter think times comes lot um issues uh always always solicits advice thinks give good advice um n't know 'll 'll 'll ask um sometimes calls run things uh like complain 'm sympathetic um empathetic uh 'm listen n't need give advice think good listener good advice giver procrastinate lot um start projects n't finish uh 's 'm working right finishing lot projects 've started past months lot really creative projects um 'm enthusiastic start 'll get almost finished n't know happens completely lose interest um sometimes think 's 'm afraid finish sounds little strange um 'm working 'm trying get done oh gosh laughter um following opportunities got peace p peace corps lot things could go could 've gone get master 's degree um grant things sort um instead got pregnant got married wonderful job really liked really enjoyed um got pregnant second time right time fight directorship realized limitations could n't pregnant child everything needed get directorship really wish resigned um wish stuck um 'cause would much fulfilling rewarding solid career um base decisions emotions sometimes um 've really bad bosses um jobs wonderful um ego got way would 've told let go aspect job let go egotistical reactions bosses concentrate job really well um children actually um also uh peace corps experience phenomenal um uh people actually really interested like awe actually know someone actually um 's 'm yeah always little girl neighbor one first people go peace corps first started always said oh wan na one day wan na one day wan na one day finally got point 'd either shut um 's one prouder experiences okay thank bye,7.0,no,36,0
380,sure 'm fine 'm alright um yeah 'm maryland yeah maryland washington d_c area uh like five weeks ago laughter laughter maryland um deep breath 's lot 's lot less um uh xxx 's uh 's nice time year 's um uh 's 's good 's nice 's um l_a 's lot better though 's lot 's lot people lot going um 'm still st guess 'm still getting used um 's 's like um yeah 'm still getiing used 's 's coming slowly surely live culver city one uh 's okay 's live really nasty house 's uh 's cheap chea 's cheap 'cause 'm living friend 's place um uh 's letting stay half price actual like place pretty horrible horr horrible living conditions laughter 'm moving soon ca n't see shoes actually uh travel xxx would say xxx 've probably traveled people u_s like considering people n't travel u_s would n't would n't call world traveler anything enjoy chance get like see um walks life kind like meditate specificity know th given parameters grew like different everyone else like every life totally um mean even within u_s like seeing someone california grows different someone maryland grows think someone like thailand something growing 's pretty 's pretty amazing mhm uh okay um hmm putting spot ellie um let 's see uh well um 's awhile since 've trip guess one last trips um mean xxx like two years ago went road trip across u_s pretty amazing saw guess best place pl best two places road roa drove maryland l_a actually moved um visited new orleans new orleans whole like even though 's part u_s 's like totally 's totally different anywhere else 's um unique culture unique blend like caribbean french influences like american south um uh incredible incred eh yeah 's 's 's unreal un yeah 's unreal hmm 's tough question um one um makes clicking sound mouth uh hmm know come back question capable yeah come back yeah 's said film know 's actually question 've asking knew kne know entire life 've like phases interest like young really like first phase remember keys tools like would go around collecting keys 'd go around collecting tool like every sort tool toolbox parents told phase balls like various balls um really like insects collecting insects reptiles stuff stu like animals dinosaur phase certain cert eh certain point got really um like rap ra like music like first fi first rap uh guitar acting point told rememeber telling someone right 'm interested playwriting poetry eventually going interested uh film like could kinda see trajectory coming n't remember led conclusion think always wa led sheltered life uh far movies concerned n't parents n't let see r-rated movie like high school almost like um uh never uh never saw r-rated movie also squeamish like remember fairly young maybe like six saw star wars first scene darth dar star wars darth vader crack like breaks guy 's neck little scene beginning like freaked leave room 'm really sure uh yeah 's 's 's um n't 'm exactly sure got film uh 've always fascinated like people interact like know acting stuff movies general yes um filmmaker able direct uh put pu put together make like guess direct n't mm use word much 'cause think think like want opportunity put together make movies uh make movies probably best way uh say 'cause want know want involvement processes guess best parabole would director directing well 's lot better 'm living um guess um 's funny ask ellie um 've thinking lot lately think 'm close entire family 'm closest dad um get along brother sister know like n't away like brother 's foreign country right n't opportunity talk like spend time talking dad anyone else 'cause feel like 's like family 's one accepts like um thinks positively um 's like complicated relationship parents mean mea family general well myers uh briggs personality test 'm uh 'm extrovert lately late like since moving 'm like um 'm probably would consider scheme extroversion uh scale extroversion sorry um would consider extremely introverted um see extroverts matter 're around 're able like strike conversations 'm 'm fairly shy person 'm sort like uh inhibited person maybe um like like yeah 'm 'm working 'm working um well past would smoke weed 've quit smoking weed know glass wine maybe watch movie um n't maybe go like depending 's like xxx 's um 's worn sort stress like 'm like 's 's like anxious type stress might go uh intense walk n't really exercise much like know competitive sports hiking pretty good well always like arguing um would n't call arguing necessarily losing temper um enjoy uh vicious debate um n't long like 'cause wo n't like revert personal know attacks uh arguments try keep subject um try explain best get frustrating 'cause 'm like best articulator think um one weaker points would say um last time heated debate think question um happened forget forget question heated debate hmm last time heated debate um heated debate uh movie boogie nights um wa n't lose temper exactly get like extremely passionate 'cause n't think 's like good movie two people arguing saying like one like best um best movies laughter think best movie um think like 's 's sort 'll understand um certain uh think like stories within boogie nights um like could separate stories think 's whole like complexity character within movie um somehow like sigh um saying saying like movie like xxx 's like end era makes like kinda like casino 's attention detail different character like interact plot um kind like uh yeah guess think heated debate became like uh like personally 's like bad movie anything 's um n't think dirk diggler like like meaningful mean meaningful character like guess way come came movie 'cause seen many years ago eh opinion basically even though like remember like watching able reevaluate um 's nothing bad movie 's nothing articulable art like articulable 's 's like solid good solid acting know directing good camera moves cool um eh really rea know 's cool 's 's meaningless mea like meaningless led us discuss 'cause movie saw recently really like django unchained saw movie hated movie extreme guess heated part conversation came like movie django unchained um django django like kinda 's two dimensional character n't think necessarily takes away big big purpose movie um doctor king schultz 's uh 's like mentor character person arguing saying intelligent uh intelligent 's way would 've risked life save django like would 've gone like second act go go uh uh plantation save django 's wife etcetera um reason rea reason giving argument like either buy would would n't reason argument intelligent person would sacrifice themself someone else um strikes stri strikes like um like uh like basic ba basic argument altruism al like altruism n't exist exi ayn rand type argument altruism n't exist um thing serve ser like thing people serve themself um 's quite ayn rand 's like people peo thing people peo like people serve themself 'm arguing like every decision like mix altruism like even altruistic type decision 's maybe like kernels self self-interest made sound like self-interest motivating factor like horrible life 's like ultimate um purpose pur like ca n't like love sacrifice people led extremely uh passionate debate um uh somewhat like yeah 's uh um yeah guess 's n't think necessarily like lost temper um think losing temper um like would revert um ad hominem like attacks uh n't like 's um maybe like maybe criticizing crit like criticizing world view n't like well 're idiot know like n't n't n't turn abuse sort yeah 'm glad understand deep breath event n't know necessarily would want erase anything memory would say issue able remember much detail would like remember feelings moments stories um like life n't always together like coherent story 's like moment moment moment moment yeah hardest decision 've ever make oh geez could one hardest decisions hmm um like choosing two things 's like guess 'm hard time recalling moment like choose two options like 's like sophie 's choice type moment life think decision 'cause lived new york went school new york uh decision leave new york lived five years difficult um uh money reasons core group friends either like leaving lea leaving going places world uh one person close living someone get along like situation n't either gon na live people n't close craigslist move home think tough decision leave ha fact tough way could justify saying would moving back new york within like month two uh n't n't end happening way could leave new york hard hard hard um hard laughter um yeah like isolating isolating 'cause also like 'd fallen fa like previously time fallen love one like closest another one close close friends uh kind gone extremely badly n't speaking terms could n't like whole everyone list friends like mo closer xxx n't quite like type thing way kind saw time n't like know socially isolated etcetera yeah well recently 's awful um uh like two last last night slept like ten half hours um seems length time sleep order really vivid dreams previous night last last night night last night got four hours two hours sleep um working set would get back either like could n't fall asleep whatever reason 's um much riled energy something n't know tired uh immediately guess initially upon waking like really enjoy early morning um also stopped drinking caffeine like 've like little bit coffee last two days last two days n't coffee like three half weeks um guess caffeine system 'm ready 'm ready go um without caffeine 's 'm 'm quieter guess introverted since like lately um change thoughts yeah mean guess moved period time like eh beginning sheer difficulty finding job finding people xxx 'cause moved 'cause group friends couple friends n't like large number friends push get meet people find job sort pressure pretty um overwhelming first think 'm slowly like coming terms um moving know moving past necessarily nece know like 's still 's still pressure 's 'm know know sigh know sigh nope last time felt really happy might reach back um think last time felt really happy uh writing process last year shot movie um co-wrote co-directed co-produced um kinda like still consumes life um think writing stages movie would bunker bunk like get eat breakfast bunker work really hard put stuff thing like pure creative full fu energy um betw person writing 's like probably like xxx day remember 's remember going bed thrilled working working working person working like like felt like yeah guess last time like eh year ago though guess 's hard hard think n't really truly happy since 're making movie like n't ca n't allow happy really real especially 're know basically wi like xxx like ca n't 's much else would say 'm accepting acce like accepting people always eh 'm empathic em empathic em empathic um open open ope like excited new ideas open new ideas yeah um hmm um guess wish less uh uh less ruled fear fearless f fearless know everyday interactions like um know zest living um sigh yeah xxx things would change 'd would n't know laughter hmm really badly um sigh think numerous nu numerous instances childhood like uh like every single time issue school sort um sort uh conflict teacher anything parents always always side court know like never noticed noticed got older people parents like kid trouble like something wrong like kid perfect 's something wrong people parents always opposite um particular mom would say couple instances um like blamed like know fault um like yeah 's thing things things could n't like 's yeah n't know yeah ten years ago um stay stake know like think 's um tendency like love lo love fact tendency get really caught ideas ide idea like devote entirely sometimes um ideas easily xxx would say like much possible like n't n't decide um going one thing um try like guess would 've taken like done taken piano learn learn read music would big thing learn play drums would 've drums reading music would say 'd love learn play drums maybe done like acting classes um far like 'cause always really directing always directing actors stuff n't 's um n't know guess stay uh n't stay sta stay stay focused fo yeah n't know 's tough tough question que tough question ellie 's sure goodbye bye,10.0,yes,53,1
370,yeah 'm pretty okay thanks asking uh 'm l_a grew san fernando valley yeah uh sigh well like diversity people different kinds food eat like um outdoor opportunities grew close hills lot hiking um camping pretty close 've gone snowboarding um like eh familiarity think know 's 's big city uh know 'm pretty familiar lived long would say like laughter probably number one thing everybody says n't like traffic n't like stuck traffic n't like deep breath uh long commutes even know short distances um know gets really hot summer times know eh could stand little lit slightly cooler gets peak peak heat 's fine wow dream job uh sigh 's great question laughter think dream job would probably uh know maybe able travel somehow make money profit know make gainful employment traveling 's almost unrealistic dream since n't know would actually wan na pick kind dream existence know traveling getting paid travel meeting new people trying new things able make living would pretty fun well like like mentioned like l_a like trying different kinds food different cuisines think trying authentic cuisines different places meeting different kinds people seeing different ways life uh would eh like traveling um like experiencing new things um think would nice know despite fact said like familiarity l_a 's also fun discovering new things think travel tr travel 's 's like check new things um would like know laughter could make living would great uh one trips okay well let 's see last trip took um lemmi think one one one exciting trip um well family eastern europe one trips took parents fourteen went um austria hungary romania uh know getting see old castles ca 'd times little n't really much memory plus n't really process things quite kinda age got see know family 's old uh know hometown know uh family um like tomb got see old buildings different way life really liked uh know seeing parents old friends um know pretty fun different like really first time taken away home environment know left middle school year um like going know suburban america traveling around kind uh know taking old trains seeing castles old like hundreds year old towns n't know um everyone know n't know laughter would great everybody really enjoyed uh 's 's good question sigh uh probably one things either turn like rerun sitcom um used watch office lot kinda know 's 'll 'll turn know uh kind zone little bit uh know like familiar characters hearing jokes still funny reason um maybe like uh eating kinda comfort food know try eat much fast food uh like n ' really like going unwind um know 's every months maybe 'll uh really like read um especially like uh 'll read day 's events know really relaxes reason even 's reading something conflict going somewhere world still 'll read headlines really like know 's going kind centers um really enjoy 's something relax would say sigh 'm pretty great although n't think nature makes pretty uh easy eas makes pretty easy n't laughter n't get upset upset um easily 's much challenge control temper eh um yeah n't n't really anger issues 's 's difficult get angry uh n't n't laughter n't really much trouble last time argued somebody probably sigh n't even know mean small disagreements know might 've uh family friends things full argument ca n't even remember 's years n't really argue much try avoid conflict much possible personal life n't um really see anything gained kind uh naturally repel away n't sorry n't laughter n't much say arguing something feel guilty would say uh know sometimes somet eh sigh sometimes n't really um feel like maybe n't made potential yet life think could definitely despite fact work lot um feel like 's always opportunities uh 're missing feel like know sometimes time feel little bit guilty 's always something could 'm even 's putting away laundry 's um took dryer 's sitting running late really n't like running late um although sigh happens 'd like 'd n't know feel guilty n't like keeping people wait waiting makes feel like uh know time somehow valuable obviously true um sigh hmm um nothing immediately comes mind well sigh last car accident got years ago guess wish n't happened wish 've could erase memory eh um driving rush hour traffic know thought cars front going um know least little know ten fifteen feet turns stopped deep breath know xxx slow rear-end collision still unfortunate uh know felt like paying attention one second next second know like reaching something passenger seat smacked car front deep breath uh wish 've happened absolutely uh know kn know 's minor thing really unfortunate timing bad know financially people got accident fine wa know know n't ask anything beyond repairing damages uh uh horrible timing um deep breath wish 've happened suck laughter suck 'm eh yeah suck well 'm pretty good sleeper although 'm naturally wired later night unfortunately unfortunately job um allows affords pretty flexible schedule token uh wish could cou like hard-wired go sleep earlier wind staying 'til one two every night uh 's late know even though could get full eight hours whatnot sleep 's always night time know half sleep like kinda early daylight hours wish um able sleep know go sleep like ten eleven sleep uh wake earlier opposed going sleep later waking later 've pretty feeling pretty good 've complaints physically know health-wise feel good um know relationships family friends good uh um everything great far absolutely real complaints uh far 'm feeling anything like 've fairly consistent behavior thoughts think um everything pretty okay pretty steady nothing traumatic nothing um kinda resurfacing past nothing sort happened happening well think 's plenty things everybody regrets uh yeah yeah 's 's plenty things um sigh life uh yeah like said regret uh know maybe trying harder younger days know 's period time early twenties n't work uh hung lot friend know guess like proverbial bad crowd know none us worked uh know got high every day um seemed like every day n't know uh eh kinda like throw-away period life would say um sigh 's important engage world think think kinda dropped world little bit think 's also would say 's important um recognize people around know wha kinda potential know future activities expect people surround think uh would say also um kinda try focus wanted life opposed thinking well know things work eventually think know 's bit lost time um approach 's kinda fatalistic think would say know um try concentrate know know everyone works schedule life n't race would say 's important goal mind kind know idea want life opposed kinda waiting um thinking things fall place um sigh well sigh guess people n't especially um take even constructive criticism particularly well reason think f least sort things figured although 'm sure 'm wrong think maybe terms like uh group work 've done professionally academically know work uh kinda picked apart scrutinized n't n't deal well take personally uh probably year half ago working research project work uh somebody much less experience exp three us working something brought another pair eyes go somebody uh college know um went done know kinda rewording things seemed like cosmetic changes made sake changing things kinda took personal offense uh thought lot experience education uh unnecessary know thought whole thing waste time know um n't think somebody qualified necessarily redo work um even uh redo edit uh sigh eh proofread guess make kind know qualitative changes thought really bad idea thought know n't viewed way thought fact brought somebody almost experience know kind like affront us worked project know n't call sigh mm memorable experiences um well guess sigh first thing comes mind one um first real trip took uh took uh amtrak new mexico exploring things um ten days uh kind longest period time 'til point n't know twenty three maybe time 'd really completely cut everyone parts new mexico cell phone reception time um memorable felt like really uh know exposed things would n't seen traveling companions um lot fun uh well 've happy recently 'm getting married months uh got engaged labor day uh two thousand twelve thanks laughter uh happy day whole process know um meeting someone kinda progressed quickly realized recognized um 've pretty happy state past uh well 's eleven months um yeah think day got engaged shared family think happy times um new years happy know uh 'm happy period life right yeah yeah thank laughter uh sigh sigh sort um sense humor maybe everybody gets 'd say uh also uh know um helpful calm relaxed maybe uh sigh intelligent um know likes recycle know 's something would say uh else think um best friend might say uh like animals 've always dogs cats might describe people person mean animal person excuse also um know fairly easygoing know flexible plans mm uh 'd say one sigh proud life um hmm tisk well sigh 'm pretty happy level education 've gotten 'm also going back eh starting fall 'm starting p_h_d program 'm happy 'm happy know breaking bad habits past 'd say 'm proud anything 's um know strong faith relationship go church often 'm 'm happy n't know pride right word um relationships family friends good uh 'd say maybe fact 's lot different life lot different ten years ago know change 'm 'm happy proud problem good day thank goodbye,0.0,no,17,0
392,yes 'm well uh california like weather like people n't like traffic uh 's primarily sociology yep uh 's topic really interested subjects writer um like able write want write uh right write things 'm really interested like uh articles uh teenager culture stuff like um think pretty easy n't know easy laughter uh really mm depends situation 'm around first meet people shy uh 's someone 've known outgoing um 'll lay try sort like deep breathing uh maybe something 's kinda fun mind numbing like watch t_v 'm pretty good n't really let anger show much um 'm like n't fiery temper anything like 'm pretty rational um actually ca n't remember last time argued someone 'cause 's long um guess feel guilty fact n't talk grandparents much um 'm close grandparents really anyone else family uh 'cause basically sort raised uh uh parents n't really picture much um sigh ca n't really think one right uh guess uh sister died really traumatizing mhm yeah yes um guess hardest decision 've ever make deciding whether divorce husband uh n't getting along reason stay married still felt like stick mean hard time uh made right decision think uh grandmother positive influence young age um 's strong powerful uh sort staunch character rubbed uh really super easy um sort mean 's probably fault go bed late sort foggy distracted trouble concentrating mean like body uh normal fine complaints 's ever uh last night hanging friends like really good time sharing stories laughing stuff uh probably funny uh easy get along also caring uh spend ideal weekend really much like maybe sitting around reading going movies watching t_v uh n't think 's n't n't think uh think regretting r regretting things waste time um n't try n't go way try impress people like like um sometimes sometimes kinda lazy uh 'd like um like sort uh better work ethic guess uh sort putting stuff um know right 's due 's due things like um procrastinating uh sigh sometimes things write uh people write negative things like comment section website 'll make feel bad laughter 'm uh articulate funny good friend um guess 'm proud fact uh satisfied friends status world 'm proud fact feel comfortable um hanging friends uh sort people watching watching movie 's good um listening music mhm bye,1.0,no,17,0
443,sure good indiana um weather like weather uh never um n't wan na get back old groove took time took long time took years yeah um n't get cold um 'm comfortable uh environment midwest uh smog uh crowds um dirt um mm hustle yeah n't uh money takes uh takes lot money credit cards yeah uh basics n't go long sigh uh dream drea uh dream job um developing land yeah building high-rise buildings probably middle uh well 'm real shy uh 'm really outgoing 'd say uh fifty fifty uh usually walk walk around neighborhood uh listen music uh sigh average uh sigh someone uh sigh hmm 's awhile eh think little uh n't remember exact time 's uh something little uh xxx um ba ba ba uh instead getting uh angry uh ignoring people ignoring mm sigh guess 's fifty fifty sometimes uh feel guilty makes sound mouth ca n't think anything right sigh uh sigh could erase let 's see um career choice made years ago uh got transportation business went school got employed stayed years dream job um developing land construction high-rise building hardest decision decisi ever make hmm ca n't think one um much one speak 's kinda distant mm yeah n't talk couple times year 's sniffle uh many people laughter mm good night 's sleep yeah uh 'd say uh eh 's uh tired uh kind uh mm ouch kinda like um sigh looking searching yeah looking job looking employment emplo employment hmm much oh dream days weeks ago days ago really happy dream yeah uh n't remember dream um makes sound mouth sure deep breath uh sigh n't much uh go library uh park much yeah sigh n't best qualities uh good listener mm penis size mm n't remember yeah 's sigh 's things yep uh regret uh um makes sound mouth regret uh ca n't think anything particular 's probably list somewhere uh uh meditate uh uh smelly people stink music comedies funny movies hmm uh really enjoyed wow n't much listen music mostly uh yesterday little goodbye,1.0,no,28,0
456,yes 'm well thank uh boston massachusetts yes moved l_a year graduating college two thousand one uh quite often least couple times year um god love cities polar opposite many many ways 's things love uh pursue acting writing mm 's still complete reality actually easy um creative factor allowed pursue wanted creatively different social culture different way grown suited better personality sigh oh god go like fact come pursue niche know kn creativity art entertainment want sort make path uh grew snows constantly cold sounds obvious clearly like 's swim year round uh like 's 's always something matter day week n't like uh well miss family fam miss 's n't like 's big family element miss 'm big family girl miss family feel like 's crowded yet 's easy feel eh sort isolated alone mhm mm ca n't see shoes um mostly much worldly travel mostly back boston mm eh florida parents live enjoy traveling take lot trips within california around oh adventure something fun 'm going home means 'm gon na see family clears throat um one trips mm god well like drive northern california go san francisco family friends always super super fun uh god college college boyfriend boston drove went san francisco drove l_a las vegas kind realized wanted move big one uh general clears throat mm memorable experiences guess would moving moved moved l_a got plane n't know anybody got talked girl met online agreed roommate picked airport never met know one dear friends day definitely flight big monumental felt powerful excited open whatever mhm studied communications um got lots every lot different uh writing writing styles eventually graduated concentration public relations english minor writing pursue writing writer uh well guess could say writer slash actress um guess writing first hard hard need one 's gon na push self-starter make happen 's hard 'cause n't possess naturally personality much need would say outgoing general sigh sometimes take walk feel tense um listen ambient music helps need soothing background white noise calming calming area basic deep breaths sort take minute come back calm neutral place getting better laughter um 'm okay ok 'm good controlling temper 'cause n't usually temper often lose cool hard time controlling yes laughter hmm mm argued someone um god guess friend friend girlfriend n't uh separate perspectives certain situation us obviously different um started something big realized stupid n't need fighting kind ended quickly sigh hmm mm guess would 've uh ex-boyfriend fighting ex-boyfriend relationship stuff definitely losing temper making situation escalated way n't need wish walked away mm n't know could 've avoided complete situation definitely could 've made outcome much less chaotic hmm uh guess would hmm walking away somebody definitely bad toxic life uh really want life true wrestling morality kind sort growing like coming point say 'm gon na something 's really really hard sort know short-term pain long-term gain make sort adult decision relationship-wise still carried areas life taught know 're always gon na feel great gr every decision 's always gon na easy feel good yes kinda forced issue going life sort ca n't ignore signs yeah mm guess would particular argument somebody um happened sort public place got trouble wish could erase relationship family fam wonderful family 'm completely blessed amazing parents brother little girl baby niece love anything world could ask better family 're ideal parents sure 're wonderful people taught example feel like 'm good mix 's pretty easy try um lately 's little bit hard sleep 's part 've come recognize importance 's 's pretty easy sigh uh little edgy fidgety maybe little bit might um might seem like 'm good mood 'cause might little giddy uh laughing sort laughter high emotions overall get um irritated faster um sweat feel feel um little 've feeling pretty good lately mm really trying focused clears throat get things done um trying focus wan na career-wise really stop wasting time know procrastinating get things done inspired going seeing know around people wan na carrying life uh oh couple days family baby niece florida 's went see awesome 'm always happy see probably um funny humor would definitely probably one first things would say joking always little wise-ass personality um would describe always uh unconditional know know 'm need always drive driven getting things done mm guess would well recent recent ex-boyfriend mistake relationship uh yeah sort uh think way felt certain things would say even though said n't directly make feel bad whole situation made realize wow fact 'm even person made feel like 'm let allowing people life n't 'm dumbing yeah terrible yes regret listening gut instincts n't second-guess sigh clears throat um great listener constant sense humor uh malleable terms eh people uh tolerant comfortable around people ages race gender whatever crave diversity love know 'm people person um start every day blank slate um acting work series really great group people cool cool creative experience inspiring probably coming l_a without knowing anybody staying pursuing wan na thank goodbye,6.0,no,41,0
427,yeah sure 'm good 'm florida originally mhm oh um work laughter uh n't back like months um n't know guess 's like smaller town pretty easy 's um 's much difference except guess buildings bigger laughter um tisk like weather uh like environment like hollywood guess laughter hate transportation transporta transportation system traffic 's really bad laughter mhm yeah 've traveled lot around america um like like seeing new places meeting new people different areas stuff uh guess 's relaxing 's fun laughter uh well went canada mom friend went visit 's pretty cold laughter n't like particular trip um n't know made us uh like canadian food called think 's poutine something guess laughter new experience um try get sun like go beach something read book um pretty okay laughter depends bad situation um n't know like two days ago arguing sister something oh yeah laughter really n't remember something stupid think n't know borrowed something n't give back time laughter um n't know guess mean yeah wish would n't lose temper quickly sometimes n't happen really often um n't know guess think talk maybe wo n't lose temper laughter um something wish could erase memory um n't know guess like uh negative people something negative people 've met guess wan na erase thought meeting um well like friends like good company 're good influences yeah would wan na erase meeting 'm friends anymore um 's positive influence family positive influence laughter friends oh 's pretty good talk lot see lot yeah mm hardest decision 've ever make n't know laughter guess um wanted study college maybe 's hard laughter 's little 's big decision computer science thanks yeah little bit laughter much little bit well got wh got teenager guess good figured 'd go studying higher higher level yeah somewhat uh kinda wanted kinda trying make decision like arts yeah 'm happy though dream job laughter uh fashion designer laughter yeah hard job um n't think 's hard job laughter like clothes fabric making clothes like n't think 's hard job actually fall asleep like within five minutes depending tired 'm irritable laughter uh yeah 'm irritable good around laughter 'm tired ca n't focus 've feeling good fine thanks um last time felt really happy mm guess like week ago went um went go went event downtown like art walk thing exciting thanks oh like different art um galleries stuff downtown 're exhibiting work n't know interesting walk around see um think 'm generous um patient think 'm good friend laughter um think 'm hard working else yeah 's 's think um wish outgoing like sociable person um else n't know wish like guess um easy um anger like get temper something oh trouble 's sometimes 's laughter 's pleasant people um getting get getting temper 've never gotten trouble mm really badly um ca n't laughter think um guess um tisk elevator one time person like running towards like like trying hold could n't reach time like started cursing laughter like felt really bad 'cause probably thought n't try open yeah laughter um anything regret clears throat really well yeah regret um contacting like old friends knew guess yeah maybe 'll future know like elementary school yeah lost contact years 'cause switched schools clears throat mean oh okay um n't know guess would say um learn much n't know n't hold back much like um like outgoing stuff guess 'd tell outgoing laughter um think 'd say thing said earlier 'm generous patient hard working else say um kind laughter hope 'd say sigh mm proud intelligence okay okay bye take care,5.0,no,26,0
457,yes spectacular interesting experiment laughter uh 'm middle nowhere iowa sigh uh may second two thousand seven exactly five years six years ago um infrequently like every couple years uh weather exists 's extreme 's rather less exciting lot less colorful uh winter minnesota laughter uh took approximately drive 's 's took lights uh lights took care rest uh really love 's giant concrete playground nighttime bycicles uh free rein streets like art love fact 's many different kinds culture jammed together look hard enough find anything really want oh know traffic sigh exceedingly high cost living uh yeah big beefs uh nearly much would like 've done little bit uh like knowing exactly things gon na go like fact forces uh deal people deal situations ways normally would n't uh last year got hang san marcos little bit split ex san marcos went back iowa bunch family stuff brought little brother los angeles laughter uh last week managed go bike ride cyclavia scrubbed_entry laughter basically rolling green light entire way venice boulevard made made bunch like national news place rest us support group riding around tall bikes stuff n't bat eye n't blink normal friends n't even absurd thing 's done lately happy normal sunday group friends unusual normal sunday us extreme everyone else laughter used introvert definitely extrovert last years thank los angeles um clears throat found right group friends easy social drew social extroverted even outgoing bombastic first time stuck um n't already relaxed guy already would probably things 'm really stressed sorts stuff um usually try enlist friends help art project uh temper laughter uh scrubbed_entry um laughter panicked 'cause really wanted make hate mostly failed uh hard mostly uh mostly got couple scrapes ego uh went tried talk got distracted first time day instead sigh verbal gloves managed take whole bunch words side head fall trash graceful moment uh feel guilty lots stuff um feel guilty eating often anything else 'cause really love junk food 's really good little food willpower 'cause used fat guy 'm sure hardest decision ever make uh made lot hard decisions guess sigh pretty hard leave los angeles ex best friend whole bunch nasty stuff n't even hard 'cause pushed 's tricky question madam uh oh know broken collarbone severe pain get surgery seemed like made sense time laughter mm memories important lived spoiled blessed life changed anything would n't universe like universe laughter uh little brother lives 's awesome 's actually right outside waiting uh mom crazy dad crazy everyone else crazy 'm pretty crazy uh since rest live far away n't really deal much relationship positive sparce uh jackrabbit 's pretty positive influence lately magical creature uh well 's part 's intensely physically beautiful 's part manages hit best inspiration words 's part actually works exact things make excited 's part pops life exact right instance 's part hundred percent kind caring time things really nice add compound fact without wanting anything return n't know 's sigh smitten laughter uh laughter funny question know though 's multiple people know uh know bicycle friends sigh uh hard part going bed soon get sleepland 'm pretty much earthquake uh hits get sleep poorly 'm pro n't matter deep breath less verbose 's dark circles get slightly larger 'm pretty much exact dude 've life uh stoked might well fire um mm universe infinite uh suppose word sardonic sense humor uh managed convince reality magic arthur c clark sense uh fortunate cough vaguely aware eh 's privilege get enjoy time like uh yeah uh excitement increasing almost exponential rate 'm feeling inspired time could work motivation 'd set mm since asked form little ago uh used think knows point awhile ago uh unhappy life long time moved los angeles started fun mm 's uh yeah rest ancient history um twenty thirteen laughter uh sigh working shoes morning really nice doodling uh art project friends helped put 's really nice 's nice feeling laughter sigh 's good question 'm actually sure 'll ask later today though um guess 'm enthusiastic thesauric sigh 'm gon na say highly analytical laughter uh 'd nice could get super powers back 'd pretty cool uh like turning fancier finely tuned delicate machinery chinese medicine clued inside laughter uh 's really tough one think thing 'm proud would probably sigh know 'm actually sure laughter oh sorts stuff 'm working clears throat deep breath n't masturbate much laughter uh jackrabbit really bad puns uh dessert laughter problem bye ellie,3.0,no,18,0
393,yes 'm good 'm originally los angeles california um like weather like uh numerous things uh women stuff like traffic traffic ridiculous like 's control like way people drive uh business economics uh wanted business owner like wanted work 's reason yes currently tisk uh c_e_o company uh n't hard 's gon na challenging challen 's 's challenging n't get wrong mean sometimes varies shy times 'm 'm mostly outgoing sure mean comes certain things like let 's say go club party see girl wan na talk 'll go talk comes around lot people like sometimes get little shy uh reserved uh work hang friends 's 'm pretty good n't really let things get actually 's n't argued anybody mean like minor little little argument something uh weeks ago n't something serious 's uh things clarify uh someone uh girl asked questions stuff uh basically trying uh get back ex like n't make sense um lip smacking would say relationship brother wish would n't uh fought lot wish could 've worked without fighting relationship family pretty cool like mom get along mom sniff get along sister 's pretty 's pretty uh cool 'm pretty 'm close family um would say uh friends 've met recently met uh people church scrubbed_entry 's like mentor um n't know n't think anything like memory would wan na erase um would say uh would uh whether uh sigh let 's see um sigh far like career path would say uh career 'm gon na gon na stuff like mean high school went pretty went okay could 've done better um basically ended uh really living li uh living potential n't know mean really n't know 's pretty easy 's problem laughter could knock go home night time tired uh mainly uh tired would say 've okay 've fine lately would say would um got uh car right nice car right 's pretty fast would say um would describe somebody 's quitter somebody perseveres go whatever want like whatever wh whatever want life go n't hesitate um would say currently weight like 've put pounds 'm working losing pounds maybe little school probably uh pretty much uh got bullied 's pretty much happened um 'm intelligent 'm hard worker um 'm good person um would say uh like uh get togethers uh friends um hang talk stuff 's going lives stuff like,2.0,no,25,0
386,yes oh um fine little tired uh found thyroid think acting laughter born canada 've lived california life 's grey today grey weather makes kinda um know sluggish laughter oh gosh years years ago uh n't think 've gone back laughter long time well airfares gone quite bit last years gas prices gone travel much 's fun thing 's cost prohibitive uh huh oh let 's see everything plus minuses um cold weather laughter much sun think 'd prefer getting sun warm weather 's um 's pretty back natural scenery uh like know traffic 's kind heavy 's small thing deal mhm move l_a family came started uh dad got job became home base uh 's easy easy uh huh uh well high school generally study general ed yeah 's designated courses went college business major let 's see veterinary major laughter uh graduated degree liberal arts um n't know ca n't really pinpoint laughter working social services 've also worked sales recently 'm real estate 'm leasing consultant part time mean everything plus minuses 's 's okay 's n't really see many negatives oh probably work uh gossip columnist t_m_z one networks laughter know everything entertainment business competitive 's know would dream job probably working uh cats know animals 'm outgoing fact think 'm outgoing scare people sometimes 's lot quiet know reserved people 'm kinda east coast know go people talk social laughter laughter laughter oh gosh 's could hundreds things could read could watch show turn music music great um take walk uh call friends million things laughter 'm pretty good 'm good mean know course 're driving l_a somebody cuts front sometimes irritating 'm 'm actually pretty 'm type person fight get n't like confrontations mhm mm ca n't really remember said 's many arguments usually avoid arguments cost sigh n't really feel guilty anything laughter right think mm ca n't think anything right really ca n't think decisions really hard mean 's pretty easy make make decision n't family know move san san francisco job since 'm single 's n't really consider people children type thing kinda makes certain things easier n't family consider mm yeah event hmm well obviously n't know passing family member know wish everybody could around forever know father died know mean wish would 've lot longer mean died age seventy seven know would 've nice around little bit know ca n't control things life 's way dealing mhm yes laughter yin yang 's ancient uh philosophy really applies 's pluses minuses negatives positives well said dad 's longer mother know differences think mothers daughters always um brother get along great see lot see sister works lot see know talk 's kinda got life children get along great mhm small family uh laughter 's like 's hard question answer 's many types kids think majority seem pretty well-behaved mean know 's always gon na children kinda control um n't know ones 've seen recently 're well-behaved ca n't say much else well laughter live apartment laughter n't know 've ever lived apartment um uh 's someone lives 'm first floor 's somebody second floor 're pretty quiet habit laughter guess lots energy um usually take showers around midnight sometimes 'll start washing laundry midnight course pipes run bedroom wall laughter laughter sounds like niagara falls uh n't yeah need eight hours sleep 've getting ooh 'd say like maybe six hours usually wake night 'cause sometimes 'll kind around two three morning 'll either walk around 'll hear something 'm getting straight eight hours sleep 's definitely laughter 's like said 's things ca n't control live apartment know mean lady 's uh quiet 's habit know taking later showers laughter washing clothes night 's ca n't say anything yeah know 's people worse situations n't make lot know 's like every night 's know least twice week know consider maybe sleeping laughter another room know 's 'll deal tired laughter tired hard focus hard concentrate takes longer get things done 'cause n't energy also n't exercising normally try walk half hour day weather 's kinda colder kinda drearier know 'm motivated weather 's kinda blah 's combination getting exercise getting eight hours sleep mhm uh said um tired laughter 'm 's combination weather know los angeles right 're grey days live close ocean sun n't come much 'm getting serotonin laughter need um 'm getting eight hours sleep know whatever think thyroid acting 's kind creating know vitamin deficiencies know sun comes 'm kinda energetic gives energy mm mm 'm happy time 'm pretty happy person like around people mean course like private time like around people quite bit hmm laughter ca n't think anything right mean usually enjoy everything 's nothing stands anything else never regret anything uh huh advice would given well guess yeah could probably change things around think everybody could um probably would 've different college major um know seems like laughter uh else um probably would n't dated certain men laughterum wasted time certain people um n't know things come mind maybe started saving money earlier know types things mm outgoing lots fun um uh good friend people like friend 'm loyal trusting uh listen 'm good listener 'm patient laughter well mhm well laughter number one would lose weight think 's worldwide problem mean 's lot food around temptations um especially america lot us couch potatoes sit front computers know 's easy relax rel 's easy relax know 's hard get move around talk 's weight know gives energy lose weight 's big thing well 's probably thing weight thing yeah mhm think might 've asked question laughter uh want 'll repeat um 'm uh like said 'm loyal uh tell people 'm gon na something reliable uh 'm warm 'm friendly 'm um great listener know 've heard many people tell like like said 'm 'm pretty upbeat know 'm n't n't let things get much hmm 's hard question laughter ca n't think mean 'm ca n't think answer one laughter laughter fun well love movies could see every movie make um love going friends shopping swapmeets um gosh traveling great road trips um 's kind know part yeah mentioned traveling getting see different places history aspect um foods enjoying foods diffferent countries uh architecture 's kinda neat get away see completely different place mhm okay well laughter 've um lot places europe love paris uh 's walking city whoever designed city 'll tell ya mean 's get one point another subways great um area distinctive kind 's latin quarter students 's another area let 's say fashion designers um kinda like rodeo drive beverly hills 's area african af african swapmeets weekends wonderful international like said get paris 's much history go see versailles 's palaces go south france know 's 's probably favorite country 've italy well uh yeah well college people usually mean people go college either college 's great time go europe 're young 're tied n't family um kinda adventuresome spirit got energy carrying know backpack suitcases laughter big deal um yeah 's mhm yeah laughter mhm thank goodbye,11.0,no,24,1
379,sniffle sniffle yes 'm feeling okay little bit tired part feeling pretty good 'm actually originally woodland hills san fernando valley born moved lomita los angeles county mm probably around nineteen ninety three mean 'm twenty three 's yeah nineteen years 've living yeah clears throat things really like would say know beach um know much traffic n't really care um definitely know kinda like nightlife um know people general like conversing others yeah clears throat right yep yeah actually mean ca n't see shoes um yeah actually travel lot 've places like hawaii caribbean 've uh let 's see makes sound mouth um know different places like arizona 've oregon washington pretty much would say usually mainly like um hawaii caribbean mexico well yep clears throat um think 's experience know like ca n't kinda experience culture um different people know whole background scenery 's know 's 's something new experience would say something know people n't seen clears throat well let 's see recently took trip hawaii couple months ago back december around christmas time new years pretty fun went couple different islands went uh let 's see think kauai went oahu uh maui know places like clears throat yep um know would say um know probably like hawaii like caribbean know like said whole experience factor seeing um know new different things things unique clears throat yeah actually study journalism right 'm final semester 'm bout graduate couple months clears throat yep well know 's kinda funny 'cause know started uh know two year community college know going uh like business management something know think thin basically um accounting know kinda figured n't decided go journalism 'cause could n't mean know 'd probably still sitting desk know least journalism go field know talk people know kinda know receive information gather information sorta deal know write stories thought know lot interesting opposed know kinda crunching numbers day yep laughter dream job would say um know something maybe radio broadcasting sports broadcasting um know think would really interesting something 's definitely passion mine clears throat relationship family 's 's pretty good know live parents still like said 'm twenty three years old um know 's certain times little bit shaky little bit rocky part 's 's pretty good know 've 've matured lot last years things uh know getting back speed would say things things going pretty well clears throat know think stems somewhere kind middle know sometimes outgoing talkative people 'm relaxed laid-back times kinda 's much like go shell know times like kinda shy n't know people well n't 've never met 's one things kinda ki yeah kinda got ta meet middle know either talk talkative times know little bit shy know get conversation going 'm 'm fairly talkative clears throat laughter um know usually um would listen music know maybe know kinda go drive uh know hang friends know something kinda know ease ease know 'cause know like said sometimes get little bit know tense wan na relax know things enjoy clears throat know 've actually better um couple years back know points like pretty much could n't control temper like whatsoever like li mean would pretty much get angry know littlest things everything would kinda tick know 've 've definitely learned uh know control sorta thing know 's made better person clears throat well let 's see 'm trying think 's probably something family mother maybe 's ca n't remember top head know 's 's always something miniscule 's probably n't remember know eventually make apologize know accept know 'm wrong certain cer know certain circumstances clears throat yeah something feel guilty um probably know nice others could 've past know mean past know n't like dwell sorta thing think 's one thing 've tried work 's also one thing kinda regret nice clears throat hardest decision ever make uh pretty recent kinda tough uh actually buddy air force recently got diagnosed uh paranoid schizophrenia really tough 's hard talk know 's 's really anymore like used 's one things feel like 'm kind ignoring n't wan na time n't know tendencies could little know crazy probably like know sort like traumatic stress disorder maybe military n't know yeah clears throat yeah 's pretty tough know 'cause go way back best friends sigh since probably five six years old 's yeah 's really hard deal know try n't n't know try keep back mind know 's 's always n't n't ever forget yeah clears throat best friend laughter well 'd probably say know 'm 'm pretty pretty earth guy usually pretty honest sometimes brutally honest know try work um 'd probably say 'm pretty funny um like hang know kinda things know normal activities like person know go beach hang watch movies know grab beers sorta deal yeah clears throat know varies sometimes 's easier others know 'm really tired know 'll probably good sleep n't sleeping great last days 'cause know house uh 's workers roof 're 're putting new roofing 's kinda tough always wakes early morning sometimes little bit crabby part usually get pretty good sleep clears throat lately eh feeling pretty good know know things starting look actually got internship bout month ago um know field journalism 's good graduate two months 'm looking forward um starting make little bit money 's know 's good uh yeah things going pretty well right ca n't complain clears throat yeah 's 's bad know like said could always worse right know 'm 'm enjoying life 's 's best part clears throat nope last time felt really happy sigh man laughter know probably going back buddy know still still sanity guess could say um know came back visit air force leave know hanging um know kicking back beers talking life nice miss know clears throat felt great know 's nothing like best friend conversation know twenty four seven anything tell anything confidence could tell anything confidence like 's hard find know especially someone 've known many years ca n't really get back yeah clears throat yeah 's 's probably one two things regret um well mean regret reg got d_u_i three four years ago actually four years ago 's something definitely regret know look back know things might 've different time accept know actions know circumstances took place know manned know guess think 'm better time know 's 's always gon na back mind like said 's one things deal way clears throat laughter well know 's one things like laughter child really n't know say mean even would 've listened knows know probably would 've told know careful know make sure best person possibly um basically know always nice honest um caring toward others clears throat um probably going back uh buddy whole uh paranoid schizophrenic thing n't say wish could erase wish n't happen like clears throat yeah ideal weekend uh usually keep pretty pretty generic tend hang friends um either know hang day know certain things like know maybe grab beers um know casual conversation maybe play games watch movies know standard stuff people clears throat things wish could change um probably know nicer like said um maybe lazy determination mean quite bit determination know wan na life know times kinda get little lackadaisical wish could improve upon procrastinate much clears throat um well know 's 's tough think back would probably say time someone made feel really bad know would say probably like know kinda getting angry certain people maybe kinda chewing friends probably n't trying give constructive criticism time knew probably place say kinds things character clears throat best qualities would say 'm definitely hardworking 'm determined 'm caring used honest know love talk people like like making new relationships like making people laugh clears throat clears throat something recently really enjoyed um know probably sigh internship know wrote story two felt good know get stories done eventually 're gon na go paper feel accomplished know 's one things work something see product right know 's right face tell know like makes feel good yep clears throat um know let 's see eh different stories eh usually things well paper 's long beach 's usually know stories events taking place long beach yeah clears throat would say 'm proud know graduating high school graduate college hopefully know obviously 'm gon na earn degree hopefully get know good solid job know near future think 's one thing 'm proud clears throat thank,2.0,no,34,0
433,yes 'm good born lynwood like sightseeing clothing stores well things graffiti um basically wrongdoing criminal activity bad stuff 've traveled past um n't really go state basically budget money money budget expenses n't limit go another state studied automotive technology welding passion cars since little uh always basically wanted work cars pretty yeah really love working cars dream job would probably probably automotive shop barber shop basically probably master welder consider little outgoing like fun uh fun friends able anything please basically smoke free time sometimes lay watch movie listen music basically hip hop music maybe good comedy movie uh fairly easy n't really let go get let bad side get emotions probably earlier today girlfriend wife basically gon na go eat felt desperate answer tell wanted go eat since would n't make mind kinda made uneasy probably relax stay calm outburst raise voice wrongdoings past basically anything could 've changed mm better basically uh something better job maybe uh job greatest hardest decision would uh plan family probably uh basically making sure situations 're supposed talking partner 're really ready begin family clears throat basically love bond wife um basically might like crash accident uh basically pretty horrific scary experience uh almost crashed freeway barrier car spun basically almost ended little hill pretty scary experience far uh car able control vehicle hoping gon na okay 's fairly easy except exc long 've good dinner early day fairly would go sleep pretty good restless little stressed constant things would mind lack energy maybe xxx pretty relaxed calm really old day day try stay happy relaxed calm try stay positive energy diagnosed diagnosed depression um earlier today food um 's pretty close bonded good talk lot necessary stuff try help times uh father sister mother well father 's long mother 've helped much possible school clothing hmm uh takes sister 's basically graduated college 's like mentor kind look far graduating school everything try keep going mm 're pretty fun 're outbursting minds basically smarter kinda seem advanced thinking compared kids probably thinking back old age learn things little quicker uh majorly things could 've thought could 've done better little differently uh like building car differently um getting traffic violations basically uh kinda wish wouldn'ta sped intersections gotten tickets 've received record yeah would 've basically realize first time try mistake n't happen uh persona kind far uh whenever 'm angry find way easygoing maybe try much negative thinker times things get little harder clears throat uh basically somebody accuses wrongdoing probably n't done um basically police officer tells 've done wrong clearly know done anything wrong probably earlier year basically police officer pulled thinking drunk driver made feel really really dumb tried accuse wrongdoing 've drinking smoking cause tired night twelve a_m therefore trying looked probably little sleepy uh fun cool easygoing good attitude um loyal l xxx loyal um drifting drifting two forty s_x um spending quality time wife kids um basically everything 've done graduated high school thank bye,10.0,no,36,1
426,yes 'm alright south l_a um weather women opportunities 's racism police brutality injustice 's mm much exploring type person um psychology mhm um one classes excelled decided change business psychology yeah yes record label um 's moderately hard know take one day time guess know stay focused little bit um tend shy um situations 'm comfortable 'm new 'm outgoing places 'm comfortable yeah laughter um turn lights low listen soft music mhm 'm getting better years um think 'm pretty decent compared used yes ma'am um due lack guess could say controlling emotions uh gotten incarcerated sent prison yeah mm 'm sure uh n't really recollection hardest decision 've made life um probably days ago girl talking arguing lack communication attentiveness yeah uh frustrated um know uh put certain amount effort expect know effort person 're relationship time expectations sometimes kinda set failure know guess 'm learning 's lot situations would 've handled differently um probably recent uh gotten physical phy physical altercation inmate incarcerated made 's sent prison lot time um handled differently probably would 've never went prison probably would 've home lot sooner originally happen yeah mm several events wish could erase memory um probably uh first girlfriend um something really uh extreme n't necessary eyes cost co could 've cost life think 's recurring thought wish could completely erase memory along good memories well um fights uh guess could say shoot outs um getting jumped getting robbed know things think inhibit guess explore certain areas life 'm comfortable feww things 'd nice could erase completely yeah sigh hurting people n't need hurt emotionally especially um women life past um probably putting mother certain things n't go along close friends family well um used rocky growing got older matured certain experiences 've kind brought closer family 's 's pretty decent 's 's pretty decent mm would say mother um yeah mother um well uh share experiences negative positive um admire struggles 's um uh experienced difficult economic hardships growing n't stop um raising son young age finishing school getting master 's overall good person also battled mental health issues well um probably best family could 've raised 's kinda like inspiration people well would say mother mm 's easy yeah 's easy could n't tell 've always sleeping issues um usually take uh like counter sleep medication nyquil makes drowsy next morning 's like 's negative effect really yeah medication medi n't know shit n't know stopped taking 'cause n't like feeling drowsy good um yeah mean recently got released prison long ago uh 'm older lot responsibilities feel like life 's supposed feel like could 've made lot better decisions life know sometimes feeling sorry things 've whole nine yards yeah 's good yeah true yes sniffle two half three years ago deep breath sigh um tired n't know guess school kind made seek help started understand brain works um know decided seek help maybe better life yeah could say yes yes yes actually mm better decision making um better tools reflect choices um control uh certain situations better yeah um sniffle well instead always reacting emotion matter kind emotion step back assess situation know see 's 's best way react towards situation made mature emotionally mature positive outcome laughter um lying next beautiful woman cared feeling mutual probably happy oh goodness spontaneous um outgoing sometimes little crazy um fun 's nothing um like said earlier know hurting women life past friends family 's oh shit uh school really important um carry people surround choose free time things would tell good music um good game basketball um sex um like going like going parties um social gatherings everyone 's friendly 's drama 's like dancing beautiful women couple drinks 's um guess necessarily giving um n't know keep going giving really yeah mhm bye bye,20.0,yes,70,1
364,feel pretty good 'm wide awake good breakfast nice cup coffee uh easy day today gon na chat 'm going gym run errands plan nice day today born raised los angeles 'm one locals around uh went school away uh 'm one natives actually los angeles yes like weather owned vacation house another state found hot humid florida love weather um like culture like diversity like familiarity like beaches uh also like hour half away one go desert say palm springs palm desert also another hour half two hours away go arrowhead big bear go snowboarding skiing things like uh think 's great place live thank well maybe things n't like l_a say california general say like high tax rate state tax rate thirteen point something gon na chase business also regulations 'm small business owner regulations clearly affecting business many peers moved businesses texas arizona nevada etcetera western states less regulated uh 's big problem uh uh california really people n't understand 's uh also uh know besides high taxes know 's big immigration problem born raised people n't see 's big tax social service system 's makes taxes uh high really secure borders get taken care 's know people n't seem want really deal uh deal clearly affects businesses things 's taxes high people moving state enjoy traveling 've sixty six countries uh n't travel much used 've traveled quite bit 've learned couple languages uh served 'm sorry uh n't really understand uh question said like n't think understood said 'll go back 've europe eastern europe asia south america north africa um enjoy enjoy warm climates especially go relax 's warm water surf 'cause cold water kind makes back stiffen also like exercise surf yoga work uh try eat healthy uh 's big part life oh sure um one favorite trips time used younger see many countries could relatively short period time say three four week span ten years ago actually went paris stayed week really got know city even though 'd ten times got know city really well great really lived like local rented small flat cooked shopping really many times really never stayed three four days fun stay know almost month uh really get learn city fun even though grew l_a grew taking french n't big spanish speaking population younger mother insisted us kids take french even though spanish would 've lot valuable took french uh uh elementary junior high uh high school nice practice french even though n't remember whole lot even though stopped speaking french french know accent greatest couple sentences start talking english laughter uh different degrees uh naval science major undergraduate uh fun also masters uh degree economics degree crisis management uh found um interesting uh something wanted went college went naval academy went play sports found real interesting southern california going school maryland originally wanted doctor start going school little bit change mind etcetera um 'm actually wholesale business wholesale distributors furniture products family business went work number years ago well know grandfather recently father passed away sort run eighty year old family business 's pretty interesting like grown around 's different jobs 've past hm actually probably dream job think cooking staying home fun 've changed much enjoy cooking staying home uh uh would probably like stay home raise kids one daughter uh know n't get spend much time younger would 've liked think would better say lot women know want work actually like cooking hanging around house taking care kids know like 'm always part time basis pretty much worked life seems like boy would fun stay home uh pretty much worked life probably never happen sounds something would fun uh think 'm um generally reserved shy strangers get know someone feel comfortable think 'm extrovert whereas strangers might think 'm introverted think 'm feel comfortable certain people n't know meet stranger totally confident people might 've known years either personal business situation um introverted mean go dynamics think outward manifestation little shy general reserved reser use like use term reserved oh wow 's great idea used uh one uh several computers home used one screensavers uh well usually tend need relax stressful day stressful personal events going long walk going long walk going long walk usually find exercise whether yoga going long walk going gym going run going beach know maybe going surfing weather 's warm n't surf cold weather anymore makes gives like brain freeze even though 've surfed know thirty years uh usually find exercise helps relax best sometimes vegging couch front t_v find relaxing laughter like screensaver used one uh screensavers home yes uh 's one things took number years master though relaxation skills probably n't best twenties years think 've gotten better uh think 's key thing think mature learn wish 'd learned little skills earlier like think 'm pretty good think 'm lot better well 've aged um know likely think speak whereas say twenty years ago likely act fought might 've said things whatever tense situation whether personal work situation um 've never violent temper would temper fly handle instead taking deep breath reflecting think 'm lot better say teens twenties think lot comes think keyword maturity oh wow know n't really argument anybody several years would consider traditional argument um probably um ex wife number years ago wehad argument basically daughter n't anything violent heated basically one reasons n't n't married values different ideas parenting uh uh outlook life different think caused us butt heads n't know 'd call argument uh one let 's agree disagree butt heads felt like talking wall actually felt mad 've learned earlier life boy get married someone children 's kind discussions people usually 're really thinking sometimes 're younger 're looking boy look great paper looked great paper know 'm pretty easy going different ideas raising children wrong right right wrong raised different views never really discussed things really fundamental reasons butted heads n't really good match whereas things looked good know paper us hm 's one recently father passed away uh recently thank really religion know plan funeral quickly know typically within couple days really invited close friends family members less charge dad remarried widow sort really took care wish invited kept private really told people fact knew would 've liked come tp service known really invited time pressure really handful people time 's passed wish 'd invited friends instead two three close friends know ten twenty acquaintances people knew business years really even distant family members really told fact really n't invite time pressure could 've easily done via email 's hard call everybody personally wish 's something 'cause people expressed little upset family members threw back oh n't tell 'til fact know passed threw less wish differently best could time 'm really mad something probably 've prepared also something something coming inevitable um well parents recently uh deceased last couple years brother three younger brothers one passed away december 're super close like always like look families never like norman rockwell uh painting guess 're also uh different uh close relationship friends distant relationship family 's strange wish like boy one families got together every sunday dinner never 're uh uh different yeah 's yeah 's know strangers people say know howdy family everybody 's great know think every family sort stuff um thought probably could 've events life n't sure 've therapy past know uh military never really sure 's exactly think function pretty well n't sure therapy counseling years n't enlist officer went one service academies um seventeen started high school went service academy 's prestige n't enlisting 's hard went 's hardest school america get age everybody else went uh nineteen eighty three um basically n't anything intense around n't allowed carry ammunition position shelled time poison gas sprayed us n't n't anything uh intense lot know service training way intense actual combat situation 's train well 's like practice harder play 're athlete play football practice harder actually play game uh know 're combat unit well made patriotic grown california whereas people country got meet whereas say friends grew affluent los angeles like never really went met lot americans people different backgrounds ended becoming uh patriotic deeper sense pride country whereas really n't grow southern california whereas someone texas kentucky tennessee georgia north dakota south dakota montana grows kind uh pride thought good unlike many friends n't know 's life malibu manhattan uh went graduate still reserves went graduate school got two graduate degrees went work private enterprise uh n't care joined fire department fire fighter paramedic number years got divorced harder custody situation daughter went work family business 's pretty much career nutshell um first bearing butt way walked talked officer uh regimented way dressed private time harder took awhile able come back los angeles uh uh different think handled better stronger personality great experience um depends exercise regularly n't eat late things going well life generally sleep pretty well even though might get go bathroom night um generally sleep uh generally sleep pretty well feel pretty good lately know 've like anybody else periods blue life boy last months feel great pretty much really seem think seem little happier content lately um 've thought maybe past family history know n't anything real debilitating n't able really function concerned sought counseling really past went mean wish went say uh marriage course uh life think 's useful however past one grew hearing ridiculous waste money etcetera think 's useful tool 're open oh questions wanted honest opinion outside friends strangers professional know life relationships sometimes 's good talking things professional even though would n't see someone like real life prefer someone 's older little life experience someone 's maybe younger yeah think 's useful tool really hundred eighty degree switch uh n't go 'm sorta taking break 'm issues wan na bounce someone go yeah think 's nice know really go someone 's good 've different people sort therapist shopped really n't tell think think great know 's always past help talk thoughts feelings let decide bring little clarity situation 's like talking someone lot life experience generally feel comfortable talking woman stuff say man 's um think 's useful tool got good ideas able 's nice balancing things totally someone 's unbiased day day life instead talking romantic partner close friend knows sometimes bouncing people strangers good uh morning know weird 'm clearly someone 'd say joke friends family associates clearly 'm easy day today 'cause knew 're nice weather bunch errands run clearly seasonal affective disorder woke happy today know 's gon na eighty degrees weather 's nice 'm generally lot happier weather 's [ laughter ] dark blue rainy cold always know term 'm well woke really happy today knew 's gon na nice day looked forward feeling sun uh friends 'm sort renaissance man know little bit lot subjects 'm smart good 'm know lot lot permeable things 'm pretty rational 'm resourceful people always call issues help talk 'm resourceful tell go whether 's buy new computer buy new car know 'm great medical diagnoses uh uh know people also say 'm lot fun 'm fun um also n't lot grey areas people either really like n't like things pretty much black white n't b_s know 'm opposite politician n't tell people want hear n't rude rude anybody pretty much call things see 's pretty much really 'cause everything tactfully like think uh probably probably spent time parents passed busy uh probably wish able spend time daughter younger uh lot 's typical really think things little bit little less impulsive pretended impulsive younger think 's 's would look things long term instead looking things short term know make decisions choices um 'm proud daughter 's nice young lady uh proud public service 've never done job really money military service fire service um people like background education like public service um 'm proud uh proud certificates hanging walls home degrees sort like trophies 'm proud 've able stay good physical shape years knock wood maintain good health nice meeting bye bye thank,0.0,no,17,0
371,yes 'm pretty good thank born san fernando valley california really laughter uh love beaches like uh 's many things uh ca n't beat weather uh traffic cost living uh n't uh 've country times actually one country mm well younger turned twenty one used uh go tijuana across border get nightclubs stuff like uh well love see new things new places uh uh new experiences uh high school went beauty school cosmetology mm well time uh looking career change uh friends industry uh decided take classes see see thought uh hobby mm well uh 's 's tough one answer 'd think would outgoing side uh 'm outgoing shy laughter uh lotta times smoke marijuana mm best uh argument mother uh handle things grandmother well differences uh times 's control uh pretty much let uh follow rules 's know 's daughter well 's okay understood talked know realized uh might 've uh overstepping bounds uh 's fairly good pretty close mom uh grandmother stepfather half-brother get along okay 're close 've never met real father um maybe accomplishing much life uh yeah maybe enough uh ambition drive better position life uh well one hardest decisions moved moved uh away los angeles wisconsin well younger getting trouble looking way went continued getting trouble deep breath friend sigh uh packed bags moved milwaukee yes uh extremely difficult guess uh got lotta things going going makes hard sleep um issues life uh sure sometimes mm guess depends right little well last minutes since started talking depressing stuff starting feel little n't mm seldom psh stop thinking 'em mm n't know could n't tell could n't answer right um guess felt uh eh 's awhile since 've really happy n't uh whole lot happy thoughts recently mm deep breath oh let 's see sigh go las vegas uh couple months ago good time well 'm honest person part reliable uh think 'm easy get along wow start plenty uh bad decisions could erase um yeah well d_u_i record uh well time suspended license makes extremely difficult diff makes life extremely difficult well yeah 's uh hard get around ca n't drive legally drive illegally 're risk going jail driving without license uh well original charge n't got caught driving since mm n't best friend mm well let 's come back one mm maybe could uh follow plans little ambitious maybe uh well decisions 've made life regrets sigh uh take care business first always handle responsibilities good go uh good weather good music good company good conversation mm sigh wow n't answer ya love uh bike ride go walks hikes uh love swim ocean mm mom well uh single mom two kids uh worked really hard raise us yeah yeah n't easy sure bye laughter,9.0,no,40,0
315,alright yes okay inglewood california yes uh 's okay um mean girlfriend daughter yes 're 're okay 's okay 's cool yes um well 'm football recruiter travel uh around world sign different football players sports management company uh um independence alone able free tied one one thing know 's great remember traveling uh scrubbed_entry take clubs 're type organization laughter yeah um dishonesty sigh n't like people dishonest um really really really bothers true honest real um upsets lot um tend try free situation clear mind usually take walk something like go room try clear head head um 'm okay times um uh defintely better oh um argued argu argued lady couple days ago um daughter things 's school wants raise one way think wan na raise kind different way discipline little certain situations think discipline disci discipline big key key life raised little differently um n't know angry upset know 're argument 's feel say things bother go um yeah uh little bit sigh um n't know sigh eh way feel n't know ca n't really say way feel um little little um n't know um realness um honesty truth straight front um 'm pretty close um 'm pretty close family oh whole nother subject 're raised different um think society society 's gon na become even wilder wi way kids raised discipline things 're everything live everything 's inflated much um 's getting point 's getting hand think kids days certain extent much wilder generations able say lack respect know education-wise 's think 's tough times kids way act uh 's 's 's ridiculous um definitely like watch sports uh like gamble like travel like skate um like kind like uh guy likes see different sights go different places uh like different difft 'm big movie person like going theatres stuff like um 'm actually living um always wanted kinda sports industry 's 'm uh goal get little higher ladder sports management company um 'm pretty well happy yeah um 's okay 'd say 's pretty easy irritated tired sigh n't know 's awhile 's awhile couple weeks ago huh say really um think would describe stand guy try um um good loyal friend adult think would describe like uh school went school grew together 've knowing friends pretty much life yeah uh close uh friends close uh um pretty much lot together still age uh 'm honest um 'm loyal loyal um hard worker think um certain extent 'm average guy 'm pretty much 'm different different breed carry act little different normal guy n't know raised uh dad kinda different uh n't go crowd think learned lot 's 's 's um kind path took um yes lot things regret um regret lot decisions life um yeah one um actually let lady life go years ago thought soulmate big argument one thing led another decided take break break started dating somebody else told i'ma go way go way think big bad decision bad decision yeah totally think could 've took step back really thought situation little instead uh sigh upset moving forward uh upset um tend get upset thoughts get clouded uh mm need think little 'm upset uh n't know experience time know making making mistakes um better different decisions made mistakes um sigh think little harder situations situatio uh situations things decisions dec decisions make uh think lot longer harder make 'em think outcome would little different today um grandmother 's always um positive influence uh 's great black woman um old school um ways living um think 've added life 's great woman scrubbed_entry baseball um yeah laughter um pretty good player pretty good athlete growing um one top scrubbed_entry uh started future athletics 's wanted accomplished goals time great great thing still great thing 's great accomplishment life um sigh accomplishments able 'm goal something 'm supposed week day accomplishment always puts good mood getting job done way 'm supposed timely fashion always puts good mood um positive role model right um younger kids 's um sports academy program think got older thought process um way look life totally changed think lot kids look deal say know 's somebody positive po positive influence life oh um couple days ago football team um 're playoffs made playoffs always makes happy thank thank bye bye,2.0,no,18,0
445,yes feel great los angeles california um weather opportunity ocean 's overcrowded overpriced somewhat dirty well 's nice see places world meet people cultures worked cruise ships musical entertainer traveled alaska aleutian islands korea japan caribbean islands um galena alaska small airplane traveling snow storm surviving like edge death life lived arts business n't know attracted arts young age business went along yes yes able entertain people make feel emotions make enough money comfortable life outgoing um always feel fee feel confident thoughts like people know say um listen music sit girlfriend calms 'm stressed could work 'm good last night girlfriend asking advice something speaking felt tone voice loud angry irritated told quiet n't really wan na help wanted relax laughter agree um sometimes things n't go way get depressed upset wish could calm realize count blessings look bright side everything matter bad things get always look bright side 's goal 's difficult 'm working seems getting little easier well taking care mother dying c_o_p_d turned lung cancer chose tell condition worsened would n't fearful sit knowing symptoms getting worse could n't tell truth let think everything okay uh mother sick dependent oxygen three years seeing health decline 's plagues dreams thoughts could erase never happened would feel better oh n't know try uh grateful 'm alive try focus objectives dwell negative things memory girlfriend 's good positive po positive influence wants better person since met 's trying make angry make feel negative nurturing positive zen-like man 's asking something 's gon na make improve therefore must capitulate 's easy sleep well sometimes wake nightmares mother something uh go back sleep 's unknown n't know happens 've feeling uh good eh reality 've hit lot financial uh problems 'm handling ha handling well actually 've looking girlfriend told need therefore forefront mind right today woke sunny beautiful day lot goals achieve 'm achieving one one one gives sense accomplishment happiness ideal weekend would playing music girlfriend 's something enjoy healthy hea going nice dinner healthy food maybe exercising feeling good body mind spirit uh probably strong-willed person big heart short fuse maybe complains life much wish could complain negative things happen learn roll punches always look bright side well one time good friend tell one recordings thought horrible felt best thing 'd ever done would n't understand anybody could could feel way n't know jealousy honest opinion opi evaluation therefore felt bad 's goal nothing regret felt hmm ten twenty years ago n't know um sigh well everything enjoy 's hard pick one exact event really enjoyed uh n't know put one things n't go way finances xxx come n't get jobs go qualified feel getting fair chance opportunity 's frustrating n't really feel guilty things sometimes maybe 'm angry n't feel guilty n't ever wan na short girlfriend ever would n't n't deserve somebody um using vulgar language shouting something n't wan na way around therefore guilty achievements abilities music abilities hard work paid uh 'm proud okay thank goodbye,1.0,no,27,0
434,yes 'm good today 'm originally chicago illinois moved three yes never go back family issues depends 're 're um fast life hollywood n't compare um 're cold weather would rather like sun 'll mom dad split laughter 's okay idea three moved like sunshine like weather like balance weather spring winter fall summer like beaches like hollywood like lakers laughter love um people 's different variety think l_a microcosm united states people world come united states people country world come l_a better opportunity 's like l_a oh gang violence laughter really 've traveled one time arizona one time stockton california another time barstow california n't much traveling right mainly finances studied alcohol drug counseling felt felt heart 's supposed life helping people overcome addictions um kinda easy choice got advice people went see finished school intership got hired believe 's 'm supposed life 'm working right actually moved away deep breath married move away moved away rent cheaper actually give job um order make move since came back 've filling applications sending resumes trying get interviews get back counseling well difficult times um felony uh ca n't work youth ca n't work elderly regular dopes certified 'm certified yet work certain amount hours order certified even allow take test work certain amount hours right 'm trying get um interns know try intern show people counselor everything seen resume um yeah want people certified um certified um experience fact felony makes hard laughter dream job open facility um author know depends de depends people mainly mainly adapt personality people 'm around people perky 'm gon na perky 're standoffish may seem shy 'm shy 'm giving 'em space allowing decide wan na open people open right away open right away laughter mainly listen music watch youtube write poetry um close eyes lay pretend like sing ca n't laughter 's another thing eat ice cream laughter controlling temper 'm good depends say last time lost temper felt like somebody um scaring mother lost temper ninety nine times hundred n't lose temper n't like raise voice like calm cool like everybody comfortable n't want anybody frightened anything 's reason anybody frightened us angry know taking past frustrations people nothing believe believe um angry outbursts link um heart problems high blood pressure definitely n't want well telling um mother 's husband tell truth um could 've handled differently seen look mama 's eyes fear lost snapped know told mother uh like um n't like uh need need take care 'm n't know long keep composure far 'cause 've seeing guy mistreat mother mistreat mother 's husband kept distance relationship saw fear eyes triggered part um n't like much know get angry usually stay angry long time 've left 've left went home rested got next morning went church um yeah big time explosion created created lot damage six nine months yeah six nine months ca n't get back yes well brother 's prison um n't seem twenty years 's twenty years sister moved chicago thirteen years ago n't seen since 'm close mother um son n't seen five years 'm still looking waiting day see 's gon na turn 've know small family family chicago n't mess around side family um seen heard n't want happen keep distance someone 's positive influence inf influence life would say scrubbed_entry taught get temper control express emotions without expressing emotions threatening someone else taught taught like monitor emotions monitor thoughts strong thoughts 're really strong 's need quiet intense fizzling subsides speak rationally emotionally um course um 's one encouraged enc told look drug alcohol counselor um got twenty seven years clean sober right used live skid row h way changed life around know way approached father something 'll never forget feel guilty grandfather um passed away two thousand four time getting prison um two thousand two getting prison came see told many words n't gon na around much longer n't get 'cause lot drugs alcohol life time life crowded things considered important plus fact n't understand saying died figured telling probably spend time 's time go could n't see feel think time something erase memory huh would day brother hit mom always replay mind 's like 's one memory go without replaying mind yeah day memory right felt conflicting feelings one hand one hand brother protecting getting beat hand hitting mom kinda middle uh nights n't go sleep maybe three morning 'm probably prob 'm likely seven morning n't get much sleep depends depends environment 'm um n't sleep well 'm going eventually 'm gon na irritable n't happen right away depends environment 's around difficult people 's gon na challenge um people easygoing one even know n't get much sleep feeling lately feeling like things start going better um making better decisions um taking advantage opportunities come taking advantage talents taking advantage meeting right people um open right doors 'm enthusiastic even n't happen 'll send million resumes n't care get five interviews 'm never stop know know counselor life mission um 'm also destined writer 's matter time book people um know 've lot time study human behavior things like lot offer humanity 's matter time um public exposed um 've gathering behavior 'm mellow um laugh humorous let lot things go used let tick anger things ca n't control like trying control people trying make sure people n't betray mm ca n't control think matured mentally psychologically eh um acquisition sense humor major major breakthrough know thoughts changed thoughts changing behavior changed still monitor um thoughts behavior still monitor overall 'm know um back tolerated um actually like um behoove beh behoove feel way n't last time felt happy last night 'cause lakers basketball game laughter yeah best friend would describe um calls truth always tell truth people try hide stuff always reveal ca n't hide um statement says see like clear glass nothing see stuff days months start happening know human behavior see sniff real well 's gift given calls truth um interact people people um come clean look know see like said like clear glass nothing yes 's calls truth laughter um wish would 've never well obviously wish would 've never went prison um wish could change well um economic status employment status um teeth 's like problem area lot stupid things years ago caught n't take care teeth need um confident know always comes every know thought like wonder looking teeth wonder 're looking teeth never get sign si never get impression back mind 's thoughts says looking teeth would really change would change physical um size think would like least thirty five pounds heavier 'm working twenty years ago would make eighteen would 've time big time um high school basketball player fremont high school colleges coming see would 've given opportunity stay away troublemakers n't blew opportunity play college basketball duke blue devils knows could 've playing lakers last night hey 'm proud fact know 'm proud mom really really um graduated school full-time job full-time job um would wake five morning go work get job three thirty go straight college leave college nine o'clock night five days week still strength maintain um dean 's list president 's list know say xxx older people ca n't things think dispels rumor um recently got um license evangelist church 'm real proud um life affecting people positive way yeah mom laughter okay thank goodbye,2.0,no,19,0
376,yes 'm okay 's still morning 'm east coast massachusetts yes um moved l_a child parents pretty much n't choice matter laughter um n't back last time back uh three years ago christmas um l_a 's hustle bustle 's lot people angry lot people n't care person l_a back east east coast thought pattern lot different know neighbors 're friendly neighbors anybody see street yeah um well since kid fairly young first rough getting trouble little bit school uh surpassed wa fine high shcool stuff even took college courses um well love beach love mountains like go hiking um like walking along beach live blocks away beach 's easy um interested uh 've mexico couple times younger went ensenada 'm 'm interested leaving united states especially 's going lately um overseas um laughter actually child psychology nursing program little bit problems home caused drop sniffle oh 's alright gah um n't one honest um admire people job love mean like football players love playing football get paid money great laughter um 'm pretty outgoing meet somebody first might little bit reserved meet somebody pass judgment um wan na continue communicating person 've decided like person whatever talk lot yes um like watching movies like used like reading lately concentration level n't great 's hard get good book um good times uh outburst every awhile eh depends angry get uh yesterday partner um actually honest n't remember 's sometimes people ugly attitude n't appreciate feel 'm disrespected whichever 'm gon na stand um times people may turned personality opinionated say 'm 's mind um purposely go hurt people 's feelings anything nature wo n't bullied wo n't made wo n't back feel like 'm challenged um uh last year mother died wish handled differently um upsets ups 's upsets 's okay um let see deep breath uh sigh think 'm gon na pass one 'll upset laughter sniffle terrible um sometime uh sometimes actually falling asleep may problem especially know 're done working everything day 're tired staying asleep whole different thing 's like ca n't uh get 'm 'm wide awake 'll go living room turn t_v watch t_v 'm lucky get three four hours sleep um maybe lot mind uh know thinking bills stressfulness work stuff 's probably big burst part uh 's 's difficult 's frustrating 'cause mind goes overtime mode eh affects everything concentration sleep eating everything 'm little grouchy especially morning 'm morning person laughter like nights n't like morning 's like leave alone get first cup coffee yeah 'm 'm okay um well 've 've depressed quite time 'm still difficulty diff difficulty uh 'cause mother died four months later uncle died two deaths last year 'm still reeling trying get back together 'm recently 've started pursuing like interests used n't done year happened um might get angry little easier sleep lot eat overeat um get tired easily 'cause 'm getting much sleep sometimes 's hard seems like 'm struggling get day yes uh psychiatrist prescribes medication regular basis oh diagnosed quite time ago um probably ten fifteen years ago 's something 've never gotten n't know whether 've always taken medicine um arguing everybody family friends stuff like feeling desperate hopeless attempted uh take life years ago caused hospitalized uh started treating started seeing therapist um well right 'm going therapist insurance 'll cover psychiatrist therapist working friend mine ha knows avenues go seek se seek help therapist n't know 's really gon na help mean sometime someti depends kinda therapist get sometimes people sit listen talk ramble 're thinking god good type type give kinda feedback deal emotions tools help deal emotions um like said n't going therapy recently psychiatrist medication um 's changes really probably would fine great mom passed away caregiver uh even though lot times feeled felt overwhelmed lacked l uh lacked patience uh still heck lot happier um uh sigh would say son born years ago 'm parent anymore passed away um difficult well uh hmm um 'm extremely organized extremely reliable work loves get everything done 'm supposed get done even though sometimes feel little scatterbrained um know qualities admirable people keep word responsible excuse oh lots regrets um uh things 've done past 'm happy um know met somebody life saying see bumper sticker uh live never regret know ca n't go back make changes 's late know dwell situation sometimes sometimes 's lot easier said done um 'm advice kinda get person laughter know n't really give friends kind advice mean find times people n't listen anyway bother um state opinion 's um well right 'm diet overeating mom died lot thinner alive went crazy food sleeping lot know sleep eat sleep eat 'm kinda like diet trying lose weight 'cause 's unhealthy um hmm trying think 's long time actually 's really nothing keep mind busy n't movie ages n't used go shopping time n't um 's uh 's quite time since 've content happy 'm life right um weekends saturday sa uh like saturday 'm usually working um sunday usually clean day know laundry clean house um run errands go shopping food know kinda thing 's younger know would fun know go clubbing whatever 'm old xxx um hmm really 's nothing think um 's nothing proud hmm um good like comedy whatever like watch um sometimes partner might something stupid like like make fun um mm 's know go g maybe go walk beach 's okay problem thank bye,12.0,yes,40,1
363,yes good los angeles yes um 's uh center everything eh get places need go uh eh without drive far um like city well l_a also 're dealing traffic lot congestion um obviously uh environment far uh air quality great know live um business administration major studied business um finished college um uh pursued career retail operations uh matter fact kinda changed career uh last four five years 'm concentrating human resources side business um couple factors um working numerous years retail business um switched worked uh creative business graphic design firm uh captured knowledge knowl lot knowledge um human resources side operations manager slash benefits manager small company yes 'm happy um picked lot knowledge uh 's helpful laughter well dream job um 'm basically kinda wan na uh independent contractor freelance work h_r consultant using knowledge uh gained previous jobs um utilize flexibility things wan na far personally time need things wan na um obviously worked hard early part career financial aspect uh retirement already set place need far um maintaining certain lifestyle also also enjoy 'm much stress used mm 'm well 'm totally outgoing um 'm 'm extremely shy 'm probably right middle maybe towards outgoing 'm totally outgoing mean 'm around people uh social situation guess could consider outgoing person um obviously little uh private issues keep oh sure know um uh couple years ago heart attack bypass operation yeah stress things like n't talk much around close um meet someone new n't openly say well know 've experienced basically um comes wo n't deny comes 's feel like 's something talk talk actually um relaxation um 'm currently um living mom mother uh 's senior citizen 's alone um uh relaxation relieve stress actually help help yard work take care gardening things like 's actually uh therapeutic know um 'm um 'm short-fused kinda person takes lot get really angry far um temper 's concerned 's 's much um 'm trying think sigh ca n't recall last time probably last year sometime um creditor dealing um difficult work um owed money far um medical expenses incurred heart attack years ago uh n't understanding situation uh really got little upset um felt like honest willing take care issues uh playing hardball n't care laughter probably hardest xxx decision ever make um life death situation stepfather battling uh prostate cancer yeah uh making decision mother whether proceed procedure gon na either um help slight chance gon na help even though pretty terminal point would would kill know um really tough really tough decision make uh uh know felt like n't try see could save life l help save life n't take chance take extra step would regret long run um well right um 'm separated wife uh issues issues divorced 're separated um still relationship still speak n't live together relationship mother 's really great know um 's understanding 'm child likes around good 's late 's later stage life 's eighty two years old needs uh guess 's good 's way maybe fate taken place know eh someone eighty two years old huge house good thing think feels fe 's comfort level feels especially child probably guilty feel anything things hurt marriage um far um things selfish things much younger um obviously affected relationship wife uh yeah um got caught situation um working tremendous amounts hours lotta stress wife also working lotta hours job uh growing apart um away form release go uh casinos gamble know spent lot time casinos eventually happened spent lot money obviously major issue regarding relationship trust um devastating wife felt uh whe came light um felt guilty felt less human point life really n't problems sleeping 's n't ever recall problem sleeping uh well deep breath thing could say um heart attack years ago um n't let find letting small details small things life bother much tend little bit easygoing friends family noticed last time felt really happy um probably visit cardiologist heart attack um basically said many tests many uh months uh rehabilitation happy explain scar tissue major scar tissue occurred heart heart heart attack um could count living pretty much normal life long watched diet took medications well guess number one thing uh physical like little bit healthier lose weight um general healthier physically far mentally um go back ways thinking wrong things instead right things selfish one day time know uh try peace try peace mind daily basis meditate read know read books watch t_v things know um help things help well 's lot regret obviously marriage uh uh working career far long career majors uh food chain basically gambling issues ended ruining good career um point right 's much ca n't change 's done n't focus much past look 's front focus 's front eh every day advice laughter wake see see 're know make changes need changed um know kno uh know 'm uh 'm someone 's intelligent intelligent enough know 's right wrong um scrubbed_entry 're 're wrong need change behavior immediately probably proud pro 'm proud overall fact um awful things deep n't think person 'm bad person remember um caught gambling compulsive behavior illness compulsive uh obsessive compulsive behavior made ill um sick person trying become healthy every day 's life 's recovery uh making sure uh right things time wake morning time go sleep night one day time 's hard think 's process need diligent behavior routines um know 's right know could okay people certain things things anymore um best friends uh describe probably easygoing generous um nice person around um know obviously little shocked found issues uh related gambling break-up break-up marriage know 's still yet know well ideal weekend starts usually um breakfast mother early morning like around six o'clock um go local park uh 's park probably laid walk hill hill 's three half miles take brisk walk morning um get blood flowing get heart rate going um know go home um work yard hours take shower relax uh kinda kick back rest day next day thing morning go walk work yard watch t_v whatever relax 's weekend goes thank bye,0.0,no,17,0
429,'m good yes 'm good iowa uh two thousand one mm holidays special family events uh 's much better scrubbed_entry uh got u_c_l_a went u_c_l_a three years screenwriting program mhm sniffle 's took long time difficult mm uh stress st getting used managing stress everyday living know mm variety 's lot variety vari 's lot variety like scoff obvious traffic laughter uh internationally uh sigh n't reason guess b_s math physics um sigh went school later life wanted actually know something um difficult difficult mm um fascinated n't wan na intimidated oh yeah oh yeah laughter um employed writer extremely difficult extremely difficult writing type fictional fiction writing 's extremely difficult worked th hard school 'd p_h_d math physics sigh 's hard outgoing depends circumstance 's 's catch-all depends moment relax swim mhm swam last time swam um last friday yeah mm last friday annoyed mm swear pretty good mm pretty good takes takes lot get express anger traffic actually laughter probably two weeks ago traffic sure um scrubbed_entry um waiting light l light guy pickup honking 'm like honk back n't like pulled along side idea problem um little li words yeah mean idea wrong waiting light guilty 's strong word sigh n't know feel guilty feel remorseful actions words said done past come oh past interpersonal inter know interpersonal reactions friends family know 'll hit one day 're necessarily thinking whatever reason blue hits 'm like oh 'd say 'd deep breath mm sigh situation xxx sigh uh woo drawing blank um question negative connotation something 's possibly negative recent past um sigh would done differently 've n't 'm pretty control emotions taking temperature moment responding knowing respond knowing respond um nothing really springs mind wish done differently recently past past yes recently oh swallowing pride putting tail legs saying wrong friends sure scrubbed_entry um scrubbed_entry contacted 're fast friends mhm sigh sigh know past past recent past um probably altercations 've uh mom know things 've said hurt know know hurt ones closest sticks time one situations know 'm think emotional i_q grown think past past emotional i_q stuck infant laughter good relationship mother sisters families um father never good relationship n't know possible 's still alive 's advanced alzheimer 's 's mad everybody right oh 's fine know slow someone oh um scrubbed_entry positive influence life um sisters talk sisters extremely easy sleep well night abo anywhere least eight ten hours night laughter yeah oh lethargic um sigh going motions laughter know um 's like 'll frame like david lynch necessarily mainstream 's done crazy stuff far movies t_v 's concerned said idea angst-driven artist b_s says wan na creative get good night 's sleep like mhm good um ca n't wait get start day oh um happens 's gradual 'm always thinking behavior thought processes productive life p eh mean n't think n't diagnosed diag n't xxx diagnosed psychological acronym laughter deep breath uh sigh weekend good good time friends great mm friends able talk know things uh fo conversation lasted two half hour three hours n't expect happen good like talking smart people informed people open-minded people great types discussions rare 's almost like running ru uh high get running exercising know endorphins thing um sigh either friends working stuff writing exercising heighth laughter wish taller um wish mm taller uh physical phys physicality um wish n't wear glasses mhm nothing internal mm 'm patient 've commended patience strangers um mm relationships friends family understand takes time energy maintain take time energy well 's really open general question course know goes back um talking recently talking past pa um always regret sigh things th regret little thing 's big thing productive efficient use time day 's little thing laughter know hate wasting time hate wasting money hate wasting energy deep breath sigh hm 's deep question sigh 'd say codependant ten twenty years ago 'd say get help get help 're co 're co mm k sure bye,1.0,no,21,0
312,yes fine yes weather weather mainly yeah main weather sorry people well people stuff like people okay 'm cutting much used um used school used travel lot places conferences things like 'm school right later 'll get back school 'll travel right doubt n't n't enjoy traveling uh 's good question 're actually pretty good um studied physics aerospace engineering physics mainly yes actually right teach community college physics astronomy uh still research physics also like type thing 'm going back grad school hopefully 's 'm nervous sometimes questionnaire impressive professor place like u_s_c u_c l_a like professors three hours work week grad students rest 're actually pretty good sigh 's lot people first one guess physics teacher a_p physics teacher high school even though led engineer instead physics major um still good influence told know 's first one taught school grade learning okay 'm pretty good think 'm single n't get many arguments um 's probably brother always like uh play video game together know 'm pretty old play video games 're actually pretty good um 's probably something like getting angry trying defend right 's fairly close um see pretty pretty often parents see couple times week 're getting older 've helping groceries things like brother see amount amo time sister tutor kids nephews uh see 'em week also interesting yes spend long periods time math reading talking anybody 's introverted guess play video games work work think lot try least roll eyes 've told bad thing um 's think deep breath bad parenting basically parents self-centered unlike previous generations kids want parents n't fo parents n't parents personal per personal opinion sigh um guess scrubbed_entry um scrubbed_entry scrubbed_entry thank n't really best friend introverted remember 'm biased obviously 'm really good math 'm really sure ca n't saying ca n't get better math thing 's get reach certain confidence matter need learn math always figure um patient think disciplined spend spend many hours many many many hours reading books might important might important anyway type thing good workout well video games small little things like um 's really happy research type thing mathematical physics type thing goes well must puts mood mo puts good mood thank right 's fact research make far research wise 's 's interesting um start school read einstein things like 's 's general xxx hero particle physics idea know 's complicated things like quantum mechanics still n't realized 're interested 're sure actually make eventually step lot time goes wish time goes get closer closer eventually make goal eventually realize good einstein research physics add mass knowledge science 's impressive n't see 're kid okay um weeks ago got good grade class thank yes briefly many years ago ag yes n't know always growing always thought always thought dream kid 's went um national guard think eighteen nineteen got commissioned twenty twenty one year left twenty twenty two yes really n't think think 's something grew something abo something grew already expecting n't change much graduate school physics nope depends workout really hard night bef day day workout pretty hard 's bad n't workout n't know eh 's hard guess moderately thank yes 's okay 'm probably like normal think happy everything still pretty okay still function maybe slightly sorry yes yes changes thoughts um applying grad school 's awhile slightly apprehensive happy 's looks good apprehensive might good things like mean case know computer hard deal thoughts hard go grad school understand okay agree really probably keep 're even though 'm old believe um twenty years ago probably fifteen yeah yeah fifteen um keep 're think lucky fortunate way worked worked little bit different n't think 'd worked well even though 's perfect think 'm really well personally thank goodbye,2.0,no,18,0
471,yes 'm well thank los l los angeles mm sports outdoor sports mainly surfing uh snowboarding mountain biking rock climbing traffic yes experiencing different cultures uh well uh love going mexico uh eh 's much diffferent california western culture speak know mexico western civilization uh uh level entertainment level education much different uh eh 're like two different worlds traveling mean uh would say going island coast figi name tavarua 's small island walk around thirty minutes thirty forty minutes uh 's place go go surfing incredible uh visually incredible uh experientially incredible place studied biology uh pushed behind father medical doctor uh wanted become medical doctor also 'm working areas business yes dream job would missionary yes father 's initial objective became m_d become missionary uh 's generous person think got uh hereditarily uh would like help people eh n't think doctor helping people really n't think 's uh disingenuous say 're helping people 're stuffing wads cash pocket would like uh building people homes uh helping find fresh water sources things like could afford travel remote places like exercise think 'm pretty good uh uh think 'm pretty effective probably two days ago girlfriend uh lack consideration um felt frustrated hmm situation wished could handle differently um eh later years would say eh n't many regrets younger years used uh snubbed people would keep mouth shut would n't say anything would express displeasure actions behavior would keep mouth closed internalize feelings 've learned wrong probably last fifteen twenty years made point vocalize displeasure someone 's actions right away uh takes care anger immediately yes depends mean trouble uh think eh way around take beginning benning beginning end uh diffuses trouble rather prolongs protracts trouble uh going back would pursue uh medicine like father wanted argued uh length many months years uh finally prevailed uh n't go n't go route uh probably uh uh difficult period life mm time wished could erase female interactions uh girlfriends uh betrayals uh realize keeping memories make today dealing defines today uh parents deceased good relationships parents uh 'm thankful um even though father somewhat uh hard-handed uh draconian laughter person uh came understanding well died uh brothers get along great younger brother older brother issues uh psychological issues th continue plague affect also knowing 's going uh turmoil uh well guess really n't cope um 's clinically depressed suicidal tendencies uh 's working 's highly educated uh well n't talk uh family abusive towards 's happy relationship family yes know would say father father hero 's uh model 's uh archetype man uh 's unimpeachably honest kind uh yet hand uh high expectations two brothers eh usually head hits pillow dead asleep like log lately 've uh last night could n't sleep woke two feeling 's diagnosis cancer received one month ago um xxx personal uh methods handling stress 'm okay 'm probably ninety percent okay ten percent comes uh eh unsuredness future whether survive really never never oh either surfing snowboarding rock climbing mountain biking uh always experience joy 'm exercising high level exertion funny jovial uh uh intelligent perfectionist hmm eh 's one 's asked much um maybe uh submerge uh hedonistic self look father fills consciousness ultimate um uh deferrer gratification put behind put future sights never let go 's made uh self-made man whereas looking always present um feel 's difficult uh slog mile full uh crap order get prize far away deep breath would ex-boss started using last day work fired started using uh lot profanity toward eh turned said talk way continued use profanity uh objected 's fired uh 's still mind occurred year half ago mhm anything regret uh yeah regret getting married kids sure suppose could uh eh think would 've robbed many opportunities took travel around world experience different cultures 's enjoy life exploring seeing different things talking different people expanding awareness united states end world eh get travel find highest uh level uh living whole world people think 're ones think disagree mm 's good one would say laughter would say enjoy life never know 's going end think 've done uh may coming end soon uh diagnosis cancer think 've done 'm 'm happy life thus far giving rock climbing lesson uh part time job instructing rock climbing many people never done uh thanked told great time may changed lives gratifying deep breath would say sigh devotion environment uh n't always environmentalist uh uh vocal cause uh uh um uh steward environment today 're lot peoples people polluting environment lot chemicals pollutants septic uh things like stand uh t_v uh youtube speaking people pollute environment 're welcome goodbye,0.0,no,21,0
464,mhm um 'm good mhm um l_a l los los angeles currently reside resreside inglewood wait answer question n't know okay l_a um murals ocean else people family 's 's best part oh wait yeah laughter um would say smog yeah air could cleaner yeah um 's pretty pre mean 's good people bad people yeah part 's good um yeah 've mexico uh mexico temples northern california yes traveling like cleaner air 's good 's healthier body cleaner bloodflow um people culture stories come back share stories like friends yeah um time like right okay like one time kid went temples um started raining start walking like get top one thing n't know higher go smaller steps get like people back uh smaller feet happened went higher towards temple walk sideways feet could measure steps get 's nice view yeah uh general education um mainly art yeah took lot lot art classes um well kid scribbled walls crayola figured know like kinda stuck around pursued yeah dream job would get paid painting painting art yeah um yeah pretty simple um 's much 's hard requires passion um persistence faith really believe believe likely able succeed mhm consider shy certain um time places also outgoing like energy feel like 's well balanced know like 'm shy 's guess okay shy know 'm outgoing like need actually um fun explore feels good like makes sense yeah laughter yeah uh relax um either well n't know say smoke weed laughter helps like painting painting pretty much helps relax know especially use color blue color blue um relaxes also green use two colors make painting calms calmcalms yeah blue shirt yeah temper um well thoughts thoughts control emotions emotions yeah 's pretty much temper try make sense know like worth getting mad get mad outcome know controlling temper training thought um sigh last time argued somebody father wanted eat food wanted buy wine right food ready hungry eat like kinda frustrated way handled like well could eat come back 'm favor know know could eat eat peace yeah family um 's pretty good um mom dad good relationship still sstill married brothers sisters um help one another 's good 's yeah 's like team situation wish could handle differently would hmm 's good question mean get scenerio okay um situation could handle differently well see 's thing like feel like 'm calm situation could figure know came like rubik 's cube maybe would handle situation would uh failing um failing making mistakes would make right mistakes right lessons would come 's best way could answer question know yeah positive influence pretty much anybody told truth positive influence influence know like yeah even though may hurt like oh truth hurt well 're trying mean 're actually good influences would say friends uh mom dad brother sisters yeah mm well see 's thing like like 've pretty bad experiences like gunpoint knife end day like give insight made aware taught read people little bit like sense things also avoid situations even though bad kinda like scar prepare like world know happened like twelve thirteen years old already exposed like know like guns knives stuff 's 's bad 's good long term know get slump 's like nothing else would really phase oh think know head like oh 've worse 's bad know yeah hardest um man one right uh see moment got stuck like trying think part uh hardest decision far like life changing life changing whether continue school college mm kinda chose like went school chose pursue like like 'm learning connecting people already field wan na hard choice um guarantee would like run like right people took chance know met right people yeah yeah yeah um 's actually really easy sometimes yeah like wanted could sleep right like ten minutes know could like shut mind like yeah calm like like slow air pattern yeah mhm lately 've feeling good 've feeling like free like point time feel like chose path path like heart could get know 'm kind like still deciding 's like everything paths air trying make n't know 's 'm feel like free yeah lately like past two weeks today laughter okay uh yeah know like um yeah things happen would change like feelings example right happened huh right like experience one kind like shift thought yeah 's like 's technology know 's like 's trip see far like one could take thought make reality 's kinda like shifting thoughts right experience whole experience yeah uh post traumatic stress disorder depression know 's like depressed diagnosed doctor uh depression feels depression feel like feels like 's like bird cage depression like ss fish ca n't swim water feeling depression like bird without wings um pretty much feels like 're limited thing get depression 's like awaken change perspective focus like would say colors colors help people talking people helps yeah um depressed mm let 's see mm n't know like could cou could come like could happen everyday like small doses doses like could say today know earlier felt little depressed happened fixed like called friend met yeah um mean moment feel pretty happy know 'm talking virtual person 's pretty cool yeah right feel happy laughter um sometimes hard headed like would try teach um certain lesson whether 's art like character yeah would probably describe like like like would listen time 'll still wants pretty much like n't know yeah mean 's tells yeah overall good person um probably exercise um diet food food intake yeah exercise pretty much health mm would say like middle school elementary little bit high school would yeah would would either um well pretty much art laughter like ever something thought good someone else would like oh know looks kinda like like trash 'd like oh damn either could accept like yeah kinda look fix would back would like damn know kinda dwell thought like stay bit eventually 'll come yeah usually 's um people 's words ideas yeah yeah 's regret um yeah got couple things regret like well sometimes feel like 've completed whole university thing mean time feel like really wanted go would gone yeah 's kind regret head ten twenty years ago would um seek spiritual well know learn um handle thoughts choose thoughts would teach um pick right r people surround definitely major influence environment uh certain events would experience far overall happiness yeah yeah among things yeah 'm proud right paintings yeah 'm proud like feel like paintings 'm releasing things one else could duplicate know 's like 's one kind like 's 's know 's signature yeah 'm 'm pretty happy yeah thank alright thank mhm alright bye laughter,0.0,no,30,0
415,yes 'm good michigan two years ago um every three months 's homey country fast-paced stuff uh work entertainment business pretty easy lived new york first survive new york survive l_a weather course beaches uh people much ruder mean 'm used like l_a uh graphic design media arts um high school ahead classes credits take college course high school got two year college degree 'cause good yeah yeah wan na go something else um 'm school actually take online classes business management laughter um really one day wan na sisters wan na uh rental properties like uh real estate company six houses bought college money wan na eventually one day homes apartment complexes yeah meeting new people seeing different things 've never seen um different languages everything seeing world offer oh okay um sisters went hawaii last year um believe went hawaii hawa honolulu hmm maui yeah met people hawaii nice could live would um everything memorable probably jet-skiing honolulu fun yeah outgoing laughter laughter music music much therapy um well family musically inclined like dad mom 's family music always like thing matter feel put music makes much better 'm pretty good used box let lot frustration sometimes go gym like kickboxing class n't never escalated point like blurt control pretty much well live sisters argue every day laughter clothes sisters clothes always clothes um mother father pastors church grew two sisters older brother cop 're pretty close nephew 're pretty close like every day see close n't live house 're together every single day point lived lived michigan family eh michigan um cheat like right 'm diet sisters last night snuck got mcdonalds feel bad 've sticking cheated 's pretty much laughter laughter um hmm mm friend mine got said things n't like hit belt usually n't n't spoken like three months know could 've prevented would 've sat talked n't make far yeah um probably moving moving l_a like 'm 'm really like close clo 're really close family like skype mom dad every day hard go taking care everything sisters much different oh goodness uh parents brother dad mom sisters family fam great family family definitely um wan na say two years ago three years ago brother shot duty almost lost life n't reason much try n't tell 'cause n't want like need know whatever always think 'll cry like happened yesterday happened three years mere fact almost losing kinda yeah easy work personal assistant administrative assistant casting agent 'm call whenever 'm never never get good night 's sleep ever know laughter um zombie laughter 'm pretty much would never know 'cause 's work 'm professional tired 'd never know 'm annoyed grouchy n't slept um sigh tired crazy headaches 's probably getting enough sleep working much yeah tired yeah definitely um 'm shorter people like industry mean people n't really care 's self first came personality attitude family love nice showed everybody 's kinda self even like girls work 've learned like cut people short people 's really see 's laughter um sigh last saturday weigh-in lost seven pounds like excited laughter last time um care much uh think others 'd probably say care much 'm loving 'm person every friend confide best friend regular friend yeah 'm mom friends um n't regret anything hmm never take answer um wish could well n't know personally wan na lose like twenty pounds uh n't know little adventurous little adventurous um sigh n't think 've time baby feel bad ca n't n't think one 'm sorry n't think laughter one oh um well sisters started yoga already beach like every friday yoga like new addiction yoga probably go like spa something 's ideal ide yeah um job career 've gotten pretty long way twenty three job hold 'm pretty pretty proud 're welcome bye,3.0,no,21,0
400,yeah 'm fine um pacific grove california um sigh wholesale opportunities uh stores anything could ever ask laughter uh traffic mood people unhealthy pace um uh let 's see like culinary really good art music high school uh uh desire want uh get involved music uh uh open uh health practice sort uh changing things life uh impact others benefit health uh opportunity um sigh buying things seeing culture relaxing thinking city ah well used go texas every every year uh dad summer always wanted stay live went vacation um likely one trips texas uh would go spend time desert shoot guns ride go karts stuff like laughter uh let 's see well um dad uh really talking much uh mom passed away two months ago thanks definitely shy 've always way uh sigh eh personality 've grown learning adjust sensitivity grow oh tea um know eating like eat mean calms uh eh good get really upset 's usually problem work calm sometimes n't get something n't stop sometimes 've learned control extent laughter yesterday arguing sort kind water drinking uh well difference opinion felt though opinion valid um even though uh party 's opinion somewhat misinformed um definitely uh every day growing process wish would 've handled everything differently every day um makes grow try work toward would 've wanted handle things every day little little um sigh ca n't think anyone right um sigh 'd 'd 'd say uh supporting friends much career choices sigh uh 'd rather get laughter deep breath um sigh raw food educators youtube sigh um raw vegan educators detox therapy therap therapy uh experts really inspirational past two months well uh believe um essence nutrition comes raw fruits vegetables true many studies like colin campbell china study um sources information uh good think deserve respect based know real research laughter really easy 've uh almost got science uh 'm tired feeling better long time uh yeah think 's uh due transition diet way placebo effect 's actually know loosening toxins things accumulated short life time um know toxic choices food drugs whatever would deep breath yes um less tense less irritable uh clarity control uh decisions wants versus need sort thing nope yes extent uh five years ago um sigh lack motivation basically symptoms paralleling depression uh loss appetite loss motivation wanting anything wanting social fear uh social situations uh xxx main four five uh believe overcomed chapter life doctor um know taking control health experimenting drugs sort took another route alternative started juicing um trying listen maybe needed help uh internet nutrition experts stuff like yes uh believe therapy useful um sigh without looking inward somebody help um 's hard readjust problems uh resonate subconscious know outburst basically um therapy um help overall health mental health believe everybody last night um made really great vegan uh dinner know meat tacos cheese guacamole couple friends really liked lot almost converted laughter yeah uh would say uh know trying listen inner conscious brain wants like brain likes caffeine sugar whereas know body needs uh something xxx example 's hard 's daily process um uh handling money uh business partner ended short blame actually formulas crunching numbers made short unaware change made formula blame may took money automatically felt bad uneasy uh uncertainty change formula um twenty years ago two years old ten years ago twelve years old would tell um start eating raw fruits vegetables every day calm um sad maybe smart talented laughter um really enjoyed going uh wholesale food market downtown los angeles um sigh lots food uh great prices eat feed whole family third price going normal supermarket uh really get lot enjoyment uh teaching people uh maybe better especially food-wise 're eating uh eating um watching really good t_v show um 'm insightful uh adjust people 's uh sigh uh sigh dunno guess 'll skip question 'm proud um sigh 'd say overall situation 'm right could 've never imagined 'd fortunate um situation deep breath hmm sigh,7.0,yes,55,0
357,hi sure 'm fine tired bike back sweaty 'm l_a um places go 's always things um drivers 'm trying audio engineering working music yeah 'll graduating two years uh working recording studio probably soundtracks music idea laughter idea laughter 'm always either l_a home ride bike make music sit home watch movies drivers people gangsters n't know laughter go ride bike take walk pretty good n't get angry often uh let 's see sigh hmm makes sound mouth girlfriend n't wan na go friend 's house hiss sound happened happened yeah laughter um thing make music ride bike um hang friends normal kid stuff laughter um n't live mom right live dad 're pretty close 'm okay uh let 's see n't really know bunch people guess ca n't really pick one right nope n't want nope laughter um mean usually stay pretty late usually fault n't go sleep early wake really late afternoon kind hard um little drowsy tend go sleep earlier um nothing 'm still active n't really change um fine happy normal mm birthday two days ago two three days ago um got got gift girlfriend pretty cool laughter um sigh cool funny energetic smart um active music make mm couple things ca n't name 'em right probably things high school laughter um let 's see would say um deep breath uh gibberish n't get arrested stay school laughter um would n't even know n't know skip laughter um watched movies dad yeah yesterday stayed home watched movies made food hung thing cool bye laughter,7.0,no,37,0
486,yes 'm feel great saint louis missouri born raised yes 've couple times recently moved back two months ago saint louis quite slower uh take care good friend 's ill thank jumped right back bandwagon climate restaurants dirt traffic yes uh road maps following road map maybe driving well recently got back uh colorado went mountains saw snow enjoyed little fine dining colorado uh actually going um horseback riding royal gorge yes would outgoing 'm people person laughter listen jazz music also draw 've probably mastered controlling temper age mm would 've husband financial issues unsure un unsure unstable n't like loud talking mm loud emotion like sit methodically logically talk things raise voice hmm recently illness friend wish would 've handled sister little differently far things 's wanted really needed tell otherwise way really needed done took advice n't um engaged fifteen years ago recently called guess five years ago told diagnosed cancer 've always maintained friendship asked husband could go help time need 'm um lot things one 's good friend mine sister moved well two son wanted start career three love weather 's think moment laughter mhm uh would death youngest son n't know start far born premature since born early five months versus nine made decision take life support 'cause n't getting better would 've hardest decision made husband mhm um really n't wan na erase anything memory 've actually um learn experience gain knowledge things happen 'm ss 'm one put things erase things mind categorize place memories uh 's close lost mother young age uh us siblings father still remain close mm father oh 's health conscious energetic exercises e uh exercises spirituality uh want well 's contentment portrays would like well problem confused um skittish guess would word lately fine f fine except fact um good friend 'm helping take care got hospital 's little hectic last two days um lately um excited um good friends good company say um got back concert outside enjoyable music good friends ate well enjoyed moment uh giving spiritual normal person n't know laughter um ca n't think anything 'd wan na change except maybe exercise little ca n't recall one hand save money try accomplish everything started cosmetology went um college college mathematics finance traveling mm lot lo like enjoy um good food nice wine company went last night nice italian restaurant company good friends family dined talked fun proud guess would children 're welcome bye bye,4.0,no,28,0
479,yes okay l_a uh smog traffic tickets high rent uh everything um like um cost living smog yeah clears throat anymore uh n't time um meeting new people food nature explore different areas um 've east coast 's um going college east coast um went two years uh mean one year like three years yeah came back l_a uh business um graduated high school um knew something else future yeah yes uh sought eh experience got travel clears throat um clears throat uh uh personal trainer real estate um seems like um 's 'm capable right depends 'm eat work um think negative things could happen know n't control temper like going jail know losing everything worked um last time argued somebody um one um close friends um seen couple times upset sigh upset sniffle um uh vehicle bought bought something affordable like vehicle veh car 've bought um like um something affordable like uh maybe uh something economic um moving los angeles west los angeles clears throat sniffle basically found uncle moved um moved 's good 's affordable 's good right really close um n't know um sigh um financially stable well ever since moved l_a 's um try fit job something happens business either lay people sell business um know n't pay cut pay 's tough really um nobody really um workout able get get body tired go sleep uh 'm uh 'm um tired falling asleep wherever go 's nothing going um lately meaning today um today uh really tired 'cause went last night 's um last week last uh weekend uh group friends um good time um outgoing nice funny um good attitude personality character charater character mean um n't know never somebody uh 'm consistent um start something n't n't give cough um 'm always open new ideas creative um like go good time um take new routes journeys um also make make people feel good sometimes um studying test um uh go work um clears throat went swimming 've um traveled n't n't know ca n't say um lot things happened fault uh like um economy going bad um know things really slow n't know know certain businesses go way um um sometimes takes long time change careers get board make happen uh working eating um watching t_v talking friends hanging friends uh 'm responsible yeah,7.0,no,39,0
326,yes 'm fine um ohio mmm laughter bigger city opportunity um bigger city big city often um n't know uh 's phones call um let 's see water ocean um big city 's lot lot people um mountainous skiing kinds stuff traffic close 'cause like talk uh maybe running company politics parents laughter guess play guitar um depends laughter would n't sure okay um ex-girlfriend n't remember mm close lot years know 'em long time little patient huh uh 're okay eh helped um stuff marines fun uh lived country whi one living country helping marines yes bout first one go living country 'cause parents lived li parents lived country lived know uh used um sigh different sceneries difference period different uh one one europe france uh yeah cool great learning different languages seeing different cultures different people 's 's enlightening mind mind expansion definitely mm say least berlin wall uh overwhelmed hmm 'cause atrocities stuff went clears throat war uh 's good question depends well depends 'm sleeping sleeping somebody laughter yeah mm agitated guess n't know okay girlfriend may say laughter n't know clue sh could tell clue nope nope whirlwind guess doer persistence mm achievements goals accomplishments race motocross one first black professionals yeah ai n't joking wow laughter yeah pretty pretty cool guitar playing guitar uh last night yeah playing laughter playing chords playing songs playing songs playing um musicians rehearsal studio um acquaintances friends like fly like fly planes mhm girlfriend talking laughter talking uh laughter um girlfriend sometimes 's n't know 's n't know 's cool 's little arrogant really hmm uh mom dad 're strong people n't know um um maybe flying last flying private plane guess um know 's 's reason get super super super happy unless guess 're married hopefully make super happy 'm pretty even keel know 'm saying stay st stay pretty level mm oh great well 's nice talking yeah 're welcome goodbye,2.0,no,28,0
333,yes well new york turn volume little bit laughter uh change yeah 's good wanted wa wanted wanted see los angeles um probably took year two uh know away family away used new york neighborhoods people getting acclimated whole new lifestyle uh weather ca n't beat weather 's generally always nice 's hot 's cold uh 's creative like uh know movies uh like beach traffic 's lot traffic uh sometimes think people little bit colder distant unfriendly places history major uh uh demonstrations really rea uh high-end supermarkets uh screenwriter 's one reasons came los angeles um 's hard 'cause n't always maintain uh focus motivation let things distract laughter uh uh 've always interested films ever since child always know writing active imagination uh 've last probably almost ten years 've traveled past pa well 've always traveled even kid parents would travel around yes seeing new places seeing uh people different seeing live taking sights uh went kenya probably one best trips ever went um safari going jeep seeing laughter wild animals natural habitat pretty incredible oh yeah 's one great experiences life also got uh place egypt uh end trip um called uh sharm el sheikh right water best scuba diving world hard believe egypt would amazing went n't go scuba diving went uh snorkeling relax uh like listen music like uh helping watching movies helps relax 'cause takes know whatever might mind meditate every day um like take walks nature 's always calming especially uh ocean uh depends laughter sometimes get angry lose temper uh lot times uh 'll like form self-hypnosis calm something 've recently learned helpful also since meditate n't n't get annoyed things easily past things makes really mad guess uh think injustice world done people uh n't really need way could get along um make world better laughter uh last night went movie screening independent film n't think done well 's much fun argument uh movie like know happened yesterday 's mind laughter anything regret yeah 's opportunities life wished uh taken pursued uh certain jobs know first got los angeles opportunity uh become grip uh probably 've pursued decide n't really understand questions take advantage every opportunity came way always alway think saying yes uh opportunity important matter feel know confident 'll able achieve wan na 've depressed life uh part 've 've feeling good sometimes uh feel little blue uh think know sometimes allow allo allow regret come mind bring know usually get pretty quickly uh sometimes financial concerns sometimes uh opportunity um explain eh sometimes sometimes someti eh financial one way made another decision might money life would different um really mean feel pretty much got seek help laughter let 's come back um 've well okay well generally talking someone helped uh pretty easy n't problem sleeping uh usually 'm grumpy laughter n't sleep well uh know feel tired irritable uh would best friend describe 's good question um friendly f well 'm friendly f 'm definitely friendly outgoing uh little bit secretive um would probably 'd like see accomplished uh uh attaining goals happier ha maybe little happier think um 's tough depends sometimes 'm introverted 'cause like write takes means spend time alone come uh 'm extroverted n't really see one hard way depends situation mood best qualities um think 'm caring think 'm intelligent uh think 'm funny 'm outgoing um likeable personality know people said um 'm engaging uh oppressive overly engaging 's sort cool detachment um creative intuitive laughter yes laughter last time felt really happy n't know woke morning pretty happy breakfast happy sun shining laughter um think like said going kenya memorable experience remember remem scuba uh snorkeling really great experience ex experience remembered know seeing colors ocean know feeling sun powerful sun back um almost beyond know beca almost beyond like human way touch like everything universe yeah would nice feel way every moment day proud life think 've uh helped pft people uh sometimes crisis um know 've written screenplays scr screenplays um 've good relationships um good relationships know connected someone else know spending time connecting emotional laughter physical mental levels um could song hear radio uh could uh lot times looking forward something know 'm gon na go movie go bowling hang people um know looking work going work feeling productive put puts good mood 're welcome bye bye,5.0,no,23,0
463,yes pretty good uh born los angeles california yes um like fact everything close um stores shops xxx um traffic laughter um 've traveled much uh going away usual days um exploring new sights um three weeks month ago went las vegas uh wit friends went sightseeing um las vegas went hoover dam um breathtaking um really big saw big canyon impressive 've never seen something like studied nursing uh graduated two months ago took uh board exam licensed passed 'm waiting license mail dream job registered nurse um long time ago little boy got injured parent take hospital um doctors came stitch leg saw made want pursue medical field uh yes happy uh relationship family okay good bad 's 's laughter uh close close um mm problem go help um someone 's positive influence best friend since elementary school yes yes uh 've known since third grade 've uh 've gone elementary middle school high school together lives like two blocks away 's basically like like brother mine shy um really n't know 've 've always quiet person um ever since remember hmm go room turn a_c relax bed laughter pretty good 'm pretty good controlling temper yes last time argued someone um work disappointed um angry disappointed manager wanted something faster usually handle already knew um workload lot n't understand made like sad mm remember one hardest decision ever make dropping school um felt n't really belong uh far away home thinking ahead um major n't really like decided go next semester go back home l_a um right 'm looking yes happy would n't gone nursing school would n't licensed vocational nurse right hmm n't event um depends days um work n't work yes right work um retail store early morning go three morning get ten a_m 's really hard get good night 's sleep n't sleep well little bit grumpy uh irritated frustrated situation lately 've okay okay 've good uh hmm last time really really happy excited found passed license board exam nurse laughter best friend would 've described des would describe caring nice sweet shy quiet guy um physically speaking would change look outside um 'm little l 'm overweight would like lose weight look good outside hmm n't one n't um one time sigh work uh 's retail store kinda took merchandise without buying um risk took um since one around opportunity opp opportunity right get got took home n't know yes last weekend went went yard saleing family pretty fun going different yard sales finding uh random stuff um bought big black bean bag huge two dollars got 's room sit laughter proud fact nurse um nurse um 'm waiting license mail would send resumes different hospitals xxx nursing homes bye,0.0,no,17,0
412,yes okay originally texas oh weeks ago uh well 've living um palm springs actually uh l_a 's lot uh weather 's lot better uh work yes uh weather beach lot activities things mm traffic uh rental higher high lot higher uh first little difficult adapted uh united states uh new experiences uh learn lot things uh yeah one time went uh yosemite san francisco uh really enjoy beautiful scenery uh probably uh last year uh met girlfriend uh san francisco drove highway one uh saw lot uh sights hearst castle things like uh computer science uh well went school back eighties uh computers uh kind new new coming thing decided little bit much uh probably um think like little uh little magazine uh well 've started already started 's like small uh local magazine uh coupons uh going expand different uh parts california probably shy um mm well let 's see uh guess outgoing many friends um actually uh go dancing like dancing 's relaxing uh uh uh latin dancing several times week last weekend went good um think argued someone couple weeks back religion religious issue um felt okay mm um see ca n't think one right laughter let 's see maybe uh one real estate sales um um sometimes clients pretty uh pretty difficult think 've like little uh assertive mm probably uh moving california well uh leaving friends family texas um pretty much starting new life california uh well pretty difficult know got adjusted well um aunt cousins left uh 's 's much relationship great uh aunt 's sister mom uh know send texts periodically uh time really n't much uh contact family um probably parents supportive mm probably parents sick passed away uh well parents um uh got sick uh got dementia uh 's know one parent n't remember uh part pretty difficult well passed away 's uh 's ten years 's uh um 's memories mm easy uh 's tossing turning think night uh probably thinking thinking much things uh probably like future things like economy uh work things like uh tired tired laughter mm uh positive mm probably uh weeks ago received pretty good uh real estate commission happy uh 'm l_a um going meet groups uh like going whole foods trying new uh places go salsa dancing mm probably uh outgoing mm probably successful uh business little uh uh outgoing mm probably boss uh 's pretty uh condescending um really likes belittle people uh laughter put uh put king says lot comments make build uh belittle whoever whoever else room uh 's well usually go uh likes brag much money 's made business uh say things like uh see see much better uh 've look much money 've made year 're worst piece shit agent things like mhm um probably uh integrity good heart hardworking honest um probably went guess uh times 've gone dancing uh went casino uh little town called temecula met lot new friends uh uh dancing meeting friends new friends um probably uh education guess education uh able uh move move wanted go thank bye,12.0,no,29,1
358,yes fine tampa florida uh point wanted get entertainment industry um nineteen ninety took long time get used n't easy well weather hobby could always find large group people interested hobby oh people business world know 's pretty transient come go 's kinda difficult far know trusting people business world difficult much um 's quite different uh weather 's different people different 's different um god long ago uh school uh general stuff business uh acting kinda thing well 'm working becoming professional poker player um left stockbrokage industry successfully financial trading stock options futures kinda stuff sometimes yes people family people know making fun instigators around negative hostile people vent ruminate situation pretty darn good uh n't ca n't remember argued someone um ca n't really remember 's good sign n't argue much days um maybe online um really n't know well 's good good good change n't know argue somebody maybe 's long time um ca n't really remember huh oh 'd say tony robbins anthony robbins um listen music surf internet study poker research stocks watch youtube clips um towards sisters parents 'm close parents 've estranged um n officially um people say symptoms 've talking depression yes um diagnosed early nineteen nineties like dysthymia like mild form depression think long term lasting mild depression friend um thought learning disability um called attention deficit disorder time a_d_h_d looked literature seemed similar symptoms went go battery tests u_c_l_a financial thing yes um irritable moody tired yes easy airheaded spacey um slow cope okay deep breath oh sigh mm ca n't remember played poker online um yes wow 's good question um ten twenty years ago would 've said stay away losers avoid negative people n't try change 'em n't try give 'em advice n't try help 'em n't try show 'em right way waste energy energy n't business unethical people new york city wise guys new york city type wise guys uh know chronic liars b_sers uh would 've said kept room better order dated women date women clean room better job know enjoying nice apartment single bachelorhood probably surviving difficult childhood dysfunctional family staying trouble staying away drugs illegal drugs um making name good stock trader good stock picker sort wisdom 've able pass eastern philosophy honest trustworthy honesty mm perserverance knowledgeable able help people give advice different things pretty 've got good deep breath amount wisdom without p_h_ds degrees know yawning excuse bye,7.0,no,50,0
350,yes 'm fine thank originally 'm well born mississippi 'm gulfport mississippi yes n't choice child moved parents laughter uh two years old laughter yes toddler yes like travel travel lot um around new environments new people uh different things cough um well one favorite trips visiting africa think two thousand six visited uh west africa great trip medical mission volunteered gave medical assistance people friend mine uh actually involved talked getting involved went went n't know made decision way happy 's something 'll never forget laughter studied english education could teach high school students uh currently well right um tutor privately private tutoring company looking get back classroom working teacher mhm wow anything uh combines teaching traveling writing would dream job yeah anything combines three items teaching closest outcome um occasionally yes laughter um clears throat n't know guess comparison others considered outgoing um lot people said seem reserved kinda introverted n't know mm well n't know read um started meditation mm try breathe calm laughter yeah things make really mad um mistreatment children abuse children um try figure 's annoying usually go uh control annoyed like ultimately control whether 'm annoyed try figure problem go annoyed laughter help oh 'm fine totally controlling temper think n't yeah last time argued someone um n't know maybe couple days ago um um smell clothes thought smelled like perfume said laughter yeah laughter cool uh think 'm close family 're pretty close knit family talk every day um see almost every day 've lot positive um influences life would say aunt uh definitely mother positive influences well um look look l uh clears throat look aunt um think 's positive look obviously grew similar backgrounds came similar neighborhoods areas 's successful um despite types things 've gone children um n't let past define future uh mom 's overcome many obstacles well um challenges health still tries optimistic 's still tries know overcome things still live life despite physical barriers might look people able know allow current situation dictate future anything possible um well diagnosed um within last um year uh recently within last three months well um fear knowing uh things feeling knowing um know could n't stop feeling way feeling lot symptoms um um know mostly uh gained lot weight um could n't sleep lot sometimes could sleep much laughter um felt sad sometimes like wanted cry lot 've feeling okay um days yeah um n't know every day different mean today feel fine like said everything differently lately 've feeling um like involved inv involved life like wan na get things um 's n't different experiencing mm well mm receiving um uh guess psychotherapy um n't know lot things happened moved go take care grandmother kinda got involved taking care people instead uh sometimes yes 's kinda difficult um either hard time falling asleep hard time staying asleep 'm sure n't know yet know sniffle usually 's um thoughts continual thoughts running mind either keep make hard uh go asleep make hard stay asleep mhm um journal sometimes uh might help write things get helps n't know n't found really great ways coping tired laughter yeah mostly uh tired um kinda confused n't know part feel happy 's um last time felt really happy guess holidays uh n't know guess around uh family friends holiday season guess general 's happy time seeing people n't seen um 's would best friend describe probably um quiet sometimes cautious talkative sometimes um tenacious um n't know lot friends say look uh accomplishments also say grateful friend 'm caring compassionate um easy talk um remind feel like sister laughter um everyone regrets 'm sure yeah regret stuff relax go ahead sounds cliche n't mean sound way 's true 's um learn comfortable relax know um compare people someone else may life certain time necessarily supposed 're supposed time n't mean 're less competent less able means everyone path everyone time progression get things would tell ten years ago believe stay path want life n't yeah um really enjoyed working um well okay science project laughter um younger uh relatives cousins science project together fun despite mess made ball um first attend college family um going college coming back community uh went school teaching community volunteering community helping um youth children come background came uh 'm proud able opportunity improve better come back help someone else improve better themself well goodbye,11.0,yes,54,1
345,hi yeah 'm okay 'm great yeah um los angeles born santa monica yeah um like um n't know 's nothing mean n't really like much guess like 's know still nature 's like new york like city guess know 's 's okay laughter um n't like traffic n't like crowded crowds make really nervous n't like um smog pollution stuff laughter n't n't travel n't anywhere really laughter um studied um psychology went s_m_c took psychology class um psychology major took anthropology class took math 'm good math laughter uh currently school right um yeah 'm home laughter dream job would um would like help people long 's something helping people uh would like help people like p_t_s_d problems stuff uh yeah long 'm know helping people smile know relating problems people um 'm pretty pr 'm close well 'm really close grandma um eh family 's eh 're like close kinda argue lot laughter yeah um sorry 's introvert okay 'm annoyed um well try relax minute usually try take deep breaths 's hard laughter yeah 'm good uh temper 's gotten little worse um good really controlling temper um need help laughter um really mean guess 's like bad like people 've never like fight anything yeah um argued mom sister yesterday something stupid like sister sitting sitting front seat 's kid 's like 'm front seat asked sit back course start like yelling arguing 's like really annoying laughter yeah thanks grandma 's always giving encouragement um 's therapist licensed therapist 's always know made really really um easy someone talk could always go helps yeah yeah memorable experiences well one really good experience um went horseback riding really really made happy uh love horses nature 's biggest thing love made happy relaxed memorable experience laughter um caring caring always talk um n't judge never judge 'm never cranky 'm never never ever get like angry anybody else like family know yeah nice caring stuff laughter um things put good mood like uh music nature um like cook lot like cook know family talking puts really good mood love meeting new people meeting new people puts best mood uh 's easy um 's hard um sometimes 's 's really hard um n't usually sleep well um yeah trouble falling asleep mostly um guess 's like mind racing lot know sometimes 'll flashbacks bad memories um know thinking much laughter um n't know um think uh stress know lot stress every day everyday stress uh yeah pretty much 's triggers laughter um try stay positive try think like okay well know one day things get better um try call somebody talk trouble like grandma yeah thanks n't sleep well um well start like cry lot start get really irritable um get really depressed makes feel well get uh really really bad n't get sleep yeah yeah thanks yes diagnosed um three years ago uh n't really know going realized okay well diagnosed um like okay well problem wanted help mind like 's like 's awful mind taking control like yeah yeah 's hard um yeah yeah definitely always thought problem always thought something like really wrong um always like kinda nervous around people like never really like look anybody eye 'cause 'm nervous eyes always kind like racing um would sweats situation um reminded situation like try avoid reminds brings flashbacks yeah oh um 've feeling good 've getting every day 'm trying um guess walking keeps mind p_t_s_d symptoms 'm trying walk helps thanks um yeah depression um yeah um helps yeah actually help lot um currently n't one right 'm actually getting new one days though like 's kind mix-up yeah really really helps um noticed 've less flashbacks um 've relaxed guess um yeah know trying keep occupied yeah helps um last time felt really happy um guess um n't know um today 'cause mean 'm glad part laughter um proud uh well sigh um 'm trying think 'm proud um think 'm proud like fact able know like well mean people know like deny problem 'm proud actually like know person realize okay problem need help lot people know n't take medication 're untreated um n't wan na get help 'm glad get help n't wan na feel way wan na get help problem instead oh gosh 's lot regret yeah 's lot um regret know uh drug abuse know 's part know p_t_s_d regret um lot uh mistakes know relationships stuff like wow um would 've told um guess advice would 've given try keep mind relaxed guess yeah um well 'm nice person always like smile people always saying smile lot um smile guess kind hides like 's inside know 'm pretty depressed know try keep smiling always like lend hand help make people feel better fun um like go mall 's lot fun like go mall like go grandma go places go shopping love shopping um like go um play like games like like play video games fun stuff like okay thanks goodbye,15.0,yes,67,1
321,yeah 'm okay um chicago illinois mhm uh husband 's work eighty four easy took three years um move moved away family uncomfortable n't know anyone even though make friends felt place uh often would like used go back like least year last years 's diminished would say like every three years weather laughter love weather beach um know 've long people know nice people um people people laughter um yeah also um would say economy 's difficult make los angeles business computer graphics 'm working right 'm working retail eh could n't find work settle right 's tough um would like human resource representative mhm um like talk people much understand know lot subject go 'm interested finding people 'm sitting next somebody 'll strike conversation find um know 'd like talk people enjoy 'm quiet um let 's see rude people um people harm children elderly el elderly makes angry uh war control temper n't problem get quiet feel angry try think act last time argued someone month ago daughter um arguing therapy cancer um n't telling enough n't giving enough information made angry frustrated angry yeah hard laughter watching children fail 're trying hard seeing hurt trying prepare wo n't listen advice uh feel like sometimes need trust mhm um love children yeah uh uh playing granddaughter month ago excited happy um cares gone n't thinking anything except fun good time yeah 's best laughter yes um five years ago could n't function could n't drive could n't sleep could n't eat um could n't anything completely shut felt like felt like looking window life going outside window stuck behind glass could n't participate um knew something n't right lately 've feeling depressed mhm n't good night 's sleep year would say regular pattern maybe sleep hour three hour intervals keep waking never quite get deep sleep um groggy energy 's hard 's uh difficult work 's difficult concentrate make mistakes forget lot mhm um yes mhm yes 'm therapy right could afford continue 'm sorry 'm sure yes yeah um feel uh relaxed feel like worries lifted uh think clearer 'm using tools 've learned therapy mhm children mhm um n't know laughter friendly think 's horrible laughter um feel um children neglected today 's fault parents think um think society forgot takes village raise child nobody wants pitch noone wants help anymore noone 's helping neighbor 's sad mhm um n't know um eating dinner family regret spending enough time education um children young needed yeah needed uh take care 'm sure could seek help grandparents um introduced church um know letting play home play garden showed lot love felt like cared mhm uh listening music watching um funny program t_v going school working 's um go dinner friend year ago friend um work um close mhm 're welcome bye,20.0,yes,62,1
344,yes 'm okay 'm uh los angeles california originally yes sunshine uh weather 's great 's smog pollution crime um certain things like yeah one point life military n't hardly lot traveling seeing different sights different people think 's people around different types city people peop see meeting different new people uh sigh traveled uh new york one time uh quite different big city different people uh 's eighteen uh yes laughter uh lot combat training combat mm disciplined uh motivated uh get lot things done laughter even n't wan na 'em know go back army days get motivated stuff really needed get done n't wan na got done uh like uh uh lot cleaning uh wake pretty early lot p_t uh stay like two three o'clock morning n't wake back four five yes uh laughter certain point yes military joined national guard uh fifteen sixteen years uh uh excuse ma'am n't hear th quite hear uh made decide uh motivation know really wanted career see could find career helped little bit yeah thank n't easy uh mean 'm sorry easy n't bother much go back civilian life yeah n't bother ju adjusted pretty well uh sigh history basically lot um yeah basically history uh 'm 'm uh disabled oh 's okay 's okay heal get better hopefully yes try keep excuse ma'am guess n't dream job would probably working others working young people working kids seeing get uh right proper uh uh education 's know 's due productive life society live today yeah excuse sigh think 'em think uh uh uh sigh xxx mean sh participate tapicitate 're lives ask questions motivated uh really achieve something within lives give mm give confidence motivation need life 'cause lot 'em n't get sigh see people really really stuff really n't uh sigh really eeks mean really bothers people talk give run-around 's like wo n't straight instead giving run-around laughter wo n't straight frustrating uh really people really 'm trying find right word stupid stuff laughter really botthers uh spray painting wall uh throwing garbage anywhere picking uh really uh know really hygiene know taking care hygiene know mean yeah sigh 'm annoyed uh get really upset really start really cussing people honest 's something 's really uh 'm learning really let go lot know know say hey 's way 's like 'm control ca n't control yeah control things really getting upset people really good 's good oh temper controlled control pretty well uh n't know think probably sister 's controlling 's like life mine n't tell yeah real close get along 'em 're real close problems yeah good uh morning laughter yeah wake pretty know first thing wake morning pray spirit 's connection uh sigh universe world feel pretty good yes uh sigh know 'm motivated get start things life anything times wan na get something accomplished ca n't really get done 's road blocks way uh 'm learning uh overcome road blocks well uh well instance uh looking go school problems uh getting enrolled school talk one social workers willing help get online uh 'm like okay 's well 's gon na get done laughter yeah uh repeat one time ma'am uh yes see uh sigh 'd say uh last couple weeks uh noticed go certain situations like talking anger situation 's like n't get angry time 's sometimes get angry find 's causing 's 's causing get angry take excuse ma'am uh 's hard 'cause alls take time reflect everything uh gone uh take good look situation uh go find 's 's really bothering 's seldom uh suffer p_t_s_d uh getting type sleep would would great recurring nightmares incident sigh think n't know 's triggered think 's 'm talking someone seeing someone 'cause 'm veteran uh v_a situation p_t_s_d basically right excuse ma'am uh sigh lot nightmares lot problems lot anger issues uh depression uh noticed uh started started tell needed help 's 's basically know know something n't wrong something n't right something 's right take time know take good look ask something 's right something 's right 's fine something 's right need take care uh started seeking help yeah somewhat yes somewhat 'cause 'm able sit talk therapist well 'm able sit talk therapist uh tell 'em situation usually go problem uh went classes 've uh uh talking one-on-one doctor 's helping little bit yeah 's good thing excuse ma'am really best friend uh would describe fun loving good person always try help others uh think others really know need things need done take care know really actually really look lot respect yeah see something wish excuse ma'am uh little bit specific oh okay uh books crossword puzzles uh walking 's thought n't think n't think regret anything way accept keep moving regret anything past 'm wasting time 's gone 's past need move need live present prepared future move future yeah sharp inhale uh sigh education uh direct confidence 'm like today yeah 's lacking maybe twenty years ago uh yes ye yes lot positive people life uh sigh yeah people would uh uh uh well consistently cons xxx mean consistently motivate continue pursue certain goal uh thought pretty good really n't see lot uh gave lot motivation try go try certain things 'cause anything 's choice 's whether choice still done excuse ma'am uh sigh 'm able really able self-motivated really able put best foot forward able get lot things accomplished thought could n't accomplished 'm willing enough put oh wow huh oh really know really enjoyed sitting social worker 're talking getting things done within life school one 'em uh school one 'em kinda liked first time someone willing really sit work yeah thought great thing long 're willing 'm willing go even extra mile even motivated things besides school uh yeah 's gets going oh love uh going accomplished thank goodbye,11.0,no,56,1
351,yes clears throat okay um new york um pursue um music industry job music industry uh yes 'm self-employed um become music producer um 's pretty hard 's lot competition laughter um pursue job uh um year ago last february pretty difficult east coast lot different west coast um think 've twice past year 'm creature habit um yes uh sometimes feel like n't fit crowd um 's better sometimes quiet view everything instead uh know going actively pursue things um laughter probably uh listen music um spend time dogs um clears throat probably um people insensitive insen um um nice um seeing injustices um think 's laughter um pretty good know sometimes um probably couple days ago um one friends saying um mm uh making comment got kind upset yeah laughter pretty close um best friend um oh one friends um kind quiet person pushes certain point 's overreact usually um 's pretty hard um rather person notice 'm kinda getting withdrawn actively engage instead getting point 's like um comes point blows proportion um um probably spending time family new york close um sister brother um n't know 're great people love lot 're lot like feel like people understand um probably um guess loyal um sensitive um laughter n't know 's kind hard laughter 's hard question laughter clears throat yes gosh um think probably nineteen ninety seven long time ago um 'm uh time going lot issues feeling unsafe ended going um doctor kinda get meds therapy stuff um currently like six months ago um felt therapist n't really helping um felt kept talking things xxx n't really challenging 've therapy really long time knew change 's okay laughter um yes actually um feel connected therapist um feel like 's really great way talk 'm going um yes um 'm better describing emotions feelings think biggest thing um 'm situations eh see reacting one way take step back see react normally almost way um also tend take lot emotions feelings kind bury make feel like really bad 's nice talk someone 's judging n't really tell like know um tell 's okay basically clears throat um feeling hopeless time know enough energy things used like little bit concentration issues um weird disturbing thoughts sometimes pop mind overall feeling kinda crummy life um sometimes like random moments 's like problem like interpersonal life something like sometimes even seeing something television um like sometimes affects um listening music trying distract um trying like therapist told longest time journal record things clears throat um 's tough transition come uh well um um kinda half half okay okay laguhter um feel like 've little bit withdrawn lately um 's um clears throat days 's great days 's um recently 's little bit difficult um n't know like lot thoughts mind night clears throat tend sleep well wake quite frequently night clears throat um clears throat groggy morning um 's like day tend yawn lot friends always like oh yawning much disinterested disisinterested 're trying tell 's laughter um probably christmas time family um really happy um feeling like everything alright life good sense like moment present um probably know um let 's see 's hard question think probably tend read people kinda well sometimes um uh like say uh 'm good like good friend people good family member um 'm hard worker job laughter um um sure mean 's life course 's regrets um one comes mind um wish n't eat much lot healthy laughter um n't take things seriously laughter um enjoy youthful um think 's laughter um n't know 's good question probably um previous job employment worked really well kids um great job um researcher um hospital helped lot kids six years seven years yeah awesome um really kind like um reading people decided major psychology clears throat uh went worked um mental health facility research um um drugs depression things like found like good niche laughter okay problem laughter goodbye laughter,14.0,yes,46,1
320,[ ing ] yes 'm little nervous mm different california yes like beach um weather mm mm many people [ laughter ] yeah mean n't know right um went nursing mhm yes nursing 's great field heart passion caring people mother yeah right uh 's 're 're close pretty close family mhm mm mean okay like read like watching television yeah think 'm good controlling ca n't remember last time argument mm 'm sure 'm really annoyed think get n't know walk lot 'm sure 'm annoyed different reactions whatever 's annoying laughter mhm like mad well let see mad hell word mad means like 'm mad 's 's uncontrollable 'm mad mhm n't best friend n't really know mother mhm mother mother beautiful woman great values instilled us raising yeah values like well good one thing like mother cooked valuable thing taught cook valuable honesty mhm mother well 's longer living mhm excuse mm changes behavior mm since 've n't think little uncomfortable yeah 's little strange 've feeling lately little uneasy experience things went going raped sodomized kept gun head cut hair 've going hell thing lately yes cope 's 's difficult cope mhm 's easy sleep get good night 's sleep excuse n't know maybe sluggish maybe sometimes irritable n't sleep well n't sleep well often yes 's diagnosed years ago wanted get revenge guys raped 'm gon na go back excuse thought better thought knew problem n't know far n't sleep n't eat nightmares still really [ real ] afraid uh really afraid avoiding far disturbing thoughts like things 's happened disturbing [ di ] disturbing thoughts mhm sometimes see four men together hoods 's triggered sometimes go upstairs 's trigger happened took upstairs yes ma'am excuse therapy n't therapy 've noticed calm get um afraid 's mhm helped lot things happened past n't realize deep inside still 'm like jest know day day making think music yeah cooking day cooking son one son 's beautiful child mhm 's [ laughter ] um think decision making well things 's asked like 'm tattoos n't like tattoos well 's lot different things best thing parent giving life son [ laughter ] seeing grow joy lives going 's good thing god advice would give n't really know really n't know far memorable experience could say graduating good experience yes great graduated great graduate high school n't hard n't hard enjoyed school n't remember mhm bye,11.0,yes,64,1
328,yes laughter fine uh watts california live west l_a laughter yes love uh sunshine love palm trees love um 're thirty minutes away everything 's great city traffic 's terrible studied child development yeah actually uh teach children safe uh traffic situations oh dream job filmmaker 's wan na wan na die job making movies well uh high school lot drama theater productions love everything film opportunity actually make film uh n't getting work actor got hooked love making film laughter last time made film last october made short film laughter 's three people connect together 're completely unrelated get retreat realize problems bigger imagined originally thanks laughter really mad uh laughter really mad know guess makes really mad daughter acts stupid school work uh n't pay attention get phone calls home letters home emergency parent conferences 's makes mad yeah laughter yeah yeah sucks 's one smartest kids school 's 's 's difficult lot things find negative go 's like 're fighting trying change know little person know times hundred 's difficult deal um 's okay 's parent never easy sigh hardest thing parent would say trying give little person much life experience n't make mistakes n't get hurt wan na give want accept right away n't gets uh um annoying sometimes know 's coming give info n't wan na take wan na find way watch get hurt 's 's sad wan na come 're like ugh tried tell ca n't mad everybody learns way mm yeah guess think uh watch go struggles 's hard watch 's necessary motion life children learn way wan na learn 'cause get got however get parent 're happy got sigh love children bestow upon 's great yeah love lo know love especially daughter always wants give hugs always wants talk always wants around uh always tells 'm great job 'm like laughter know great job 's seven know unconditional love ca n't help feel like good person children tell 're good person like hmm oh laughter god 're ooh sigh 're know like albert einstein said best technology exceeded humanity 's much technology kids learning fast 's almost like 're already little adults 're missing steps child miss going outside miss learning things naturally rather going youtube know wherever facebook getting fast n't know information fight info 's organic anymore children growing days 's organic 's sped 's pushed 's hard figure world 's 's wrong hmm laughter sharp inhale breathe sharp exhale breathe 'll walk away situation argued argued fiancee uh couple months ago gosh forgot forgot n't remember petty yeah n't last long 'cause 's like n't like argue stuff like take care stuff happens 's hmm fiancee laughter well um well mean met um working charter ch charter school recreational center met uh talked hit uh n't see entire year uh reconnected went date great ever since family 're pretty close brother lives colorado sister lives oklahoma dad lives neighboring city um close distance certain choices family made years know far away um immediate family like know fiancee daughter like 're close 's great laughter n't travel enough traveled couple times uh within last five years came back new zealand great experience yeah enjoy meeting new people 's biggest thing traveling like seeing new things like immersing different cultures situations like away 's 's good well went new zealand uh long ago ha stayed week um learned celsius 'cause know fahrenheit fun uh learned play cricket uh learned get capsized kayak um learned lot lamb lamb good like lamb lot lamb oh seafood seaf seafood ca n't eat really great chocolate chocolate sigh good ice cream good uh people really really nice special time go great accepted love yeah ca n't wait go back laughter yes best qualities um energetic uh personable uh intelligent easy get along work pretty hard 'm slow getting upset things mm 's fairly easy laughter uh guess get pretty moody know could little little snappy people n't sleep well lack sleep get sleep 'm okay mm fine changes scrubbed_entry um know would say 'm pretty funny um lax lot things uh enjoy life much possibly um good friend around always ready eager help laughter waking morning laughter 's always great thing uh love ice cream 's always good love laughing ugh somebody 's laughing especially fiancee 'cause great laugh puts good mood hmm thank scrubbed_entry 's wan na definitely wan na get acting really work get really good roles 's positive influence stayed trouble um 's maintained good working relationship people 's always positive super helpful encouraging oh went junior high school high school together 's best friend yeah laughter yes wow 's many uh scrubbed_entry uh bag 's went play two girls couple rows know n't particularly care know 's kids n't know know say n't like somebody know anyway got 's dark start throwing 's hitting 'em head 's came school like three days later uh summoned mock trial get scrubbed_entry able get like entire group found us guilty crime got trouble anyway teacher would n't allow us get trouble clean yard like two days oh man name uh love scuba diving 've done twice love wan na get back like traveling uh love exercising actually like working uh used think chore 'm really really getting love watching movies put front good movie 'm happy camper 's hanging family anything regret hmm deep breath know think laughter probably regret going smith chance yeah uh smith coming street saw got nervous jumped bushes n't meet uh boss time thought really funny n't ready meet yet think regret meeting advice would give ten twenty years ago would probably say gut told something 've went ahead rather sit analyze know days weeks months later feel gut go go gut really happy hmm really happy film festival putting together things intense things going wrong things going right people came packed house really happy packed house uh film festival month ago yeah sigh let 's see think right point 'm proud putting short film together minimal budget amazing actors great storyline n't think could done 's done close done 'm 'm proud able get done think could walk away happy knowing gave really good shot think movie probably going take rest film crew buddies higher heights oh really alright well name ah ellie goodbye,4.0,no,18,0
488,yes fine oh san fernando valley uh well really like culture love going museums able go night lots people around 's spread lot 's pain ass drive everywhere good public transportation system uh really like go camping n't really travel um think sigh might 've around six months ago went trip geology class yeah fun hmm sigh think 's tough say um well think first time went camping probably really memorable went death valley got see lot really cool things hang friends night philosophy yes um hmm n't know think sort happened wanted journalist really long time kind grew disillusioned liked different ways different things could philosophy huh n't know really like children really like studying behavior think something along lines might think 'm generally pretty outgoing tend shy around family 'm around friends stuff think 'm pretty friendly um lot times 'll watch t_v read um yeah think 'm pretty good n't really get mad try think things start getting mad um start trying focus breathing think last time argued someone probably boyfriend um 'm trouble remembering last thing argued um think wa n't feeling well trouble deciding whether wanted go department 's end year party getting frustrated thought inconsiderate 'cause n't feeling well begin well felt like n't really taking feelings consideration really hate gets stressed gets angry easily see unnecessary stresses hmm think lot times oldest youngest brother oldest little brother uh something wrong tend harsh um 're close sister youngest brother tends hostile back think little bit gentle might easier communicate hmm um nineteen came home party think around four a_m sunday morning dad got really mad yelled said lot nice things n't speak year uh well relationship mom lot better n't live home um used really frustrated time 'cause really quick temper think 've got little bit distance see best could um sigh love siblings little sister get along really well 's four years younger around twelve around sixteen really difficult 'cause really harsh temper always moody n't place patient sort stuff fought time n't anymore 's really great get along okay uh older little brother 's fifteen think get along pretty well youngest brother 's twelve scrubbed_entry one first first one first philosophy professors really loved classes really good uh class professor really cared really engaged people really motivating since classes like think 's pretty easy mean sometimes 'll trouble going sleep generally 's bad 's think 's usually harder wake morning um well 'm really tired get grumpy think usually 'm groggy pretty good 'm little anxious um getting job 'm gon na taking summer school 's one class 'll lot free time um yeah sigh well mean 's end world n't get job know eventually mostly think try think much try pessimistic hmm well think last time felt really happy went party boyfriend end department party um know knew couple people felt comfortable also able meet new people couple kids splashing around pool couple drinks ate food fun um would probably say 'm smart uh pretty intellectual love read watch really like serious films t_v um would probably also say 'm fun 'cause like go fun lot well 'm kinda ki really disorganized gets trouble sometimes um 's major one procrastinating hmm um got little bit trouble months back go court uh uh given eh sixty hours community service course procrastinated show court get extension judge mean n't seem mean yelled n't seem like gave much thought seemed like sort stock speech gave everyone thought needed yelling understand 'cause 's job great 'cause n't really anxious situation well would 've twelve two um think think would 've told twelve hard hard parents 'cause think little selfish self-involved back ca n't really think anything mean regret treated mother kid everyone um regret couple semesters ago n't well school got ws work get transcript think 'm think n't focusing school time n't see counselors school anything definitely could 've done hmm think 'd probably spend ideal weekend sleeping saturday going hiking maybe going duck pond house feeding ducks picking oranges maybe going breakfast sunday like window shopping maybe watching little bit t_v huh well youngest brother autistic mom dad always working growing 'm ten years older oldest always always took care made really really patient handful 'm really proud turned um close,0.0,no,20,0
487,yes 'm fine thank detroit michigan yes moved l_a two thousand seven family came many years ago like forty years ago uh n't go back detroit anymore really n't like weather really n't reason immediate family california uh completely different um detroit cold n't best personality prefer l_a open space warmer climate warmer people different different uh vibe like better husband relationship ended family thought would easier start places lived stay extremely easy came every year visit college extremely used plus also taken um six months school lived went school completely used well like said weather number one 's uh less crowded 's open space 's calmer friendlier vibe less rushed smog would one drive traffic certain areas um general 's lot n't like l 's like guess overall threat earthquake 's n't really much factor 'cause rarely happens price real estate laughter 's another one n't necessarily like ca n't see shoes ca n't see shoes n't travel much used traveled worldwide new experiences well used international flight attendant later traveled work cruise line international sales account executive 've traveled lot different places um 'll say pretty much enjoyable 'cause know 's different cultures different things see learn enjoy experience uh experiences would say um europe visiting moreso 've also visited uh south south america guess 'cause cultures different would probably say shy um general um compared people know really really outgoing although 've describe outgoing like read like walk power walk hike listen music know 'm good controlling temper oh probably married husband many years ago could many things n't even know specific anything general pretty much could turn debate slash argument could could choice uh instances might 've know got emotional let bother made big deal something rather um know seen something respond perhaps would always 're also pushed answer know ca n't always say ignore person 'cause many times 's matter ignoring situation n't escalate people know n't respond so-called norm ignore mm uh 'll know de-escalate 's always case taught middle school kids try calm um methods n't always work always teacher maintain know professional demeanor ca n't really um even know kids something outrageous possibly dangerous kids well could several mm um guess decision um along mom deciding let relative surgery uh know outcome uncertain could go either way case died know uh 's pretty hard decision 'cause n't know also know n't could serious outcome well mhm sigh oh many different things could occur know life always second guessing things might could also learning experiences necessarily good thing erase know look positive sometimes people strong reaction n't really look past uh impact event 'cause might something gain grew home dysfunction domestic abuse know um many incidences ca n't say one 'cause lots traumatic things also would 've different outcome say learning deal things occur life adult sometimes see among acquaintances friends really strong experiences fall apart difficult times dealing um listen know 'cause understand everybody 's experience know walk levels understanding know know someone balance background information help pull see know things progress better way knowing n't like end world terrible seems could also relate experiences things worse know seem course 's always general mean look calamities world know things n't affecting us people know provides us perspective know pull someone wo n't necessarily say self-absorption seemingly intensity experience right moment well good relationship eh part different levels um stress trauma siblings experienced made interact life people know intensely others um much experience life help deal things know different way 's always evolving walk positivity lead know uh way respond uh try engender positive response rather feed sometimes um strong reactions responses interactions may pardon n't di n't hear could repeat hmm hmm mother different teachers friends well mother always calm um person part easygoing even though 's experienced lot negativity 've teachers um um positive po positive proactive know taught independent thinking techniques rise things occurring various friends know would see handling situations sometimes much difficult know dealing things depends part 's know pretty good um depends 'm dealing lot things studying know um trying get hours day 'cause need get things done know 's less um general n't problem sleeping 's make stay awake aw stay 's stuff wan na get done 've feeling okay uh less know stressful xxx goes general 'cause 'm got several projects 'm working um general good like mean particular mean seems um less stressful get stuff done stress comes sometimes lot things shorter period time know reorganizing things need done know smoothe n't know 's something lot uh say veterans particular people well 's several guess um happiness comes small large things general every day every day every every moment mean mea mean every day every morning great wonderful know day happiness um far big celebratory kinds things n't big highs lows like think 's something continuum know every day really great meal could great view could know moment shared someone know even even keel um uh uh perseverant um know continue forth um positive upbeat um maybe things differently younger like spending money differently spending time know little differently 's hard say 's like okay get older see know could 've done things differently instead buying house would 've know waited bought another one mean things like would um made move california sooner 'm would um instead buying house bought 'd know would ss would know situation waited get something different know know hindsight make best decision time best information information available know looked several options um independent educated able uh take care okay bye bye,0.0,no,17,0
356,yes okay eh alhambra uh weather 's really nice everything 's familiar uh sometimes 's much congestion roads much traffic studied art photography uh n't much decision kept noticing interested yes 'm photographer mhm oh suppose uh um running family portrait studio type photography business uh 'm also apartment manager keeps tied um 's uh fair 's greatest apartment manager 've free rent stay lot part free rent part good oh gosh memorable experience 's hard say um well mean 's good bad memorable experiences oh well guess like sport success high school things happy art pieces 've made memorable bad things would father 's death know memorable good though uh well parents lot brothers sisters uh family uh fairly close live around l_a uh 's far f distant di uh distant brother lives new york brother lives maui clears throat mhm oh mostly talented ss um um involved technology maybe 're um think 're hive mind grew seems like hooked social media uh go walk watch television play computer uh um well 's uh 's kind uh injustices happen n big deals example parking situation got worse new district parking eh 's kind upsetting city n't seem wan na uh make exceptions change rules also uh unfair things work sometimes happen upsetting ups uh upsetting uh yeah worked f school sch uh uh high school sch worked high school dance uh last weekend arrived site people site said could n't set equipment backdrops things location assigned go outside get okay go inside outside n't prepared told advance outside um delayed setup time n't would n't bothered except monday morning um school called call called boss complained late setting told us wait told would delayed wait still get complaint part upsetting work n't back us office need please school maintain account uh often something like happens means send work school would translate less payroll hours photographers job 's yeah 's things upsetting uh time dust resume laughter start looking situations might better um yeah uh pretty good sigh usually xxx might uh moment n't really lose xxx later might um vent something like spot sp location would n't um well today um uh schedule sc tight schedule today friend 'm car c sharing car today uh arguing go first um compromised things one things th one things 're gon na things yeah post-traumatic stress syndrome uh yes oh sigh 'd say nineteen eighty yeah think believe nineteen eighty yeah um well father noticed symptoms father well 's passed away psychiatrist um well n't sleeping laying around house um waking noon laughter something like n't um focus like getting job n't clear enough uh remember job interviews 'd go front door would n't go laughter think part depression yeah thought problem n't know uh well eh went three years psychiatrist said thought done laughter uh get much better place watch time see 's going depression think 'll good days bad days um think therapy makes see um like thought filter wearing pair pa put depression pair sunglasses n't really see everything kinda k sort try take glasses little bit double check really perceiving things accurately seeing depressed viewpoint try look clues think 'm um slipping back little bit uh uh n't well unemployed periods 've noticed path past um right work slow 's easy slip back sleeping late putting things schedule 's wide open personally depressed person think structure really important um gets bed get somewhere time deal interact people beneficial things someone 's tends depressed uh well n't know 's changes little bit tend focused things probably um uplifting let 's say uh 's negative like ha sort thinking um um soldiers past uh n't know like roman era er era greeks gree ancient greeks would 've like frontline battle mm know crude cru kind crude cru opinion crude weapons medical help n't know seem se mind seems go lot 'm thinking 've looking look looking reading books um video clips youtube eh things like um things thi uh kinda like terrible doom type themes like watching animal show like crocodile attacks things like probably n't dwell much oh mean life general yeah well think regret finishing college think think wa uh going depression right n't coping senior year well um n't really n't get college degree although seven years uh 's 's big regret um think would 've um certain points probably 've sought um sought therapy also probably uh outside help um getting finals logistics art major car lot art projects things difficult move back forth also uh meet away locations think probably would 've worth whatever took get car laughter time um well 'm 've told 'm patient also um original original artistic ideas um good qualities 'm loyal also um know support friends 'm fairly generous yeah um let 's see xxx really enjoyed nice experience uh uh photographing um soccer game recently really enjoyed mhm okay pleasure thank goodbye,10.0,yes,48,1
343,yes 'm okay uh los angeles california yes like weather um basically like people different uh things mm 'm really sure get excuse xxx um would say someone rude uh someone bullying somebody negative attitude 'm annoyed depends hmm might make comment something like uh might absorb something know think depends situation uh n't think disagreement n't know last time 've argument really n't 's long time basically disagreement n't argued anyone someone quite time ca n't even recall uh family matter brother disagreement one brothers know upset return got little upset know mean laughter mean hard excuse laughter excuse laughing oh could go question okay listen music somewhat n't know guess know 's little bit ask ask huh basic uh things english math 'd ask question though uh 'm um trying find employment right job enjoy going n't really dream job uh kid children small playing 'em 's last time really recall 's easy hmm trying give guidance advice 'll listen parent know connected someone know 's family someone love someone loves n't much tell sigh mean children know well children one child two uh sons 's older 're adults think 'm kinda close mean think today 's kids mean sigh think 're uh n't think 're respectful young kid think got disrespectful uh uh maybe may six months ago something like way feeling know n't feeling good feeling sad know n't sleeping good know n't feeling right problem way feeling whole purpose going seek kinda help feel alright ever right oh n't sleep good n't know answer answer would sleep better um n't know never never therapy n't best friend couple think good qualities think 'm basically good person uh company uh associates usually hanging uh friend hanging laughing talking drinking beer yeah felt alright 've completed college said got many 'em hmm well lot 'em um sigh getting morning memorable 'cause new day thankful b living today mhm sigh man uh would say father father know uh memorable mem 's good experience excuse scuse uh n't ca n't um sigh couple 'em guess uh people associated probably 's uh one think thank alright bye,9.0,no,26,0
409,okay mm okay sure mm okay 'm uh l_a yeah like weather like sports teams like entertainment yeah uh 's pretty much year round far well actually weather could good could bad n't get get four seasons 's 's kinda like mixed bag um guess maybe 'm kinda used 'd kinda nice explore areas 've lived life done much traveling uh 's little bit uh kind ruttiness uh overall 's okay uh well took computer programming operations 's going back seventies 's technology 's changed lot tell laughter last forty odd years laughter 's 's major yeah um n't know 's kind 's kind inquisitive use mind uh like know brand new something know novel back old days know back seventies 's everything computers back sort like sniff something unique um n't see know many computers around back um worked programming kind logicalness know putting together know solving particular um problem know come step step solutions guess sort back kind analytic ana analytical ana analytical ana analyticalanal ca n't say word laughter analyticalness um problem mhm uh kinda phased still use computers n't gotten n't programming long time um well kinda got another area kinda diversion di uh diversion divorcion diversion another area life uh going back um late seventies kinda took another turn time kinda got back kinda got another field never really pursued degree wanted wow 's good question laughter never thought uh well actually kinda ki ironically ironically actually something pretty simple point time maybe 'm kinda like made little bit depressed um point kind wanted kind nice relaxing job want somewhat challenge n't want like much much thinking 's almost like opposite back old days know want nice comfortable relaxing job feel fulfillment n't wan na tense situation 'm kinda point life want nice relaxing job yeah laughter yeah oh would say well part shy sometimes get going could outgoing um generally speaking 'm 'm shy begin times kinda loosen vocal sometimes take extreme 'm talking much like funny gates open kind laughter open much like back know overall would say 'm kind shy general demeanor oh really laughter laughter yeah laughter oh um well listen music um 'll um well watch t_v um 'll um relax well try uh avoid stressful situations like kinda stay relaxed also talk friends 'll around area around kind comfort area feel safe dialogue people kinda gets thinking problems 'm kinda know focus moment um acquaintances acqu friends acquaintances um 'm pretty good n't really temper problem takes lot get uh explode think w younger days think little bit little bit slight bit temper never really bad temper uh uh temper really issue tend pretty mellow easy going yeah wow 's good question um 'm sure honest um 'd think long time laughter honest ca n't come answer 's really part repertoire um nothing comes mind top head well um well thing think kinda going way back made bad investments bad investments back ten years ago um 'm trying think word 'm looking trusting people like uh people like uh tisk thought expert field um uh inherited money little bit careless kinda vibe know uh nothing would go wrong kinda little bit naitivity nait naitivity um unfortunately made bad financial decisions kinda put bad position rest life unfortunately um medical conditions 's hard rebound know make would say mainly uh financial uh investment decisions really regret wow hmm 's tough one ca n't think anything top head laughter okay oh well uh n't really much family left one um 's uncle communicate c communicate regular basis um lives li lives clearwater florida uh 're 're okay um uh 's like eight 's 's eighties obviously 'm fifties um kinda small talk 's kinda concerned well 's kind somewhat shallow sh shallow level 's n't get really deep uh 's got problems n't really get deep conversation 's really 's really anybody else probably makes little bit depressed 'cause n't really feel anybody really count really confide um challenging uh n't know medical condition think might part problem um little bit b_p_a ocassionally 'll get go restroom um answer question laughter make long story short laughter um challenging get good night 's sleep usually uh wake w wake feeling little bit tired achy difficult uh sigh well 've feeling okay mean um 've kinda feeling mellow actually um 'm 'm trying address issues n't taken uh responsibility um feel bit calmness late well say yes filled questionnaire um 'm positive technically diagnosed take uh think 's called m_m_p_h minnesota multifaceted personality something whether going back six months ago asking questions memory also got questions well psychologically think answers said advise see psychologist psychiatrist n't follow philosophical differences uh think might know mild case depression well know um like said 'm kinda like kinda going along life 'm uh 'm okay know kinda life 's passing n't really fulfilled goals know 'm kinda like alone 'd like girlfriend n't girlfriend 's kind somebody feel get close 'm really 'm kinda transitional period life right uh 's little bit uncertainty know kinda financial uncertainties um know overall 'm good 'd like wow 's good one laughter really happy um let think minute well actually um n't long ago actually went um makes sound mouth okay know one actually come answer um helped lady tradeshow anaheim natural products expo pretty nice uh nice meals afterwards lot exhibiters giving really nice samples anaheim kinda got chance get away l_a um know met interesting people uh outgoing willing like experience product service um around people work uh got socialize uh think pretty happy back uh month ago yeah yeah best friend n't know really best friend uh would say um hmm n't know technically really n't best friend 's really hard answer uh ca n't really come answer honest laughter um like conscientious know flaws every think overall 'm conscientious try honest part major issues might know say little white lies know 'm perfect comes serious stuff tend pretty honest 'm 'm hard worker got g got good work ethic um tend pretty calm part um regret well elaborate laughter uh well um well overall um regret uh little assertive earlier uh earlier life um kinda put position 's going kinda goes back financial decisions sort 's sort like albatross life made bad decisions unfortunately kinda pay price kind like sort like living sort pauper existence right kinda kinda depressing would say 's probably regret well 'd say really know analyze kinda go really feel um think going people 's opinion people 's advice kinda going away basic beingness know like way really felt like example 'd make would aggressive uh investing turned good would 've like sort like winning lotto would 've well rest life laughter unfortunately went opposite way many eggs basket kinda regretted going gut feeling let people influence uh 'cause nature 'm conservative person really concervative investments areas life tend conservative kinda made aggressive financial f financial decisions 's pretty much kinda always goes back area far regret yeah wow 's interesting uh well 've lot weekends laughter laughter well like like profitable uh like something actually know make money 's sort like bread butter time 'cause tradeshows 'm like maybe watch um know 'd like go entertainment maybe go ball game uh go movie go friends would know kinda kick back main primary prima primary focus would know earning earning money weekends uh 's interesting proud um would say lived large lived wholesome life would say never got kind really bad bad uh vice um know lived pretty wholesome wholeso wholesome life 'd say 'd probably n't know 's really proud um far stayed course far uh going real deep laughter alleys speak okay pleasure bye nan nan nan nan nan nan nan nan nan nan,10.0,no,45,0
327,yes fine thank montreal canada moved mom high school yes oh 's cold winter summers short easy accustom pretty quick much anymore um sigh n't much family united states 's pretty expensive go back home go every couple years meeting different people different places different customs uh well recently went um san francisco custom everything city different enjoyed uh took general education child development right work part time independent auto repair shop um sigh working people talking people um um 'm shy sometimes stay lot uh walk along beach uh bike riding arrogant people um try get angry sometimes um try sigh learn 'm learning walk away things sometimes people provoke um 'm getting better 'd say seventy five percent control oh month ago sigh um daughter finances 's really hard n't like arguing children two girls one 's twenty three one 's twenty six one lives louisiana one lives 're older yes um satisfaction giving love someone else worry well unfortunately young sister kidnapped children growing worried lot n't let things lot oh 's easy 'cause 're grown live 's lot easier still worry even though 're grown 'm sorry say oh goodness 're spoiled rotten everything um sigh waking kids younger christmas day loved yes uh 's exactly two years two months um loneliness depression um especially n't family members left united states um went counselor group therapy yes mostly enjoy group therapy 're sitting group people talking um likes dislikes problems sometimes somebody else sharing sh going thing share sh know share 're going help make better um 's affected lot 's helped cope things 's nice somebody else talk yes n't want admit awhile feeling depressed long knew something pretty good um getting positive better yes 's 's fifty fifty nights sleep good nights n't laughter um lack l lack energy next day 's hard especially get two nights row sleep scrubbed_entry felt good um holidays always try know christmas trees kids everything usually good time makes feel good um married um raising two children two kids 'm proud scrubbed_entry thanks um well went full time part time work 's much work automotive field decided go back school um easy going um fun easy get along uh mom 's raised four kids single-handedly hard worker um n't give positive anything try accomplish um going back school sooner uh raising two kids uh 're grown excuse 'm um 'm friendly 'm hard worker time 'm easy get along um like say 'm hard worker give work 'll um long time 'm good mood 'm easy get along um 'm people n't tell attitude talk um like say bike riding uh walks beach beach relaxing 're welcome goodbye,4.0,no,25,0
478,yes uh good thanks east coast work uh rarely prefer uh 's um nice lifestyle like weather better uh lot things living 's favorite city uh somewhat um mostly 's um um like go france lot like food um uh lifestyle shopping sort thing uh art history marketing uh well um became interested high school thought good um classical education uh um interned andy warhol 's magazine high school scrubbed_entry hmm yes yes uh eh 'm pretty happy 'm 'm um consulting write marketing plans sort thing um 's fairly hard writing marketing plan um uh n't know 's hard 's hard um laughter talk someone 's 's marketing requires um knowledge uh know 's 's done takes uh several months one um well guess 'm originally kind shy um become outgoing 'cause work stuff um like exercise uh um hiking dogs walk hill couple times good uh n't remember um n't know nothing comes mind mm um sometimes n't n't clean car might get lots dog hair feel bad always stay top getting car wash stuff uh well conflict brother um decide estrangement makes sense somewhat difficult decision angry behavior n't n't difficult um know wa somewhat difficult loved much um 'm close family um n't really one um japanese friend uh oh think sensor came japanese friend 'm 'm uh close 's like kind mother um scrubbed_entry uh met socially um scrubbed_entry uh n't know nothing comes mind talking experimenter talking experimenter talking experimenter talking experimenter talking experimenter talking experimenter um pretty easy 'cause keep regular schedule um jus kind tired maybe little bit irritable uh good um well 'm recovering p_t_s_d um sometimes feel p_t_s_d 'll 'll take medication 's uh 's left 'm still sti still stress 'm still treated n't really um prefer talk um past 's treated um five years ago uh um sad depressed um also anxiety went doctor um helped uh psychotherapy yeah p_t_s_d though um n't know guess uh 's um kind supportive issues family 's 's supportive doctor supportive um know uh gives good feedback helps make good decisions sort thing yeah nightmares family sometimes yeah thanks oh uh try uh sleep better xxx xxx xxx go sleep sort like um meditate little bit get calm hope help feel happy time pretty much like dogs make happy know life really happy mhm uh guess know nice person 'm thoughtful um good friend um sigh happy fun person um n't know mean 'm forties 'm pretty happy know um know uh 've 've done lot lot work therapy stuff 'm pretty would n't really change lot 'm pretty happy mean sound conceited 'm 'm pretty um happy uh well would would um parents 're abusive n't n't talk anymore laughter um know times know uh know said sai terrible things prefer talk uh let 's see um well started reading book like read um cookbooks reading book called um french women cook 's uh woman 's relationship different women friends different parts france cooking 'm really enjoying book mhm um usually know um get grocery shopping done enjoy really really like grocery shopping go places bit cleaning um uh uh relax oh yeah would wou would say um better self-esteem 'cause used low self-esteem know abused um know wish 'd happier ha happier past know 's taken long time become happy um know matter whatever achievements never happy past always know struggling depressed n't di n't even know know realize whatever events parents um relationship advice would um relationship um bad like sometimes estrangement best choice abusive relationship um j way live life way treat people think know um know believe like deeds important try treat people good way guess know 'm 'm proud know work like decisions 've made um give um know uh job like gives lot flexibility know like sigh um know people like work um also dogs 'm really proud um yeah guess gu n't know laughter mhm okay thank bye,1.0,yes,59,0
401,yes 'm okay 'm good 'm little tired 'm good michigan 'm michigan um long time ago left uh twice year cold laughter cold wanted pursue acting career uh well n't hard decision weather opportunity options options uh driving pain butt easy sigh let 's see besides weather like things convenient like people um laughter actually home um yeah like like 's little laid back 's n't like traffic n't like um uh gang violence certain areas n't like sigh else n't like huh maybe 's 's n't like n't oh know like n't like 's far away home wish wish l_a kinda midwest laughter wish n't far home close relationship family um 's small uh immediate family really small 're close grandmother recently passed 's um tisk adjustment right 'm close family well ca n't see shoes travel often travel yes um getting laughter like getting um 'm wherever 'm going like actually tourist thing get know places people uh okay oh went um france years ago well many years ago little town called carcassonne um actually really fun much like story book far expected see actually saw like remember really enjoyed night everybody closes like windows buildings shutters places united states inside windows outside windows 's glass shut looks like everything abandoned like buildings abandoned pretty cool sniff like laughter 'm borderline sometimes 'm shy sometimes 'm outgoing depends situation laughter um music turn music walk neighborhoods know 'm pretty good controlling temper 'm um hot head hm oh ex roommate loyalty friend yeah um pretty much um thought wanted rent agreed pay good friend let live free n't going happen know loyalty came letting stay anyway letting stay anyway even n't pay 's friend could 've kicked n't left agreed time let know going pay know could 've um could 've could 've bad situation argument real real one wish handled situation differently followed first mind agreed roommates temporarily um gotten money upfront 's wish done n't mind told go along mind told get money upfront n't mm hardest decision um think yet make hardest decision far like tisk maybe um leaving home leaving home years ago like eighteen yeah um felt like abandoning family laughter 's felt laughter um encouraged go live life mhm uh something could erase memory probably friend um uh dating would like erase memory responded told grandmother um ill um 's easy 'm busy day 'm really really tired actually mind spins 's easy actually 's easy 'd exhausted exhausted exhausted 's really hard lot stuff day long irritable like sometimes 've excited anxious side 'm like mm yeah 's anxiousness wan na make things happen goals um uh getting certain kind work um certain amount um income uh taking care know way think take care physical stuff eating right everything yeah um sometimes lot distracting thoughts nothing need focused moment 'm conscious 'm like things 's popping head thinking uh let happen try think things phase pops back phase yeah uh roommate moved really happy finally left laughter um probably reading maybe go go dancing would ideal go dancing go salsa dancing yeah mm ability make decision quicker act really badly uh n't know time someone ever made feel really badly n't feel bad much uh courageous would nutshell laughter general um regret making different decisions younger far moving forward far um career stuff um relationship things wish done things earlier life 'm uh really going personal goals um deciding actually relationship 's long term yeah wish done earlier laughter twenty years ago would giving given advice um continue schooling um beyond discerning choices individuals allow life um part family 'm part laughter thank goodbye,9.0,yes,41,0
414,yeah 'm okay burbank california yeah weather course think everyone likes weather um 's city like chicago new york 's um 's big enough beaches 're land locked woo sometimes smog traffic fact 've like entire life almost enough 'd like go school chicago 've new york couple times san francisco took road trip across country cool saw couple states seeing new places um going landmarks 've read seen pictures um traveled los angeles chicago taking route sixty six best part seeing grand canyon first time coolest thing 've ever seen probably laughter happy happy beautiful nice n't felt like long time studying film 's something 've always loved long remember came time start applying schools n't sure wanted um applied northwestern film student ended right decision ooh laughter um love making movies part really loves making people laugh front camera uh comedian comedic comie laughter comedic actor would totally great 's hard laughter super outgoing love talking people lot like like center attention usually laughter um like watch mindless television like um toddlers tiaras um duck dynasty t_v programs really n't pay attention 'm okay get really emotional really fast usually able keep anger like lash others stuff part sometimes get like arguments fights friends people important really easily hate apologizing people fights could last pretty long um best friend laughter ryan think relationship kind messed crossed lines uh gon na go back way really hard 's um 's best friend miss messed 's 's 's like friendship laughter laughter laughter many um guess scrubbed_entry boyfriend girlfriend okay wish would 've realized bad would 've stopped let continue weeks led break friendship really messed guess spend much time assertive um guess november depressed suicidal told friend feeling needed take e_r e_r choice n't know guess go home get sent mental hospital even though felt like n't choice knew choice decided go mental hospital like worst experience life ever um exhale awful chicago um scary mean n't know anyone like take stuff put scrubs start giving medication 're basically left devices like three group therapy sessions day everyone mostly men um really old scary n't know anyone everyone people n't depressed violent laughter pretty scary um really hard laughter depressed like month stopped going classes work told teachers lies sick kept calling sick work dropped class failing classes turning work n't talking friends drinking lot passing vomiting everywhere really bad place finally gon na kill realized needed help um severe depression younger teenager tried kill um got put therapy quite time figured n't want go bad path wan na get better get help go week feel like right therapist 's really useful one therapist really liked thought could 've gone really far sadly 's back chicago 'm los angeles make new therapist 's okay 's 're great together 's right 's better nothing laughter easy um ever since yawn got hospital start began medication depression um n't able sleep well falling asleep hard staying laughter asleep hard really crazy vivid dreams wake disturbing um guess sometimes reflect things 'm worried happening life 're 're scary seem real sometimes wake ask mom like go really happen 's usually dreamed sometimes 've gotten scared like talk sleep wake probably laughter like two nights ago hard question think november yawn got hospital finally one good day friend took downtown chicago went sears tower got look like big windows walk see city really cool laughter um probably super outgoing likes center attention funny little bit crazy try regret things life oh um would say living worth n't afraid ask help need n't wait gets really bad um guess ideal weekend would laughter sleeping catching movie friends maybe going home bake cookies laughter eat cookies watch t_v sleep like make pancakes morning watch movies watch lot movies would like laughter free time go walk n't know go beach laughter um hard question mean think 've done lot great things life um achieved lot think one proudest things proudest moments life something really small insignificant exercise boot camp last person like cross finish line like thirty push ups guy n't really know trainer said anyone wan na help someone helps half one wanted help decided start push ups n't 'cause wanted get credit thought would make look good one really knows feel really good nice meet laughter bye,16.0,yes,67,1
330,laughter yes 'm okay good l_a 's sunny uh 's near ocean sigh uh traffic make difficult drive around different places 's lack uh uh open uh spaces 're near beach uh um uh n't planned n't finalized travel plans listen music yeah um uh well tend excel things um uh spending time alone versus things uh spending time outside uh lots people 'm reasonable mm maybe maybe yesterday trying figure stuff stu pack something car 'm good deep breath breathe sigh like sigh uh like jogging walking bicycling reading sigh listening music uh math engineering computers uh little bit yeah um 'm student 'm going back school uh biological sciences um sigh started reading um textbooks dream job um sigh medical doctor uh 's guess depends type medicine practice laughter uh mentor yeah mentor lot positive um thoughts um suggestions uh professional met someone class worked professionally 's guess could say academic professional channel sigh hmm mm sigh uh let 's see one memorable ca n't think one moment n't think sigh takes little fall asleep 'm asleep 's 's reasonably okay uh think 'm little forgetful nervous sometimes mm wan na know mm sigh well um think sometimes think challenges ahead uh little daunting feel hard go walk read book listen music um sigh n't mean 'm sure 'm specifically sure triggers anything uh maybe feeling overwhelmed uh feeling particularly tied task n't go therapist um reasonably smart inquisitive inqui inquisitive curious mm guess classes uh sigh somewhat mm patience curiosity uh sigh enjoyed hmm mm think went walk night uh day ago repeat rephrase uh think 're lucky lucky got everything front 'em yeah uh sigh proud deep breath sigh maybe academic achievements uh guess time 've spent studying math science um hmm mm mm 'm sure,12.0,yes,46,1
325,yes um 'm fine little bit strange know talking virtual human um born born l_a raised suburbs um 've lived los angeles 've lived valley long beach 'm culver city um 's great food weather great time 's lot sunshine n't get cold n't shovel snow lots opportunities lot diversity different sorts people uh think 's really great much longer list would like get um traffic think 's number one think everybody hates traffic everybody 's busy time 's really hard get together anybody everybody 's devoted jobs uh 're sitting traffic lot graduated actually um studied marine biology went school orginally studied um graphic design found kind unfulfilling took trip traveled around world started scuba diving realized really loved marine biology 's got everybody 's asking lot lately since graduated think would like exhaling um think maybe managing um managing research know 'm 'm really sure think would like something tropical marine ecology maybe like managing preserve um something like 's hard question answer laughter um like meeting new people seeing different parts world well traveled eight months central america um visited lot different countries um went scuba diving think um think intolerance injustice world probably things get fired vent boyfriend count laughter 'm pretty good takes takes lot really get um fired point kinda blow top people seen angry um point 'm kind yelling screaming angry um n't know n't get think 'm little bit afraid losing temper keep control laughter yesterday actually argued boyfriend um uh getting getting job talking taking job somewhere supportive really wanted say n't go take job six months 'cause would miss supportive um kind argued laughter ridiculous ended laughing end fight um meditate excercise go nature um unplug get away computer away technology away people would say really um 'm child 's parents 're dissimilar example um 'm pretty adventurous person like learning parents uh couch potatoes like watch reality television n't much talk things really um far shared activites know love everything 's much common ground yes think 'm social introvert seem find social encounters draining boyfriend example um derives lot pleasure energy around people 's always little bit opposite recharge sure best friend um guess 'll say boyfriend 's 's kinda default best friend um would probably say passionate intelligent um always tells 'm really hard true um dedicated loyal think 'm proud xxx n't know 's answer people give think 'm 'm really proud try really hard um 've done lot things life 'm really good person think 's 's kind rare find people kind consider kind person cares others wants make world better place 'm 'm proud laughter yes probably fifteen time think eight seventeen years ago yes um cutting one best friends called um called parents let know point took treatment n't first time ever therapist psychiatrist um thought a_d_h_d um think parents really took rather seeking help n't three years uh stopped felt like uh checking parole officer n't enjoying relationship still psychiatrist go med checks laughter uh think 's useful right therapist think n't good relationship therapist incredibly harmful talked people bad experiences wo n't ever go back lately 've little bit um say little bit usual graduated routine go school school things twenty four seven come end without routine 's little bit weird finding finding way productive knowing time 's also little bit um depressing finding intelligence good grades school n't translate real world skills n't many jobs marine biologists california almost impossible ever since little kid trouble falling asleep um four years ago became really really bad could n't sleep night getting four hours sleep sometimes would wake every hour 'd wake morning complete wreck four years 've taking trazadone sleep um ever seen fight club um 're virtual human probably n't seen 's 's pretty much like 'm um complete panicked anxious wreck lose ability deal um lose ability deal things 'm much likely lose temper um ca n't regulate moods 'm really volatile probably months ago think may trip gone away weekend forgotten take medicine um something like ca n't sleep 's happens uh makes sound mouth really happy mean um n't know 's easy easier keep track feel really really bad really happy guess felt happy new year 's really happy new year 's eve um uh ten days ago um boyfriend friends took trip palm spring joshua tree really nice see n't get see often um 've school 've busy really nice reintroduction uh real life think 'm 'm kind 'm considerate 'm tolerant 'm pretty open minded 'm aware faults um try nice everybody 'm curious um world things n't know really like learn uh top head first thing came comes mind diving blue whole belize really amazing um friends know jumped boat come edge uh limestone sink hole 's really really really blue drop hundred forty feet something like two minutes pretty quick everybody could quick um go see stalagmites stalactites 're huge 're larger human 'cause 's cave system um 's really murky 's sharks swimming around pretty good laughter 'm trying remember moment n't much free time last three half years school um laughter uh guess reading hiking um together friends um relatively low key things going movies dinner parties cooking playing cat really think 'm sure 've made mistakes life um know 'm still ca n't bad hmm um n't know hang um hold clothes 'cause nineties coming back fashion hmm um cloudy weather uh beautiful sunsets um nature kind away hubub city getting good grade laughter think boyfriend 's um especially last year 's really inspired quit drinking quit smoking 's really inspired quit drinking quit smoking 's made lot positive changes life know things n't n't hard n't easy say um see someone overcome uh really inspired okay,10.0,no,30,1
341,sure 'm fine little tired california yes um weather laughter last week yeah weather laughter fear earthquakes psychology go harbor college um wish would 've went sooner better late never probably 'm sure n't really thought wan na work field psychology 'm sure wan na work children adults n't really decided laughter n't know n't maybe year um june actually went uh orlando florida sometimes yeah 'm sorry um watch t_v read book talk phone mhm mad mm sigh mom gets business laughter um guess frustrations son laughter um hardest thing um raising child disability knowing help 's hard n't sugarcoat children 're blessing love 'em laughter good bad 's part love fact 'm helping mold good human beings laughter 're really close mean family 's small live within blocks yeah 're close good bad laughter memorable giving birth first time amazing son nine still remember like yesterday laughter like born n't know explain emotional laughter n't know laughter guess lot regrets none really wan na mention guess laughter stay school laughter n't get emotionally involved um let people deter goals laughter oh yeah definitely wan na move 'm okay mean 'm pretty easygoing part n't really temper per se things frustrate anger xxx oh 's easy laughter mother 's like um guess argument stemmed wanting socialize laughter feels 'm married children stay home like ninety nine percent time wanted go socialize ex co-workers basically kinda put n't spend enough time children laughter love mom hate even thoughts frustrated always think gosh n't wan na get mad something happens next day gets kinda intrusive laughter n't know laughter oh know um semester ended noted know well school 'cause long time since went school received grades know b like wow okay made happy weeks ago guess mhm thank mom know 's good bad laughter mean part mom 's positive influence know 's sometimes know gets little like wants re-raise something like n't understand 'm adult 'm gon na make decisions pretty much let need sigh lotta heavy breathing laughter mean walk sometimes get lil ' frustrated whatever 'll go take walk know um try think thank laughter yes yes navy nineteen yeah laughter yeah n't options laughter probably 've stayed lil ' longer four years know wanted experience life outside military enlistment got made little bit responsible friends know join military notice big difference far know live life live um made little bit responsible thank laughter worked medical field five years uh oh thank laughter um n't wanted something lil ' bit different n't wan na patient care wanted work people necessarily patient care provider started going school met husband stopped going school got married started working telecommunications field know conceived child know laughter laughter think 'm caring well know 'm caring know 'm honest fault sometimes know try honest possible people sometimes hurt feelings know got ta honest ca n't let people think know 're trusting mm yeah probably n't never really thought n't know laughter maybe n't really think try best person know ca n't live people think need laughter um n't know laughter never really thought guess know around kids know love around children 's always puts good mood laughter thank okay like said lil ' tired know know part okay know 'm dealing situations well go bed really early long go bed early get good night 's sleep wake early well laughter 's kinda like good bad lil ' bit go bed like eight eight thirty wake like one one thirty laughter moody irritable short short-tempered guess anything think 'm thinking positively know like said especially son disability know look know 's bad mean challenges eh 'm dealing lot better know opposed feeling sorry feeling sorry know 'm finding avenues work know different resources help opposed feeling guilty sad depressed thank occasionally n't laughter n't know skip question laughter sigh green laughter seems word kinda like um yeah probably green like naive little laughter time smart think 'll describe smart mhm yeah okay problem bye,7.0,no,30,0
485,yes 'm bad 'm little tired okay uh saint louis missouri yep uh two months ago uh often think 'm good uh smaller town less people everyone kinda acts different pace life slower uh looking work game designer game developer try something new new place new people uh guess 'm still getting used um guess people different know 's little shops everywhere everything 's different uh man weather 's great people really nice like look mountains beach nice better geography um traffic guess commute sometimes 's maybe many people laughter really never outside u_s uh never opportunity 'd love go though uh game design graphic design sort oh love uh mm playing video games since kid like guys age like making people happy 's kinda easy games laughter uh work make games write paychecks guess uh pretty hard 've trying past couple years 's little difficult guess 'm kinda shy depends people environment guess laughter uh play guitar listen music talk friends 'd say 'm pretty good controlling temper 'm type guy gets angry really easily uh probably girlfriend something silly ca n't even remember uh sigh n't know n't think 'm really guilty anything try avoid guilty hmm n't know ca n't really think anything leaving saint louis one 'cause friends family uh guess benefits outweighed know cons definitely huh sigh maybe getting kicked high school first time uh ended getting friends trouble good kinda look back guess 's something past wish would 've done different uh followed laughter rules guess good student would 've helped uh really close family 've got small family anyway saint louis 'd see couple times year 's really strong ties uh guess friends 're always support encourage help say pretty easy every awhile 's night ca n't sleep 's pretty rare mm tired groggy guess mind 's unfocused day goes heck lot longer uh pretty good really much say uh maybe little bit depressed 'cause 'm away friends family nothing unmanageable uh try talk 'em think something else think happy times uh sigh guess drive 'cause new experience exhilarating um think graduating college 'cause really proud really looking forward future guess kind euphoria standing seemed kinda surreal su surreal uh funny caring nice guy easy get along uh sigh pretty happy guess hmm guess broke last girlfriend obvious reasons tend fight say things wish 'd 'd forget guess n't like live past 's nothing really regret uh sigh keep working hard keep thinking computer playing video games friends uh music uh friends guess laughter mm guess determination xxx passion creativity bye,2.0,no,21,0
416,sure 'm good chicago yeah twenty five years ago yeah 's actually n't back laughter like l_a like l_a mm 's big city 's kinda similar weather got ta love l_a weather tisk family child took little adjustment hard um weather um ca n't think anything right bat sure would n't wan na leave family 's another reason would n't wan na leave traffic laughter really 've traveled tra traveled little bit yeah seeing new places different people way live lives tisk um went monterey california earlier last la middle last year nice um 's good question 'm really sure uh 's probably ca n't think anything right bat makes think uh 's kinda weird laughter astronomy yeah tisk n't know kinda fell took course liked took kinda went path 's much job opportunities 's kinda limited yeah laughter um dream job would like restaurant nice bar restaurant well 'd like something little upscale places go least area live places n't seem kind seem like dive bar kind worn run something nice something different something creative something vibrant something know attracts crowd 's probably costly n't know 's really plausible laughter 'm definitely shy outgoing 'm comfortable people initially 'm pretty shy laughter good idea um lot times try lay back know deep breathing kind clear mind maybe watch movie listening music good reading book kinda takes mind away relax 've gotten much better laughter used problems younger 'm 'm good 'm good learned n't react immediately situations know think speak type thing um ex girlfriend broke three months ago laughter um 're relationship n't well kind going predictable path arguing old stuff n't really n't memorable argument argument 's think n't really seen since n't know 's nothing special typical argument two people grown separate frustrated like yeah guess everybody kinda sees things way know way perspective right 'm sure way right trying convince somebody know ideas 're thinking difficult everybody 's kinda looking tisk yeah mm 's good example right girlfriend n't could 've reacted little differently shown much emotion um 's times life 've gotten arguments friends something like know previous relationships probably n't reacted way know anything bad uh know mature know reveal emotions much type thing tisk um sigh leaving first girlfriend go school eighteen long time ago went school san diego immediately wanted come back kind ruined relationship 're still friends wish n't mm feel like contribute family friends think could better think sell short employment opportunities hard come could find good job 'd lot happy could provide others much burden people around tisk yeah real difficult laughter 's good 's good 're pretty open see mom dad sister quite often 's good relationship mean get along well could mean 's 's perfect 's good tisk pretty easy 'm good sleeper um probably irritable 's 's harder tasks 's kind like feel like 're strange something n't much energy good relatively well spring time always makes everybody feel well never tisk um really really mean feel happy every day point really happy sigh 's probably um probably like superbowl sunday friends good time 's probably like month half something really really happy wish guess stuck goals wish better drive succeed n't know usually settle less n't know guess 's calm demeanor part 's good bad laughter n't really matter kinda live moment kinda realize five ten years gone 've done something um 'm gon na stick argument girlfriend laughter three months ago made feel pretty bad laughter um n't know uh high school got argument friend drove car fast area n't know hit turn n't know coming crashed car wish n't 's long time ago 's big deal laughter stupid laughter immature laughter tisk um parents close friends good group three four friends 've positive influences yeah mm caring guy nice person good heart little little unmotivated needs improve certain aspects life make better uh passionate guess passionate good bad way laughter laughter well care lot time sometimes gets best mm tisk sometimes feel like know 're friends somebody like 're deserve 're 's reciprocated 's example yeah probably ca n't think anything top head tisk um focus school 're young ability multitask scrubbed_entry mm tisk n't know really enjoyed mean things everyday enjoy really enjoyed n't n't know um cleaned bunch stuff room nice shed old garbage alright n't know really enjoyed felt content mm tisk much 's mean 's kinda sad n't know uh laughter think could better feel like 'm underachiever much n't know 'm detail oriented organized like finish tasks um care lot know 'm caring um good intentions mind n't like wrong people n't like lie lie one lie leads another n't like yeah 's 's laughter cool right good day,3.0,no,24,0
338,yes 'm fine 'm los angeles california wow wonderful weather um outdoor activities time crowded pollution norm studied child communications um recently would say yes preschool teacher well 've always worked children ever since eighteen years old figured something helping someone n't pay well 're investing future wow job could get paid outside day get paid well outside day yes 'm kinda quiet also like probably would say borderline like outside activities mainly kinda um activities probably yeah would say 'm introvert slightly uh wow um maybe racist disrespectful person kinda shut reevaluate person 'm coming people ca n't change anyone else 's personality work 'm pretty good usually n't argue people usually walk away mean argument n't settle anything wow 's lot things regret 's anything control probably biggest regret losing mother thank extremely close mother person made person wow twenty ten years ago would tell angry upset time things ca n't control would tell relax hard think 's pretty cool think different avenues deal different people clears throat yes um less month realized evaluate person ca n't really look anyone else help unless start n't feel like person uh individual feel like able control things feel like go seek help good someone else probably good people 've worked population p_t_s_d um veterans know helps lot people n't feel like 's 's difficult 've always like loner someone tries handle ha handle problems situations little depressed think everyone little bit sadness point day day day day started exercise program 'm trying look solution always known ever since child things moved differently kids felt like always different felt like gon na ever understand person would work yes um today got see best friend long time mean happiness comes goes felt happy today wow would say really silly um still 'm around try happy try present situation 're gon na happy one wants around depressed person scrubbed_entry wow mean certain days everything could best quality would say um 'm loyal 'm dependable um would say try moment 'm person really fat flashy f excuse uh flashy materialistic things feel like 'm grounded oh mother far sisters uh mom school teacher made wan na become school teacher 's basically uh sister job forty years 've always stable influence life wow would say sitting sunny nice day talking mother would say would bring smile face immediately wonderful wonderful like get play sports play four five different sports um like go walk like ride bike like get active wonderful mother mean keep going back subject 're introduced life 's first teacher 's first teacher 's gon na teacher long time uh 'm thankful 'm proud wonderful woman mother riding bike simple things going walk sister exercising uh last sunday well thank,15.0,yes,51,1
322,yes fine thank 'm originally india yeah 'm sorry wh miss sorry miss l_a oh twenty years ago oh every three four years um mean first f first six months little difficult got used 'm feel feel comfortable yes um food laughter uh actually enjoy uh flying um eh know meeting different people uh different scenes um know uh try tr try try tr try achieve goals uh 'm sorry oh used run business used travel um meet people get orders traveling involved uh going northeast know ohio pennsylvania uh places like uh meet top uh people uh eh get uh get orders business uh know enjoyed uh listening problems used take dinner uh know uh 'll really enjoyed uh genuinely enjoyed uh talking talking um many open enough tell problems uh know uh main goal main main objective get orders business ooh mm know cook um watch movies uh meet friends uh throw party 'm talking uh 'd 'm engineer mechanical engineering 'm also m_b_a uh clears throat actually branched finance trade stocks um clears throat friend mine um know making lot money stocks um know um first used uh uh know interact uh well also trading stocks realized uh making lot money uh formal course uh attended lot seminars know um lost lo lost lo lost lot money uh started making money uh 's thing said um know watch movies go visit people um play basketball uh shopping cooking 'm good know uh even e even 'm irritated uh know 'm good controlling uh temper last time argued brother dad um know uh getting old uh mean 's getting old um lives india uh planning uh bringing dad 's um mean brother said 's gon na expensive um know 's gon na expensive uh respect health bills uh uh know arguing pool money get quite old mom know pool 're old 'm close parents close uh um brother family um 's mean like tend judgmental uh know think sometimes niece nephew brought brought different way uh know uh know brother n't seem uh think along lines um know uh disagreements mm know 's reason um time think um repeat one time um still could n't follow okay uh yes bout one two years ago feeling uh interested things wa normally interested uh know sort withdrawn um sh able focus things thought maybe go see doctor ended uh mm xxx lost appetite sleeping well difficulty um concentrating know focusing uh getting uh assignments done time uh problems feeling good uh n't started yoga uh know 've year 's uh meditation 's helped lot uh 's uh know diagnosed uh depression thought n't taking medication looking uh uh ways get problem uh realized friends meditation uh know got influenced uh 's little difficult uh late 've able sleep uh within half hour days takes almost one two hours uh go sleep repeat uh uh know uh switch light uh know keep tossing around uh try focus things uh makes uh feel good um bout three days ago proud uh among top two percent m_b_a class um used run business designed product um uh working really well uh happy able design something useful business uh 'm thinking friends would describe uh friendly easy get along uh focused uh intelligent good cook um albert einstein uh mean theories um know obviously involves inv involves lot deep thinking uh first times read uh uh theories uh difficulty um um really understanding uh know mean 's things really try understand 'm able uh know type people admire listen people uh 's diverse um like entertainment industry uh like uh yeah fact women uh men laughter um uh certain areas spanish spa uh spanish spoken uh know would like uh people come america able understand english able speak english everybody participate um l_a um mean like things political leaders uh really makes mad uh uh sometimes think 're wasting wasting time time countries advancing um know th guys n't get things done know feel bad sometimes makes angry uh yeah mean first four years uh obama administration 'd think wasted uh congress acted together uh eh got things done uh know would wou mm maybe could uh know uh made much difficult china catch us know fact china 's able things get things done much faster people still um know uh argue uh know find fi uh find faults get things done um know n't seem realize know uh know clock keeps ticking know get things done um mean like know uh laughter one thing comes mind well know made lot money uh know los angeles uh know thought happened christmas ten years ago uh made happy good music good food uh mean eh party friends like uh know also like cooking enjoy cooking groups groups uh things really put good mood um 'm clean um listen people empathize uh try solve problems uh 'm hoping think 'm know uh advices recommendations uh worth um time thank much 've nice bye,5.0,no,23,0
468,yes 'm okay 'm pretty good feeling little tired uh feeling pretty good part um redondo beach yep like beach like mountains love could go surfing morning go snowboarding day um like go hiking mountains santa monica mountains exact n't like traffic n't like congestion people n't like price cost living specific areas uh 've trying actually um last year summer really road tripping getting girlfriend um 're looking go costa rica hopefully south america summer maybe even road trip south see southern states uh 've canada 've mexico ecuador various states trying get love meeting new people love experiencing new things trying different diffing different foods native local area 's part journey love exploring know planet call earth um recently went seattle canada couple friends uh gorgeous uh flew seattle saw city first two three days rented car headed vancouver canada saw british columbia boy gorgeous lush beautiful trees uh climate nice ocean right people great fun trip around yeah deep breath sigh one memorable sigh memorable experiences probably uh trip took colorado last summer uh girlfriend flew denver n't really plan knew knew couple people living um day uh contacted telling 'em 're coming area showed great hospitality picked us airport let us crash place couple days even let us use car explore state go wyoming see neighbors north great trip great people everything worked well every day something new fun yeah uh studied business management uh economics right um 've always wanted business figured management good uh foundation build uh learn decided go management see various aspects takes really manage business um economics long term investments really wanted start earning stocks e_t_fs mutual funds start buidling portfolio figured economics would great way long term investment financially 's economics yeah 'm really stoked one best decisions probably life yeah consider outgoing 'm 'm pretty friendly n't mind open people stuff sigh like outside like go hiking like go um working gym mostly like outdoors love nature outside puts ease pretty good part 'm pretty mellow chill guy get angry uh lasts like couple minutes know blows n't tend hold things stay angry hold grudges 'cause 's need life 's short um see ca n't even remember last time argued anybody idea probably uh brother girlfriend got little little argument uh like two birthdays ago 's awkward kinda ever since um wish would 've handled right rather letting stretch long 's awkward parties wish would 've communicated told 'em know set differences aside let 's communicate try see come solution 's awkward yeah hardest decision 've ever make man 's toughy n't think 've many tough decisions really say hardest decision 've ever make um maybe moving colorado undergrad two three years ago little tough 'cause kinda think nothing really tough life really hard decision n't really feel guilty anything pretty good person think part could n't think anything something could wish could erase memory um nothing really honest love memories 're usually positive part know 's kinda weird somebody say 've lived pretty good life 'm happy yeah uh 's cool um 'm pretty independent part see 'em 's go long periods times contact maybe couple weeks sometimes even month uh see 'em 's 's good know like say hi show 'em love 'em still 's n't mean like contact 'em could always contact uh 's good part guess young adult mm girlfriend 's family uh 've positive life uh n't think 'd different direction 'cause high school n't really care higher education n't care really thinking long term uh seeing th family think differently like higher education get somewhere life things could lead 've successful uh accounting practice seeing influenced achieve higher life yeah 's pretty easy part close eyes wake morning 'm tired sometimes 'm could sense 'm little drained uh maybe get little groggy 's feeling pretty good part little stressed 'cause finals uh next week uh really really wan na well know close last semester graduate two weeks um part 's 's thing 'm really nervous part 'm really excited 'm looking forward going maui week graduation 'm fired 'm fired see future holds gon na live l girlfriend gon na live trips planned summer 'm 'm excited done school little yeah never diagnosed p_t_s_d 've never diagnosed depression sigh last time felt really happy probably seeing girlfriend graduate couple days ago uh graduated nursing school monday uh see walk across stage stuff 'cause 've together six years seeing go nursing program five 's seeing ups downs 's really good see somebody strive achieve want achieve made really proud yeah probably outgoing friendly positive vibes around adventurous loves sports team player knows leader uh gets little outspoken sometimes really part really little motivated used motivated right 'm maybe 'cause 'm done school 'm n't feel motivated wan na motivated determined right 's 'm going way right mhm biggie sigh oh man could n't ca n't really think time went caving two weeks ago lot fun uh went sequoia national park uh went caving r_t_m class 's like uh recreational tourism management class caving elective professor like world renowned cave specialist took us various caves uh sequoia strangers classmates becoming really good friends end lot fun rappelling caves climbing back going different rooms chutes lot fun yeah ten twenty years ago 'd probably say stay focused school little less social aspects uh kinda stick one sport see far could get ya um sigh sometimes playing hockey uh middle school hockey sometimes someti mean middle school high school sometimes um 's pretty much 'm proud sigh uh 'm really proud 'm graduating getting bachelor 's 'm looking get full time job work law firm something going um 'm really proud motivated determined person long term wise w long term thinking wise 'm well-rounded person really wan na explore world 'm kinda proud opened eyes different perspectives really open mind people rather judging 'em know 's liberty let 'em want uh 'm really proud finally getting bachelor 's hopefully going m_b_a couple years sure bye,4.0,no,18,0
353,yes 'm okay um pennsylvania mhm um well boston couple years moved three half years ago um n't satisfied quality life um maybe twice last year got back year um definitely safer um definitely um well miss 'cause lot family back l_a okay mean everyone loves climate um easy two really good friends boyfriend 've three years helps 's um definitely took bit adjustment um advertising communications um 'm currently working actually 'm working right moment um wan na osteopathic physician um basically versus western medicine osteopathic physician someone helps someone symptoms n't treat symptoms treats whole person look nutrition look diet exercise um variety things actually get someone live healthier life versus medications things commonly prescribed western medicine um well one great things came l_a um exposed degree never heard living east coast um sometimes um well 'm particular people like surround um eh n't like socialize lot people mean tend um like small intimate groups n't tend like larger bigger groups um eh people n't take account people 's feelings um usually try go walk get laughter irritated um 'm usually really good really takes lot spill yell become upset um sigh let 's see uh mm lawyer handling case yeah 's uh 're n't know think 're little bit mediocre 're best lawyers idea laughter um 'm trustworthy 'm loyal um care deeply like try help people um always like try cheer people laughter think 's would 'em yes um months ago last six months um experiencing mental issues 'd never really came across paranoia anxiety knew n't um knew n't could n't overcome um lot better 've lot yoga meditation um kinda seeing things different per view another ano per pe per view different view um 's helped 's definitely times kind sink back thinking event especially event caused stop working um think know difficulty public um 'm still dealing anxiety paranoia something may happen um lot times day happened 'm comfortable going day tend go mornings evenings um n't like go places 's one way one way um well 've gradually trying increase much 'm outside um usually deep breathing um lot breathing exercises try say basically 'm thinking 's going real um try laughter try get go places gradually lot better since uh last couple months much pretty much stayed home um 's good um 's good hear someone 's feedback um feel like 've gotten help inner talk kind sitting journaling um sigh well feel like like huge improvement um cautious er guarded ways thoughts um decisions well 'm 'm oh know 'll really think consequences things want life um 's gotten better 'm okay ok 'm better um first three months difficult could n't sleep night woke maybe two three times would awake couple hours um sleeping night um feel f groggy sigh k feel foggy um low kind depressed mm sigh 's um think 's awhile um working laughter 'm bit workaholic um spending time family um yeah outside enjoying nature reading um close um scrubbed_entry um well parents 'cause 've always supporting loving um giving feedback decisions 'm choosing allowing make um decisions choices life sisters always um know always checking 'm baby 'm youngest family always um looking checking boyfriend xxx um incident happened um 's uh usually supportive letting kind talk work things understanding 'm feeling wanting go public aware 's easy something like grocery shop um running errands without lot anxiety um 'm proud jobs work 've done people 've helped um maybe took job assaulted laughter would going retail unsafe environment listening gut um advice would uh recklessly pursue dreams um thing late running time enjoy every moment life take anything granted um let 's see uh sigh well cooking really enjoy enj really enjoy cooking um made roasted vegetables time 'm cooking really enjoy um garden collard greens came um chilis cauliflower using preparing f um um boyfriend mhm bye thanks,11.0,yes,55,1
419,yes 'm good thank um born mexico city yes um thirty four years ago yeah laughter um try go back year n't three years um n't time 've traveled places 'm planning going back probably next year um well ca n't ever see moving back mexico city 's huge huge city like l_a 's opportunities feel home family moved um like said young parents moved um california work stayed um love traveling traveled much would like um love travel um seeing new things meeting people countries um feeling relaxed worries 're vacation um love places um last trip took seven day cruise went saint thomas barbados saint lucia um saint martin amazing would love trip um think sigh going mexico last time went pyramids teotihuacan many years amazing see pyramids ca n't even imagine able build great um structures uh consider shy um social situations kind feel uncomfortable um 'm one go people start conversations um people come course 'll talk feel slightly awkward kind place party um actually studied history laughter um 've always interested history wanted learn histories cultures course u_s history 'm uh history um 'm actually working uh education field dream job would actually um traveling around world show like travel channel laughter would dream job would get paid travel 's something enjoy um would love job laughter laughter um love reading love taking baths relax like take bath read 'm bath um also like going gym helps uh deal stress actually relaxes even though 'm exercising um used good controlling kid would get mad um easily sometimes adult still get angry easily 've gotten lot better trying think things first saying outbursts things like um last time argued somebody probably week ago um best friend actually kids n't reason thought thinks think 'm better person went school n't 's home kids know 'm able things um n't think 've ever made feel definitely know n't feel like 'm better reason accused argument um well situation wish handled differently um talking upset started pretty calm trying reason let know certaintly n't feel like better towards end conversation kinda turned yelling match two us wish able stay calm maybe asked call later calmed instead continuing argument um angry first hung felt really bad situation felt maybe could 've let let feelings try speak calmly um instead yelling oh wow um 's tough one think um gosh think one toughest tough hardest decisions 've make breaking boyfriend seven years um although knew right thing kind hanging fact together many years kinda felt ending relationship um would 've wasted last seven years life pretty tough decision make realized best decision time 'm actually glad went meet um husband laughter thank um well would say maybe fifteen years ago hanging couple friends club met guys um invited us back place really n't wan na go n't know people mean knew names 's friends really wanted go n't one driving decided go along back house um one guys actually pulled room tried got scared yelled tried choke thought gon na die right right thought gon na kill luckily one friends knocked door heard scream left could 've worse situation still think wish could erase mind um pretty good relationship close sister brother um sister two years younger brother two years older get along pretty well um sister used best friends grew apart um 're actually closer think ever pretty good relationship parents um dad still treats like 'm little kid sometimes laughter annoys think pretty good solid relationship yeah um sigh usually wake times throughout night um think 's rare sleep uh whole night ever um feel little like tired morning wake 's hard 'm morning person definitely um yeah 's kinda hard get good night 's sleep um n't know hard time falling asleep sometimes bad dreams need get use restroom um yeah n't remember last time actually slept whole night without waking least um emotionally good um 'm actually vacation right work 's really nice um physically feel good n't gym kinda makes feel bad um 'cause like working um health wise 'm good laughter um last la past weekend actually went town husband n't go far went santa barbara really enjoyed um went wine tasting went beach really good time um would probably describe good caring person um patient shy um 'd probably say hard time saying people ask favors 'cause 'm always things people um yeah 's think would describe wish outgoing um wish else definitely outgoing um could friends n't large group friends shy um also wish could patience laughter sometimes 'm short patience um wish could find better job could traveling um yes actually took really long time high school go back school get degree really wish could 've know taken care lot sooner um also regret spending seven years life ex boyfriend um would 've told stay focused school going hanging know going parties um important thought education always come first um 'm proud many years school able go u_c_l_a get degree um yeah would proudest achievement laughter okay thank bye,3.0,no,25,0
475,yes good thank el segundo right street beach smog try time away home getting away recently went palm springs wife friends um really nice hundred degrees outside laid pool barbecued um 'm sure probably graduating college maybe uh first person family graduate guess college 's kind big deal uh advertising communications public relations well 've junior college um communications um lot public speaking classes went transferred university um wanted study thing guess yeah work advertising deep breath dream job um probably work um big golf company advertising 'm definitely shy maybe um seem might seem like right 'cause 'm different new setting usually outgoing deep breath sigh um run r like go gym think uh like run outdoors surf lot time 'm stressed definitely try go gym wake earlier surf work um n't really temper 'm pretty mellow n't really argued anyone um uh disagreements know family members friends 's usually uh solved right mm 'm sure maybe uh providing family much 'd like guess mm 'm sure top head 's pretty good 're pretty close dad mom sisters brothers wife in-laws siblings yeah yeah everyone pets probably dad 's 's hard worker uh 's kind trained thing way 's one thing struggle definitely get good night 's sleep 's hard go sleep years um sleep deprived insomnia insom little bit insomnia mean 's getting better 'm getting older 'm trained trained body go bed around one younger two three four morning feel okay happy mm mean little bit right uh wife w wife uh pregnant 'm slowly slowly feeling little bit uh side effects guess yeah like mean feel little little time like said go gym go longer run know 'cause 's healthy 're healthy know everything 's good supposedly uh get uh man pregnancy side effects 's first 'm unfamiliar feelings morning woke sigh um got get together um couple friends play round golf enjoy sunshine nice day outgoing um hardworking family f good family person maybe little bit confidence um yeah deep breath n't recall sigh really try regrets move forward something uh negative guess uh try move go school stay school um invest invest early start four one k early xxx things know start retirement fund um raised good family um training hard worker um enough hard enough worker worker provide family um hopefully uh successful one day um c_e_o company right 'm know bottom advertising agency continue uh work harder move move,6.0,no,26,0
474,yes 'm good uh born hawaii grew colorado yeah yeah seven uh seven eight years ago um try go back year ye twice year yeah um 's compare l_a um 's 's different 's busy 's uh things outdoors mountains uh family fam work yeah love um took year really felt comfortable um got kinda hard year pretty good 've good time um love go beach uh love 's warm time uh love 've met lot people love arts much traffic like everyone else um yeah yeah traffic 's pretty much traffic earthquakes much 'd like um 's nice go place new experience something different um xxx went alaska couple years ago really awesome got go fishing ocean got seasick n't awesome uh cool saw bear real life bear walked yard um really different l_a really cool laughter english creative writing well always wanted tell stories made sense work writing somehow aspect yeah t_v show write everyone watches every week 's awesome really hard 'cause 's lot people dream yeah outgoing shy uh like talking people enjoy people mm um go movies turn music dance pretty good um sigh work couple month ago ag month ago um got mad someone n't think giving clear instructions um tried conversation got mad got mad got mad um felt like n't heard listened felt like n't able real dialogue um could n't dialogue felt like one listening totally um makes sound mouth uh um regrets laughter um laughter guess hmm n't know one mean 'm sure uh one time driving behind someone well cut think 'd one days like year ago two years ago um one days n't want frustrating day person cut almost got accident followed parking spot actually honked flipped really really got skin someone would cut almost cause accident uh flip followed spot asked said miss flip cut said oh know 'm 've rough day n't need attitude daughter told well 're really setting good example daughter know n't need petty like wanted guess ooh sigh mm look going deep laughter um oh guess hardest decision coming mom uh telling gay mean n't hard 'cause right one hard mom conservative trouble accepting took awhile know everything better knew would hard moment know tell something n't wan na hear okay um little kid um grandfather found dog run road uh scrubbed_entry brought think remember kid uh like seeing death like really threw uh frightened uh one moments guess wish n't grandmother destroyed sad uh one moments guess need kid n't really wan na experience like loss like face yeah relationship family pretty good um 're probably close uh know always n't talk often talk love always love see um grandmother positive always encouraging told uh know pursue dreams let little things get 'm glad usually 's easy um sometimes 's um well 've jobs recently start new job uh next week 've uh n't working um tend like body wants stay later later later 'm trying like fall pattern going sleep like two three getting like eleven keep trying make go sleep like midnight twelve thirty end laying bed like hour hour half sh able go sleep get like nine still wan na stay guess uh little scatterbrained like today 'm little scatterbrained 'cause uh tried go sleep early ended tossing turning sigh scatterbrained laughter um well since 've lot time hands like n't usually much time hands sometimes frustrating um n't know 're working guess um yeah think answers question um maybe little absent-minded usual lately uh working thing mm mm um couple days ago got new job laughter got hired um outgoing listening uh attentive um fun loyal think hope um wish uh probably wish looked better wish hair mm losing little bit uh probably wish little skinnier girdle 's pretty tight laughter um know sometimes wish money nothing drastic 'm okay yeah oh um mm hmm little kid uh fat f fat kid um gosh remember like going high school like second day remember guy came um like like pretty nice thought n't realize 'd like like movie right like put bandaids back said like 'm fat cow said like uh like yeah like bunch mean stuff n't know walked around like half hour heard people laughing n't get finally girl came like hey 's like bandaids back say mean things walked away n't like help take 'em remember like could n't get 'em trying find 'em um remember like putting head locker like n't want anyone see cry like put head locker like pretended like looking stuff backpack really know crying fat kid could n't get mean stickers back mm yeah anything um probably yeah sharp inhale um know would xxx would try keep would try let know look things positively like worry people think think spent much time like adolescent worrying people thought got older n't care much started enjoying life lot uh went coachella 's music festival three days friends boyfriend uh danced went swimming barbecued laughed great time yeah oh sigh um guess career humble may uh really stuck l_a um long time uh like hard stayed stay stuck around n't quit know 'm proud 've managed like follow dreams really stay try make hollywood pleasure bye bye bye,4.0,no,28,0
336,hello sure good little tired indianapolis indiana uh 'm singer like singing um diversity girlfriend 's uh taiwan 's dealing different cultures traffic uh crazy people 's um seems hard get anything really accomplished laughter took six months figure directions twenty eight years ago long time n't eight ten years well uh n't like brothers n't want hang around started girlfriend uh uh went back got back orlando uh likes travel meeting new people seeing new places uh helps get l_a get different perspective uh avatar seminar like raise consciousness um cleaned crap head laughter um yeah feel better uh lot psychic attack 's uh 'm psychic 's hard deal laughter um well um 's life see um lot things dimensions places deal emotions people uh direct energy um well lot clearing grounding stay true well 'm introverted like spend time 'm extroverted 'cause like meet new people uh used totally introvert watch movies watch t_v read uh crosswords 'm singer sing write music 'm writing novel um 's sort like matrix um well wrote first twenty pages pretty quick um uh 'm expanding get inspiration uh actually dream wrote dream 's becoming uh could probably turn movie laughter yeah uh people n't respect 's number one brothers n't respect n't really um know want love family n't want hang around brothers 's conflict exactly pretty good get mad year um girlfriend two three months ago wanting something said yawn n't know yeah 's girlfriend know year pretty close um one time singing scrubbed_entry singing audience great um well 'm looking ways expand consciousness money abundance life uh house uh live creative space sniffle uh singing 'm singer let 's see like unforgettable uh 's like oh 's hard part uh n't n't know maybe 's uh kid brothers beat n't feel totally rested life uh feel like uh sniffle n't feel totally safe yeah um little irritable sleeping better since met girlfriend 's totally bad behavior n't know um well feel positive seminar uh let get rid crap brain sniffle positive life um well lot exercises uh reduce stress lot stress comes uh judging people yeah could say laughter uh well sniffle mm mm n't know 's hard yawn hard deal sometimes mean sometimes lot much critical good uh sniffle well watching t_v gets yawn uh lately feeling like need um less judgement fun uh well seminar um week ago think uh well went seminar got able take work yawn sniffle different environment 'cause job stressful sniffle life stressful uh sniffle able take break great uh 'd say 'm outgoing fun smart uh mean l_a people l_a n't want n't want spend time n't know 's l_a laughter uh spend lot time worrying criticizing instead moving forward avoid yeah watching t_v going see movies sniffle trying think n't solve problem uh well little bit n't paid bills lot still owe money sniffle um 's kind self-defeating prophecy proph prophecy uh stop criticizing start creating future instead waiting happen uh girlfriend 's really helpful yawn well 's funny sniffle loves cares abo uh laughter yeah um singer 'm intelligent creative multi-dimensional uh 'm good listener uh well 've written four five books uh voice think would number one 'cause started n't much singing voice okay bye bye,7.0,no,29,0
352,yes 'm pretty good laughter 'm oklahoma mhm yup oklahoma city uh weather great love near ocean palm trees uh mountains love laughter um pretty easy 's differences 's huge city compared 'm traffic definitely adjustment laughter um always wanted live california uh hated landlocked oklahoma wanted get west coast near ocean studied psychology minored art um moment um well actually think misunderstood question 'm still working degree working field psychology well got hired working group home teenage boys trouble law dream job oh n't really know think wan na help people however um like working people realm psychology think may already dream job laughter relax like read watch movies um like go beach watch sunset um hang friends things make really mad um probably injustice towards people um people mistreated abused um people lied deceived including hate lied laughter 'm annoyed uh depends situation try like count ten take deep breath let emotions cause react negative way try like calm say anything um depends situation like 'm angry um time 'm pretty good controlling sometimes think like like people 'll lash people 'm closest times moments 'm good controlling sigh last time argued someone probably parents um 've car trouble lately 'm also running low money 'm sure n't even remember exactly 'm sure kind probably fought fact know need self-sufficient independent take care laughter things like car issues close family 're still oklahoma talk phone time oh definitely mean mom think um 's probably person 'm closest 's great role model 's wonderful person 's hardworking unselfish wan na like ways oh probably time went bungee jumping nile river uganda um still kinda flashbacks moment freefalling like coolest experience ever love things crazy like fun time laughter yeah well ha traveled lot nowadays n't travel much anymore used work cruise line um norwegian cruise line would go travel time also eleven month long trip around world uh mission trip went helped different third world countries really cool uh love going different places seeing new places meeting different types people um 's easy like get absorbed small bubble forget 's huge world 's different types people different types beliefs 's really cool able branch see meet types people see diversity terrain earth even way earth looks different places cool served military laughter nope 've never formally diagnosed although would say 've probably diagnosed depression um studied lot psychology throughout years 've 'm probably ninety nine percent sure 've struggled depression yeah lately 's pretty easy throughout years 've definitely lot issues insomnia um like either able fall asleep like waking constantly throughout night right 'm really experiencing much past 's definitely ongoing issue 'm pleasant person n't sleep well sleep extremely like important think maybe lot people like need good sleep function 've feeling really good um past several months unemployed um coming really really tough um recently got offered job um like last week definitely think 've going lot crap lot depression 's like lifted lot lifted n't pressure longer like gon na make ends meet city 's really expensive n't job feel feel much relieved feeling good laughter um yeah well mean like said past week 've become lot positive kind like feeling bit like hermit way 's hard like new city really knowing many people course like said job kind causes kind like shell guess kinda 's um since got offered job much confidence like positivity um things starting work good laughter oh probably couple days ago actually went um went explore part south bay area n't really gon na go jog along beach really foggy outside fog started lift um beautiful went drive kind like cliff 's beautiful scenery 'd never seen like overwhelmed pretty like oh ca n't believe get live definitely happy moment laughter best friend would probably say 'm daring bold fearless um 'm unique artistic n't would guess 'd probably say 'm non-conformist n't really think way lot people question everything good bad thing yeah laughter um probably like fact really try live life like regrets try live exciting life way think especially ever since finished college traveling like 've tried moving different places think fact 'm really afraid n't let things hold back want something wan na something guess way like like fact 'm really independent go whatever feel like even 's hard still 'm proud 've overcome lot struggles oh 's like minor things regret throughout life 's anything really major 'cause think pretty much everything 've done 've learned whether 's good bad would n't really change anything oh sigh would say would tell kid keep dreaming big n't let anything anyone says like stop believing anything 's possible um guess 've grown adult 've really seen started really believe truly anything possible really want something go get would tell never give always believe wan na oh let 's see 's kind hard laughter um oh guess went home recently christmas back oklahoma um got see friends college n't seen 'em n't seen like since graduated um like four years ago um really awesome go went dinner went afterwards good night really really fun cool 're welcome bye,10.0,no,35,1
347,yes alright uh new york state um girlfriend months ago mm 's okay 's little different 's working uh weather 's nice uh nothing far 's 's pretty good 's working nice yeah 's real well moment uh real good mean uh criminal justice uh wanted go xxx one courses decided pick one uh certified nurse 's aide n't know maybe nursing someday much uh gets expensive read usually n't know um usually n't get real real mad pretty good lot better child laughter oh ca n't even remember 's 's long time guess n't know really reading 's right waiting appointment recently girlfriend 's positive uh met sister-in-law mm close anymore 'm alright oh n't anything common 'em n't talk n't know really n't um 'm patient listen try reliable moved california new york 's 's good experience nice exciting 's fairly difficult wake easily sometimes takes long time get tired fall asleep know quiet try stay 'cause get irritable alright anxious trying find job really j pretty pretty normal children uh 've got four 'em um three ten two eleven year olds yeah 's 's hard n't know things yeah 's lot fun watching 'em grow grow way interact sometimes 's people 's 's really amazing see fast know develop n't know 's 's lot tied probably memorable probably yeah 's pretty easy 's 's lot fun worrying 'em know worry 'em getting hurt much probably go college get know try find good better job know feel happy time though mean 's 's real hard pinpoint,16.0,yes,52,1
402,yes okay atlanta georgia um two thousand six never uh n't like laughter oh 's completely boring 's little l_a preferable think places uh uh engaged fiancee lived florida moved um loves water love mountains missed hiking uh n't love florida n't tied decided wanted go somewhere could happy also um opportunities business great things offer laughter easy 's much n't like l_a love l_a um think feels magical uh many creative different people ages um shapes sizes colors races um mountains water uh city things people meet love everything l_a uh 'd rather talk um n't go college 'm still figuring um n't know may may something animals dog really love never dog um adult cats uh um think 'm late bloomer 'm working whole conversation n't really n't want job want purposeful way create wealth something make money long run depends situation general consider shy although people would consider outgoing mm put classical music laughter music classical music 'm especially ex especially stressed um play dog go walk think 'm really good controlling temper part um came laughter um um financial stress uh um 's probably lot examples think 'd rather move another question yeah 'd rather talk either laughter 'd rather talk easy um lot better recently um history chronic insomnia health problems 's challenging um feel rested time past week 've feeling lot better um yes um weather changed spring sprung 's little warmer um trouble depression winter um trouble tolerating cold n't lot things normally also sick flu um past week decided um feeling better enough needed kind get rut start um getting focused around things things need day walking dog every day um isolating much seeing friends seeing 've feeling lot better like 've making progress um uh past week things taken positive turn yes uh 's quite time officially 's probably n't know exactly let 's see maybe fifteen years ago um feeling suicidal um found better alternative um therapy since eighteen 've tried variety um methods uh started working neurolinguistic programmer um really first person um helped uh make permanent changes able get anti depressants well even though 've struggled bouts depression 's never anything extremely severe um one best things ever happened well um physically ill uh chronic fatigue syndrome client referred person um cured disease um um treats multiple issues everything interrelated um first conversation knew right step happy um felt like um felt found answer 'd looking n't given hope uh um laughter cloud nine suffering wh long time felt finally found answer solution looking like best thing ever life best decision ever made felt extremely hopefuly first time long time laughter um went um went music store uh thinking um taking instrument used play violin child uh 've wanting something would give access creative side felt 's extremely repressed um went music store try um see would feel like um handle instrument nan see thought something wanted pursue awesome laughter mm yeah 'd rather talk laughter um well laughter 's probably lot um 'm always working optimistic um 's challenging takes time um yeah wish could hear internal voice better laughter yeah regrets sure yeah um value would make better relationship decisions uh fiancee positive person life ultimate supporter uh 's think unique uh selfish uh probably little giving good um always best interests heart highest morals anyone know would give somebody shirt back um genius many ways uh um 'm pretty lucky think 'm quitter despite stressful circumstances long periods time n't given taking risks um,11.0,yes,51,1
348,yes 'm okay uh born downtown los angeles love l_a love traffic four five love beach live near beach love 's much love lo love weather love nothing little bit uh guess visiting family destinations uh last flew cedar rapids visit friend couple weeks 'm flying back february eleventh see 's old friend uh 'm pretty outgoing talk people enjoy talking people talk people airport um garden little bit read little bit watch t_v 'm basketball fan go beach weather nice go pool uh annoying people rude people people drive consideration others swear lot laughter oh 'm alright get mad awhile oh probably daughter 's twenty one almost twenty two uh 's probably lives college comes home weekends probably room probably mess 's fight 've years yeah yeah 's better n't live together time though uh guess making right decisions like start started little education right school go right activities um setting good example good role model oh everything kids greatest joy life love much get um enriched fulfilled kids little see things eyes exciting wan na share everything older son 's financial analyst daughter college 's liberal studies major 's gon na teacher uh business uh yes 'm office manager laughter um dream job wow 's hard um n't know like job 's good like people enjoy 's fun uh son told 're called teacup generation 're fragile laughter think 're pains asses 'em yeah maybe month ago mm new boyfriend things going really great 're going laughter 's great 's okay guess newness wore 's hard 's hard n't really 'm sorry know n't know mean mm k yes oh n't know year n't feel well could n't n't feel right could n't pull yeah oh sad lack energy n't really n't really motivated n't really n't really happy self therapy yes well many changes cha still n't feel great 's good talk someone tell feel even 's get something chest tired sad depressed blue 'm happy n't feel good 'm happy stay st n't stay stay n't go friends much used 's hard terrible n't sleep thank oh crazy distracted 's hard cope things easy know mundane things difficult well around kids fun uh oh went son son daughter-in-law daughter went hawaiian food got together 's always fun get together got together house christmas enjoyed getting together uh take better care health guess uh n't know n't know mm well daughter 's pretty positive upbeat uh parents 're gone pretty positive um suppose going trip canada daughter memorable uh flew detroit best friend lives stayed went drove detroit canada niagara falls went buffalo 's three girls daughter think n't know third fourth grade something like fun us get together things yep laughter exactly like 're outgoing 're outspoken tell like um 're high energy people lot anxiety like lot things oh n't know three four weeks ago well say feeling attributed weather n't like cold weather 'm comfortable whenever weather changes sorta get well 'm funny 'm hardworking 'm uh care everyone 'm kind compassionate person sympathy everyone 'll reach someone see store anywhere needs help suppose raising kids good people 've turned sure bye,20.0,yes,67,1
473,yes good new jersey five years ago bout year um 's weather nice n't take long art scene music scene 's always something people laughter um people kinda superficial like art um took lot art courses throughout high school um little um 'd like create hard outgoing friends tell 'm outgoing listen music read pretty good n't even remember last time argued someone mm n't feel guilty anything mm ca n't think situation wish handled differently probably moving l_a eh deciding go away family come kind difficult decision yes 's good still talk um like almost every day see sometimes works mom um kinda taught person today hmm ca n't think event wish could erase memory like 's easy mm yawn lot good um whenever go gym get happy yesterday crazy crazy laughter like way ca n't think time someone made feel bad 'd tell everything 's gon na okay um probably family visits every time go back 's really nice see family see 're um really enjoy karaoke recently mm people put people music um art exhibits uh working friendships um 'm good listener really good giving opinion help others,0.0,no,17,0
339,yes um 'm okay born san bernardino california yes um 'm staying sister north hollywood um makes comfortable possible uh love weather entertainment public transportation um 's difficult find full time employment people n't friendly people south 'cause lived south um two things n't english major college n't finished yes um 'd like recording singer yes um 've always loved sing time child times um 'm alone um extremely sigh guess would say um inter minded like um lot thoughts keep clears throat 'm mode n't really um interact people also interact people change modes um started yoga couple weeks ago last week thursday tuesday um usually try um remain quiet listen situation 's person 's situation clears throat 'm dealing 's annoying try um think alternate ways would make situation better um come alternate plans wo n't get annoyed um pretty good um mm may argument weeks ago um timeliness like meeting time showing time actually last um monday yeah mhm um cautious people 's intentions listen really well 'cause people usually tell intentions without even um realizing realizing um good listener patient um fun loving generous um depressed sometimes um generally good person yes um within year half ago um knew often thought situations um happened past kinda blamed situation future um um certain settings um um see certain types individuals certain settings reminds younger things happened changed future plans um try used try avoid types situations certain types people time feel like um handle things better far um similar settings similar people um handle things better um like believe n't worry much um 's allowed know actually speaking issues um relieves tension um holding inside 's 's helped first difficult open internal emotions um actually good know things occurring um 'm able um communicate certain individual um relieves stress uh trying figure everything alone often times um speaking issues um allows come alternative plan may better 'm hearing speak issue um diagnosed depression um doctor felt probably see therapist um depends um 'm really busy week lot things often try plan things 'm planning things affects sleep might wake middle night sometimes 's easy sometimes n't irritable um v irritable um feeling anxious 'm calmer um today n't past week um midst um searching stable stable place live um taking long find stable place live becoming anxious thank yes um maybe october um well mother first came came visit october first got good time first couple days um happy see n't seen year mhm um 'm proud 'm able um adjust different situations um older 've gotten adaptable different environments different situations um 've learned resourceful 'm proud um 'm sorry oh dad uh sister 's positive 'cause 's finished master 's degree um mom sometime um best friend positive 'cause started new business two years ago 's enthusiastic 's inspiration um someone lies consistently um listen well um sometimes um give good advice 'm good friend um normally things say 'm going 'm dependable um communicate well um enjoy people 's company time especially 're good moods um around positive people music um puts good mood um comedy shows put good mood um good food puts good mood um graduated high school really um never forget wonderful day confident accomplished um extremely optimistic hopeful future 're welcome bye,11.0,no,42,1
324,yeah yes fine uh born raise right west side venice beach [ laughter ] everything beach weather uh beach weather um everything girls uh nothing nothing traffic maybe uh family uh mother 's uh good hearted person gives good advice oh pretty close yeah family comes first family number one uh go gym know exercise go beach party every wathc basketball football take trips go vegas um one went gym last night friends live vegas go often um probably take trip get get away city minute 'm city boy ca n't away long know love city um go beach oh 's 's problem years um n't know little anger guess anger anger management problem [ laughter ] um [ exhales ] probably um yesterday forget uh 'll go gym um people um n't know people uh way guess get nerves sometimes [ laughter ] dream job well working l_a_x built city right playa vista 're pretty much built 's built far past ten years always wanted work airport l_a_x finally accomplished goal getting g_e_d two years ago 'm l_a_x yeah 'm working l_a_x right l_a airport yeah working airport um guess holidays girl worked crush turned lesbian 's beautiful haha yeah [ laughter ] yeah think youngster like teenager fourteen fifteen oh oh stopped uh went like like rehab replacement fifteen sixteen little bit time ewoled like escaped went back jail 's stopped uh problem 's fault excuse n't teenager teenager teenager uh restless destructive know um like 'm 'm going forward fast want yeah 's 's kinda hard uh know know avoid going forward guess could try move faster um 've accomplished goals life far wan na accomplish 's taking longer thought would know would excuse yeah guess yeah like mood swings guess mood swings yeah uh could something small 'll snap know oh time yesterday maybe today yeah angry um anger [ ang ] guess 's kinda hard control anger know 're going couple things life n't pleasant know yawn um best friend best friends excuse yeah bop bop uh 'd 'd 'd describe guess character outgoing know good sense humor um know issues know understand 'm going something know get mad something easily could laugh right know outgoing smart intelligent strong goals 've accomplished past years especially uh jobs scrubbed_entry getting g_e_d getting job l_a_x always wanted thank yeah yes um decisions made guess uh younger life even know even past years nothing major past years 's pretty much decisions made young know younger life uh stay school um n't know join gang stay school pretty much uh control anger issues back [ laughter ] n't know today 'm happy um going exercising going gym working going beach hanging uh family members mine know friends yeah best qualities uh qualities 'm neat person 'm outgoing know n't know qualities qualities meaning mean qualities comes mind give definition qualities laughter yeah nice day okay bye,5.0,no,50,0
491,yes huh overwhelmed funeral attend tomorrow found doctor got health issues hard honey putting one foot front trying get done like said 'm overwhelmed ca n't stop need united states america born los angeles oh love beach honey like weather um beach weather oh traffic people hollywood type image uh much used 've europe went uh cruise um several cruise uh jamaica canada mexico spain morocco um london portugal por portugal yeah 'm going hawaii august meeting new people seeing new things assimilating people 's culture uh customs traditions oh best trip ever took student santa monica college took trip tr uh mediterranean cruise oh god best time life oh god um ship felt electrifying uh fulfilled satisfied felt like um eh moved past fear said 'm uh 'm law school 'm xxx gon na 'm gon na attorney 've always wanted attorney 's long time coming oh dream job law firm husband living beach community friends know community communit community know kn know 's small town beach community law firm working husband providing legal services people indigent uh 'm middle um 's one side like withdraw know n't wan na front 's another part personality like oh 're front 're gon na seen eh 're w 're constantly conflict yeah oh get bike ride bike ooh depends situation need control mm trouble made made people back oh god last time really argument n't know 's awhile um argument 's long time ca n't even remember oh god let 's see sigh goodness mm mm oh dealing siblings family trying diffuse situation get heated remain cool calm collected oh mother passed years ago conflict belongings stuff know stressful time everybody else el everybody 's emotion kinda high arguing back forth 'm like 'm distant laughter reality rea 's amazing people n't say people grew family fam grew household got older know xxx god takes us different path 's like people grow household 'em wh may say thing n't know like peaceful living honey pardon oh god positive po um uh positive influences ooh college professors um friends church members um people like ooh god divorce continue education um mother sick primary caretaker put dreams aspirations hold um doozies well mom 's one mother said done wanted right according god would want n't wan na curses life blessings 'cause bible says honor thy parents mother father thy days live longer wanted blessings curses marriage laughter marriage ugh god negative influence life negative impact taught made today animosity sigh lately 's difficult 'cause school finals midterms coming um sometimes rather difficult irritable annoyed grouchy well stuff going last week 's real real real real real crazy god pray pray pray pray pray lord pray one thing 's keeping kinda like grounded going church never yeah went divorce um mother passed really depressed fatigued tired uh xxx xxx xxx matter could n't get enjoyment feeling emptiness loneliness isolation shock trauma hard har difficult time um time took time process work way got busy life stuff yeah need somebody talk laughter yes oh god loved therapist uh talked things gives different perspective listened oh god well 's guy church really like likes throws kisses 's oh outgoing um determined yeah trustworthy faithful loyal oh god patient um patient oh ex-husband daily daily thing 'm glad get rid sigh know worth value high self-esteem well school library tutors uh outlet riding bike either going swimming oh friend mine um c_d release party excuse yawn ooh excuse another friend got together catered party nice happy thankful grateful thankful invited stage 'cause sings felt got stage 'cause like sing 'm shy front people 're judgmental might look got stage 'm like well th feel feels good laughter oh god aw man oh accomplishments acc accomplishments um overcoming 'em one one setting goal reaching 'em okay thank honey hon bye,8.0,yes,45,0
340,yeah 'm okay fine pensacola florida uh met wife mississippi stays moved l_a two thousand four yeah sixteen years twelve years ago something like pretty hard know different environment learn different things weather 's lot uh many people laughter uh guess whenever uh two years ago uh 're pretty close nah n't really guess time cash mm nothing really nothing really makes mad anymore yeah 'm good controlling temper mm really sure last time 'd say maybe 'm really sure money know money uh read bible uh really really n't anyone right really ca n't think really ca n't tell n't know 's pretty easy mm sleepy laughter uh behavior got better uh started going church ch gave life lord started going church 'm trying right things uh knew needed life way whole lot better um 'm good hang around know good uh like make people laugh um look people take know mm 'm know others things like uh went disneyland son birthday uh daughter really enjoyed yes see someone 's look like get raise try know make sure right things better uh knowing evil world son live used hard prayer know faith everything 's gon na alright 're fast growing things different know world way worse hmm flying airplane 's first time yeah nervous 'cause 'd never plane felt little nervous scared say yeah one flew back home know visited home went back week two yeah seeing family n't seen 'em couple years pretty cool uh right college 'm taking tak 'm studying want culinary um culinary cul culinary arts want chef like cooking decided go ahead know get education yeah 'm happy 'm proud made decision serve lord right things uh last night 'cause 's like know everything 's gon na alright worries 'm happy hmm cooking love lo cooking puts good move seeing kids happy 's 's cool nope ca n't say regret anything really n't know problem prob bye bye,1.0,no,22,0
355,yes alright born uh los angeles california uh well weather uh fact uh people n't obtrusive like east coast uh uh traffic smoggy weather used 'm unemployed rarely go anywhere b_s uh business uh computer uh option thought place could get job business bu business degree accounting business computer methods took took business computer methods option oh 'd probably like uh professional sports player actor something something enjoy like uh ride bike like watch sporting events ca n't afford go pretty much watch t_v like travel like say n't money anymore 's alright uh sigh people chicken heads get nose people 's business even 're strangers expect family member friend know especially internet feeds lot know orwell referring spoke big brother nineteen eighty four uh n't much much different would otherwise uh 've many temper outbursts uh kinda argue aunt basically making leading statements trying trap saying something relative uh annoyed greatly uh 'm kind outs parents 'm kind black sheep oh uh mean mom 's done help 's done lot know uh anybody far well mean 's remember one time like thirteen went friend mine see crosby stills nash young concert forum seven kids picked sizzlers right across street forum uh eleven o'clock night could n't imagine day agreed oh probably uh going cape end uh baja peninsula 's cabo san lucas taking ta photographing bridalveil falls yosemite uh probably two majestic seen see sights 've ever seen could afford travel diagnosed depression hospital visit april two thousand eleven uh took lexapro stopped one day n't wan na anymore n't feel helpful feel becoming zombie yeah depressed job two years lost job october two thousand ten except day know jobs like 'm fortunate get know daily things focus groups like n't worked thank especially 're fifty six years old well mm eh uh guess general feeling hopelessness get bicycle lot walk bike four hours day split two hours yeah good get easy 'cause 'm old young could n't sleep six four six hours night 'm restless 'm old sleep much easily pray go sleep 's 's 's ca n't trouble sleeping pray recite different prayers like lord 's prayer hail mary stuff like 'm able fall sleep n't know probably uh ca n't specific remembrances know money spend know job money spend probably fifteen years ago well n't really enjoyed anything uh last week uh made seventy five dollars job county basically emergency preparedness exercise running personnel enlisted people play basically relatives people fall uh bombing staples center know asked questions signed know told 'em gave 'em information 'm missing know relatives basically provided county basically went routine downtown l_a hard uh routine follow act like actually missing somebody give specifics characteristics height weight etcetera n't best friend uh 'm uh bright 'm perfectionist job 'd say 's got business degree 've never motivated person went school went two state colleges two junior colleges meet end believe probably significant contribution con contribution made know uh guess self esteem might say something hang wall yeah regret know alienating family members would 've uh basically impetuous left left jobs thinking think thinking know could always get another one know basically blow jobs could probably work one employers used work 've added locations burned bridges 's possible thank hasta luego,10.0,yes,45,1